Scars Of Love | Iguro Obanai

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The both of them stood in their places when you utter out a sentence for them to realize that you don't have any intentions of hurting them and you most likely remember your days as a human, as a pillar. Meaning Kanroji and Iguro were safe from any harm.

But the serpent pillar still had his doubts on you so he kept his guard up while Mitsuri cried once she was cradled up in your arms.

"We almost lost our hope in looking for you!" she cried out to you which made you hug her gently despite trying to breathe out due to her tight embrace.

Iguro watched the scene unfold in front of him and lets the both of you be as he observes you, be couldn't let his guard down even if that was you. There wasn't much that he can do at the moment, you on the other hand was relieved that you're in a friend's embrace after being gone for week. You still wondered why Douma has let you go out just like that without even trying to stop you, what was he thinking? You can just leave him then and there if it weren't for the fact that you want to discover something from living in a demon's territory.

With a soft sigh. You gathered the strength to let go of the love pillar before looking at her "I was saved by a certain demon"

"You talk as if those low life demons have value in this world" Iguro quickly reply with a scoff in which Mitsuri immediately scold him for.

"Don't say that!" Mitsuri said "At least she's safe!"

"Don't forget that she's a demon now."

Mitsuri stayed quiet after that and ignored his words in which made you sigh at how they're quite arguing in front of you. It pained to see how Iguro cared for her feelings and when it was you, it was easy for him to ignore everything and let you down. You waited for a few seconds to talk since you want Mitsuri to settle first before she can answer your upcoming questions.

"Why are you guys even looking for me?" you ask her in a curios voice "There's a high possibility that I'm dead or a demon, just like what I am right now. Why bother the risk of danger?"

"You make it sound like we want to look for you here" Iguro butted in but Mitsuri gave him an emotional look which silenced him.

Of course he wouldn't look for you, why would he when you weren't someone who's important in his life? You would have felt hurt right there and might've left them, but you weren't feeling any type of emotion aside from being blank. You forgot the benefits of becoming a demon, your emotions can be controlled at some point. You don't feel much as when you were a human.

Maybe one day you'll be able to move on with this way.

You simply chuckle at his words "Don't worry, I was never expecting for you to come find me."

Iguro was surprised by your response, he didn't actually expected you to react in a way that he wasn't familiar with. But Mitsuri didn't pay attention to it and continued on to ramble about what happened in the corpse these days, you were happy for her. Even if it actually hurt knowing that you can't hang out with them anymore due to you being a demon yourself.

"Maybe you could be like that Kamado boy's sister!" Mitsuri beamed in delight as she explained how Nezuko is an ally despite being a demon, you listened as she gushes about the girl in interest since it was a long time since you heard about Tanjiro and the others.

Was it that long? No, not really. But it seems like it, you were away from them for some weeks and couldn't even walk under the sun because of your identity. Being a demon was hard but at the same time it gave you some benefits, like how you're away from the human society which actually have you a bit of peace than you had when you were an active pillar going around hunting demons down.

Now that you're one of them, and under the uppermoon two's supervision. You couldn't do anything that'll make Douma suspicious of you, even if that demon knew how much you hated him and the others. You couldn't risk exposing yourself to him and ruin whatever plans you'll be able to make in the future.

"I don't think I'll be able to" you told her gently as to not upset her "I'm clearly of no use, I can't do much as a demon."

Mitsuri seemed to object your thoughts though and continued on to tell you "There's more that you can do! If Nezuko-chan can be an ally, then so can you!"

"We've known each other for years [First Name], we've been through so much. Don't let being a demon be an obstacle to help everyone, you can do it just like us! You always did!"

You could see the despair in her eyes as she tries to keep herself intact in front of you and Iguro. Speaking of Iguro, he wasn't talking much so you figured that he didn't want to do anything with you for a bit. Which you understand because you didn't want to have a conversation with a demon who you didn't even have a decent relationship when you were a human.

He stood there watching the both of you talk as he inhales your features, there were some changes in you that he could point out. You were much paler than before, your eyes were different, they weren't like before that can actually calm a nerve. But of course, maybe it was from the fact that you're already a demon. That's why you're like this, Iguro should know that.

While you thought about Mitsuri's words, you couldn't help but think about what will happen if you did go back to the headquarters knowing all too well that you're a demon now. Who would want you then? You weren't going to be fully innocent in their eyes, they would think that you've consumed humans after being away from them. And if they knew of you living with an uppermoon, it wouldn't end well.

"I can't" you told them "It's better to keep a safe distance from the corpse, I can't risk all of you in danger."

Mitsuri looked confused at your words "But how? You can talk, your memories are intact. What could go wrong [First Name]?"

"There's a lot of things you don't understand, I need to be away from you. From all of you."

Even Iguro looked confused when you said that, but he clearly has some suspicion after you told them that. What were you afraid of? And for all he knew, Mitsuri was also one of your close friends. So why couldn't you disclose such information to her? Especially when it seems life threatening.

But you stood there with a firm expression, seeing that whatever was in your mind won't be altered no matter what happens.

The only thing they saw from you before you left was your smile.

"Trust me, I'll come back to you guys. Just don't forget about me, okay? "