Mafia fascinations(2nd book in mafias obsession series)

Chapter 46: All story's must come to an end

For once i wished i was hallucinating. But i knew i wasn't. Staring down at the cameras, my heart broke. It was the moment of truly moving on from my past, but is this really how it had to happen? They were there, it was obvious that it was them but my mind seemed to be trying to make it out as someone else. Anyone else. 

All those promises they made me, all that false hope. The feelings that i had someone by my side when in reality it was simply my imagination. 

"Allia" Lye looked up at me with regretful eyes, placing his hand on mine. Creed was standing behind me and Sadie was next to me. At least i had them three, at least i didn't completely lose everyone. 

"What do you want to be done about this, it's your decision darling" Sadie looked up at me and all i could think of was our memories together.

"Remember you got me ok?" They smiled reassuringly, hugging me. I nodded and hugged them back, taking in comfort from their prescecnce. "I love you" I told them "thank you, for always being my side and all of it". "Hey of course, what are bestie's for" they laughed, holding me close. 

"I mean I'm proud of you if that means anything" It meant everything in the world. Them being proud of me made me feel less alone, like what i did wasn't all bad. I was grateful that they always had my back, that someone was there for me when i needed them. And they gave me exactly what i needed. 

"You better look after them" I glared at their boyfriend, their boyfriend laughing. Both of them were two very close people to me, their boyfriend practically being a brother figure to me and them being my best friend. "Promise" he laughed, as they gave each other the sweetest kiss. I was truly happy for them, happy that they had each other and that they could be together. 

"I accept them, as long as they take care of you properly. If they make you happy then i'm happy" They told me, their smile practically lighting up the entire room. I was grateful that they accepted my soulmates, because i saw them as my platonic soulmate and all i could think of was how happy we all could be in the future. 

Seeing Shaun on the screen, being in the same room as Olivia and Daniela. Being in that place. The place that i was trying to survive. They acted like they didn't know what had happened to me, they comforted me and helped me. Yet they were friends, or at least acquaintances with them all along. 

"I swear i'm gonna fucking kill him." Masky yelled, but before he could grab anything i grabbed his wrists. I wasn't gonna allow him to do anything stupid. 

"I'll deal with it Masky. Flora needs your comfort" I stated, nodding my head to Flora who seemed to be in complete shock. "Don't do anything stupid, alright?" 

"You sure you've got this?" He asked me, clearly fighting with all of his emotions.

"I promise" I told him, kissing his cheek softly.

"Bring them here." I told Blade and Creed, them both nodding at my orders as i went to get ready. I needed to talk to them, here their side of the story.

"Why am i here? Allia what's going on?" Shaun looked at me with worried eyes, looking around the room we were both in. It was a simple investigation room, with only a table and a couple of chairs.

"Cut the bullshit Shaun. What's your relationship with Olivia and Daniela?" I asked, standing in the corner of the room and trying to keep as calm as i could. 

"They promised they wouldn't hurt you-" he started.

"That wasn't my question" I needed the answers to my questions, not the questions he thought i had.

"I work with them. They were gonna save you from whatever the fuck you call this organisation. It's not a true organisation, it's a fucking gang Allia. Their not safe." He practically stumbled over his words.

"Don't you dare disrespect them. You have no place to do so. And i didn't need saving." My emotions were slowly slipping away, leaving me heartless.

"What if they ki-" before he could finish his words i cut him off.

"You will leave this town. Your lucky i'm not making you leave this country. Never return." I stated my words, making sure my sentences were as clear as ice.

"Allia please i lo-" I cut him off again.

"Don't you dare say those words. Leave." I finally turned around "you have 24 hours to get out of here otherwise Masky has permission to kill you." I knew those words would hurt and a part of me wanted it to. I wanted him to feel the same pain he put me through. I wanted him to hurt. Just like i was. "goodbye shaun" i whispered my final words before leaving the room.

As much as I hated that I was now saying goodbye to him forever. A twisted part of me slightly liked the emotions I was feeling, I liked how strong they were. I would never get the sweet things from him, not properly at least. But this felt like the strongest gift of all, the most meaningful one.

Because my fascination with death went further than the line of murder. My fascination of death stemmed from the ending of things and the thought of what new would arise from it. So no they didn't bring me roses or give me kisses or love me enough in ways, but what they did give me was a feeling i would hold on for forever. That feeling was Euphoria until it crashed and became something more tainted and torn yet beautiful, pain and ending. What a feeling that i was darkly grateful for as it gave me questions that would go unanswered and keep me alive for another while longer.