The Trap- An SKZ fanfiction

Chapter 17

Felix said, "I love them." Hyunjin chuckled and said, "I love you."

Both of them froze, smiles gone from both of their faces and silent. 

Both of them stood there awkwardly watching the students slowly empty out the hall to rush to their classes before the bell rung.

Hyunjin took a deep breath in and realized, it was true. Hyunjin had always considered Felix an angel, a ray of sunshine in his life. Felix used to be just 'his best friend's younger brother' a year or two ago. At some point they became friends. And somewhere there, Hyunjin fell in love.

Hyunjin looked down at his feet and smiled. He loved Felix. 

Hyunjin raised his head smiling at Felix who cleared his throat and was also smiling. Felix said, "I know, I love all of my friends too." Hyunjin's smile faltered as Felix walked away to his next class.

Hyunjin stared at Felix's back as he walked away, looking at how Felix's blonde hair made him glow. Felix was out of sight, but Hyunjin was still staring into space where Felix once was. The halls were empty and the bell rung. Hyunjin took in a deep breath and stood there for a while.

Meanwhile,

Lee Know had been waiting for an hour, Han still hadn't replied. Lee Know started to become fidgety and nervous. What if Han hated him after this?

Lee Know's breath caught. He felt his chest tighten and his vision get dark at the edges. He curled into himself and pulled on his hair, hoping not to get a panic attack. He let out a choked breath but it made no difference. The room felt hot and humid. The room was slanting to the side and he was going to fall. Han's voice rang in his ears, "I need a minute."

What if his Hannie never forgave him. Hyunjin was Han's brother after all. Lee Know didn't want to lose Han, not after they had grown so close. His eyes watered and he tried to breathe, but all he could feel was pain in his chest. He fisted his hair in hsi hands as he tried to ignore the voices and memories in his head. Hyunjin, Felix, and Han; the three people he loved the most were hurt because of him.

Lee Know heard a loud ringing in his ears and he let out a sob. Hyunjin was always there to help him with his panic attacks. Always.

And here was Lee Know, who abandoned him. Lee Know cried and cried. He curled into himself on the floor. He wanted everything to stop and go back to normal again. Everything hurt. He couldn't do anything. He may look strong, but he felt helpless and useless.

Lee Know let out a scream when someone touched his shoulder. Lee Know would have pushed the hand away if he hadn't heard that quiet, soft and soothing voice say, "You're ok, breathe in for my jagiya."

Lee Know tried to follow the soft voice's instructions. It took him a while before he could breathe again. His vision cleared and he was met with a pair of concerned eyes that looked like the night sky.

Lee Know choked on a sob and pulled Han in a hug. He hid his face in the crook of Han's nexk and sobbed. Han hugged him back, rocking back and forth lightly as he whispered sweet nothings. Lee Know tried to pull away, more aware about Han's leg and Han said, "Nope, you are staying here."

Lee Know sniffled and looked away ashamed for breaking down like this. He never felt ashamed with Hyunjinnie. Han took Minho's face in his hands and looked at him lovingly.

Before Lee Know could say anything, Han said, "Remember I told you we'd figure this out together? I keep my word ok? We are going to make things right, together."

Lee Know looked into his eyes for any sign of pity, but all he could see was immense love. Lee Know didn't know whether or not he was imagining things because of his panic attack, but he knew one thing for sure.

He couldn't lose Han.

He loved him.

Lee Know took Han's hands in his and pulled Han towards him. He said, "I hope we get to stay together forever." Han looked confused for a second; his face heating up as he felt Lee Know's hands on his face, and the close distance between them. Han stuttered, "I... I um..."

Lee Know closed the distance between them, pulling Han in a passionate kiss.

After school,

Hyunjin had texted Felix to meet after school. He was positive that Felix would come because he had never asked Felix for something before.

Hyunjin waited in the garden, staring at the text he sent to Felix. There still hadn't been a reply. Hyunjin waited a little longer before getting a text from his sunshine.

"Sorry, can't come, lots of homework tonight."

Hyunjin's heart sunk and he swallowed down the disappointment. "He's busy Jinnie, stop being selfish." He thought to himself as he bit his bottom lip. Why did asking favours feel so difficult? Hyunjin sighed taking a deep breath.

"Maybe tomorrow," He thought and got up, walking away.

What he didn't know was that it was Felix's turn to ignore him...