Mafia fascinations(2nd book in mafias obsession series)

chapter 33: The terrifying woman(who's 5'0)

I'd heard stories about meeting a boyfriend's mother, but I never imagined myself becoming like one of those girls. I had always been best friends with my serious relationships so meeting the parents happened before I was dating them, making it ten times easier.

"I'm sure she'll love you" Lye tried to reassure me, but truthfully I still had the memories from being paralyzed that I was doubtful if even he loved me.

"I hope so" I mumbled. We were being invited over for dinner, an event i only had in my mind and was very nervous for now that it was actually happening. 

"Believe me she's the sweetest woman you could meet. Slightly scary, but sweet. You make me and Lye happy so she'll love you." Sadie told me, squeezing my hand softly. Maybe she was right, maybe i could do this. Nodding softly, I walked with them to the five cars waiting for us. It felt like we were back in time and I was being picked up from the train station again. 

As we travelled to the house that brought me too many nerves, all I could think of was what her impressions of me would be. Her impressions not only mattered because she could be my future mother-in-law, but she was also now technically my boss. At the end of the day for me to be truly part of the organisation, it was her opinion that mattered, meaning I needed to impress her for not only one reason but two. I needed her to like me. I needed to be good enough. Not being so for my family was one thing. But his?

The journey seemed to be taking forever, the roads going from one to another and the time nervously ticking by. I knew we had plenty of time but what if something happens that could make us late? Being late is the last thing I wanted to happen, it would be the worst impression. Should we have left earlier? Maybe we should have left in the morning to cause less stress. 

"Little one calm down, just breathe ok?" Lye told me, placing his hand on my leg that was bouncing up and down. My heart felt like it was about to pound out of my chest and my palms felt like they were getting itchy. Impressing her wasn't just a want, it was one of my biggest needs. 

Eventually we arrived outside of a massive house, or more like mansion. The place was covered in tinted windows, a big silver gate was keeping us from entering with two lions beside it, stairs lead up to massive doors and a forest view was behind it. Two guards standing next to the gate came over to open our door, making it feel like we were royalty. Although i was extremely nervous, all i could think of was how excited child me would be in this moment. 

As a child all I ever dreamed about was becoming important enough to be treated like royalty. For others to show me respect and treat me like a superior, to treat me the way they were treated. I suppose I simply dreamed for what i didn't have. Younger me would most likely be looking at me with awe, as well as the 'I told you so' expression. Younger me predicted every day that once I turned 16 my life would become everything I could ever want. Seemingly they were right, I now had two people that treated me like I was the best thing that ever came into their life, I was studying for my dream job and I was somewhat apart of an organisation that I always dreamed about. It was like the God's had planned out me eventually having happiness and peace, I just had to go through extreme torture first. 

As we stepped out of the car, Lye squeezed my hand in reassurance but the smile i'd rehearsed for his mother felt fragile, as though it could break with a single glance. I needed to be perfect, but I was anything but perfect. In all honesty, although I had gotten everything I had once dreamed of, I was a mess. 

Stepping into the house, opened by a housekeeper, I tried to focus on my breathing but it almost seemed impossible.

"Miss Vendetta, your son and his girlfriend have arrived" If I was to run it was now. But I stayed in my place, practically daring myself to go through this. 

"Zay, son. It's so lovely to see you again" She was practically perfection, from the way she dressed, to the way she moved, to the way she spoke. How was i to impress someone who was literally the definition of perfection? It seemed like an impossible task. "And you must be Allia?" Hearing my name I looked up and nodded softly. "Well it's lovely to meet you Allia. Do come in, all of you. I have the perfect meal prepared" of course even her meals were perfect.

I suppose I knew where Lye's perfection came from, it must be in their DNA to be so perfect. As she took to her dining room, I felt like a peasant in a house for royalty. It wasn't like the feeling was far off from the truth. All three were practically royalty to the point I would find it disrespectful if anyone treated them otherwise. 

Sitting at the dining table, workers revealed our dishes to be perfectly cooked steak with red wine to drink. Truthfully i felt that i could've guessed it would be this, after all what other meal screamed perfection. 

As we ate the conversation kept light and sweet, making me somewhat wonder what she was hiding under the wall of perfection. After all no one was ever truly perfect, they only presented to be. In that moment i realised i'd been holding my breath, waiting to see if her smile reached her eyes and eventually it did like she was pealing back a layer of her hidden barriers. 

Truthfully it made me smile myself, as much as I wanted to be comfortable around her I wanted her to be comfortable around me too. After we had all finished our meals, she went to get out the baby photos, making me wonder if this was how non-hidden relationships were like. Every serious relationship I had always seemed to be somewhat hidden, so having one were it wasn't felt strange. Yet at the same time it felt like one of the best feelings to exist, to not be hidden like being with me was the worst decision someone could make that no one else could know about it, like they were ashamed to be with me. Instead Lye and Sadie seemed somewhat proud of being with me, I didn't understand why and didn't think I ever could but it felt like my heart was smiling at being treasured for once.

"I believe they'll be happy with you" the words I had secretly been hoping would be spoken were. She accepted me and that meant more than anything to me. I may have not been accepted by my own parent but I was accepted by his and that meant more than enough to me.