Mafia fascinations(2nd book in mafias obsession series)

chapter 12: I swear it haunts me

This was my worst nightmare. I thought I had left this all at home but god was I wrong. 

Lye looked at me and chuckled at my very obvious facial expression, "baby calm" he said kissing my cheek lightly. Like hell that would happen.

Selfish people. Something that had no point to it. Money hungry businessmen. That was the best way to describe the terrible sport people called football. I hated it. The only moment I would even tolerate such a thing was when my brother was around, and that was only to show that I supported all of his decisions even when I was completely against them. 

Me and that sport had many things against each other. But their was two things that I hated the most, first there was the fact that people got millions of pounds for kicking around a ball, a kid could do the same thing it wasn't anything special. And the second thing was my own personal experience, that sport gave me more trauma than a person could give me. That sport made me become extremely self-consciousness of my body as a kid, to the point I decided to starve myself until I eventually lost more than half of my body weight. And it gave people the chance to bully me because I was a girl and everyone else was a boy. Funny that huh, it was always sexism, racism or homophobic assholes which was usually the cause of bullying. Truthfully it sucked but society decided to just turn a blind eye to it most of the time, one of the many reasons why I hated society.

I had already tried protesting to let me stay home but Lye was persistent on me going with everyone to this stadium they were going to, his reasoning being he felt like he could protect me better if I was with him. Not that I would need much protecting if I just stayed home watching movies and eating popcorn, but being the obsessive girlfriend I was I reluctantly gave in. Now i was regretting my decision more than anything. I mean if it was Liverpool playing I'm sure I would be somewhat ok with it, but no it just had to be Manchester united, I don't think my night could get any worst. 

At least I somewhat looked pretty though, my hair was up and I was wearing an oversized football jersey with shorts underneath. I had promised myself long ago that I would never look like this, however if I was gonna go I might as well look the part for the event. I was lucky that I didn't look too bad in it, although I supposed if I did I wouldn't have kept the outfit on and I would have just gone with something simple instead.

Sadie however looked a lot better than I did, but that was a no brainer. She was absolutely gorgeous so of course she would look better, I was lucky if I even passed as pretty half the time. This wasn't me trying to be a pick me girl either, I hated the attention so there would be no point on being so. I suppose I was just insecure as fuck, you could blame my parents for that part of me. I mean even if it was partly a joke, which I question if it ever was, my adopted mum's favourite nickname for me was "menina feia", a nickname that literally translated to "ugly girl". Or maybe it was the fact that my dad would tell me how I wasn't skinny enough for a lot of things or my birth mum would tell me how others had the right to bully me as I looked like an easy target. Either way, whichever trauma event that caused the insecurity definitely stayed with me for life.

Deciding to no longer think about what trauma had shaped me the most as a person, I decided to look around instead. God there was a lot of people, I mean it already felt like a lot with the amount of friends that were invited but it was nothing compared to the amount of people in the stadium. There must have been over 30,000 people here and that made my anxiety shoot sky high. 

Instinctively I grabbed Lye's hand at the fear of both losing him and worry that something bad might happen. "I love you pretty darling" he whispered, placing a kiss at the top of my head which calmed me a little. Of course I loved him too and I'm sure I had proven that by doing one of the things I absolutely despised just to keep him happy. The things I'd do for this man. 

I'd literally jump onto a plane that was guaranteed to crash for him, and that was no understatement. And by no understatement I mean the fact that I literally planned for such things to happen, just so I could create a whole new civilisation with him and Sadie. Why? There was no other reason other than I only trusted them and Shaun to make a good new civilisation with me. Oh and the fact that I was possibly a crazy yandere psychopath, that hated everyone apart from them, so I wanted to keep them as far away from society as possible.

"And they score again!" the loud speaker boomed through the stadium, interrupting my thoughts. If there was anything I hated more than football, other than my favourite people being harmed, it was loud unnecessary noises. And to me this was one of them. A lot of people say this is an experience of a lifetime, those people must be on something stronger than magic mushrooms because that was one of the most absurd things someone could ever say.

"Wooo!" Liver cheered along with half of the stadium, how was anyone enjoying this went way past my pay grade of something I could answer. I knew the world could be filled with boredom, but was it that bad that people enjoyed watching such a pointless activity. Maybe playing football in your garden or a local park could be somewhat fun, but this definitely wasn't. Watching football whilst at least 25,000 people got drunk and high and way too angry over some stupid sport was not on my bucket list of things I ever wanted to do, but I guess love was filled with sacrifice, even idiotic ones like this.

Overall I was sure this sport haunted me with every negative feeling it ever made me feel and I wanted nothing more than to escape it. But if my partners and their friends enjoyed watching it so much, I suppose I could make the sacrifice and somewhat tolerate the absurdity.