Mafia fascinations(2nd book in mafias obsession series)

chapter 7: Smoke, Sex and Sweetness

!Trigger Warning!: This chapter contains scenes of drug abuse and sexual scenes, if any of this triggers you please move onto the next chapter.

"Alright cockroach" I giggled, taking another drag of the cigarette in my hand. 

"What?" Creed looked at me in utter confusion. 

"Does that mean I can stop being your cockroach?" Lye asked me, hope in his eyes, making me giggle more.

"Nopes, your both my cockroaches" I laughed.

"Kill me" Creed groaned.

"Only if you kill me first" Lye stated.

"Aw poor babies, but nope, neither of you get to die, lucky for you or unlucky for you depends on how you think about it, cockroaches are harder to kill than most bugs" I smiled.

"Should I be worried on why you know that?" Creed looked at me in bewilderment.

I simply shrugged at him with a smile and allowed him to be confused, taking pleasure out of the moment.

I know society says your not supposed to say or even think things as such, but being as high as I currently was felt like it was helping everything. I didn't have to think about all the negative thoughts clouding my mind, I didn't have to feel the emotions that felt like heavy bricks on me and best of all I didn't have to pretend. I could just be me. Not the negative me, not the fake me, not the me I had to hide myself away from the world. Simply the me I liked, the me I could love instead of hate, not too overly happy but not suicidal either. As much as I would never recommend it to non-stoners, being high felt good, it felt like a relief. 

It especially felt good when I wasn't doing it alone, sure not all of us was completely high but we were still each doing something; whether that was drugs, cigarettes or vapes, and best of all we were doing it together. I probably sound like a true druggie, almost as bad as my father was, with the way my thoughts are going, but honestly I couldn't care less. 

"Should we make this a little more fun?" Fern asked with a smile and I looked up at her, wanting to know what she was thinking.

"Go ahead" Lye looked at her, seeming almost as impatient to figure out what she was thinking as I was.

"Play a couple of games, bring in some alcohol" Sure it sounded like a bad idea to most, but we weren't most people, neither did we follow by the rules of society.

"What games?" Lye asked.

"Maybe a little truth or dare, strip poker, would you rather, I'm up for anything" She answered.

I mean it was just us, so who really cared how far it would go? 

Only a few minutes later and we were playing truth or dare, eventually it got to my turn and Zara looked at me with a little glint in her eyes. What was she planning?

"Truth or dare Allia?" She grinned

"Dare, why not" I smiled and it made her grin even bigger

"Kiss the hottest person in the room without it being Sadie or Gray" As soon as she said those words it felt like my entire body became on fire. Was I to kiss who I truly found the most attractive? Or was I to kiss someone as a cover up? It was just a game right? But what if someone caught feelings in the moment? What would Sadie and Lye think? I wasn't allowed to kiss either of them so my options were limited and so was the way this could go.

Fuck it.

I crawled over to them and whispered "remember it's just a game" before kissing them. Usually I would kiss someone softly and slowly, but this was a moment for fun and who was I to let the others down? I kissed them deeply, closing my eyes and taking a little control, pulling on their lip a little with my teeth. My tongue exploring their mouth and choking on their own a little. I heard some of the wolf whistles and laughs in the background but they felt like they were miles away, my only thoughts surrounded around them. Around how attractive they were to me, maybe it was simply teenage attraction or maybe it was more, but did any of it matter?