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i don't know what to call this but it's an entry so

That was beautiful. Ugh, so goddamn beautiful. It made the list.Naps the list. There's only one fanfiction--well, was only one--on that list. Wolf's Law. Unexpected ending, ups and downs, in betweens, moments you dreaded the bad decisions of main characters, and where you were grinning from the progress made. But holy craps, the ending was...Halfway through this, I thought about a fanfiction just like this, except different in a million bajillion ways (Different fandom, plot line, etc.). You guessed it, the one I just talked about.That was seven months ago, I read that. Seven. It had affected me so much. Now this one...It's in that category. Definitely. I honestly won't say it's the better one, but damn.You tugged at my heart strings a million different times, in places no fanfiction could satisfy. You wove words that fell together in such a beautiful...Perfect web. The plot, like I said. God, it's those ups and downs I love. It can start off in hell, start to balance, and then just plummet all the way down.Now, I don't know when you started or ended this, and I don't have tImelda time check, but if yout really are around 13 like you said...Just. Wow. Then again, I bet there's some mistranslation on my end, because I can't comprehend the possibility of that.I regret not commenting the crap out of it like every other story I love, or even voting on each chapter, but it was because I was so tranced, captivated. I voted on the chapters that resounded the most on me and commented on what made me feel...Thank you so so much for that amazing read.

This was a comment made by a reader nine months ago on Adam's Song.

I don't really know why I went back to check it out, I just -- did, for some reason.

Anyways, I just -- well, honestly, I don't know what to say.

I just feel like I don't appreciate you guys enough.

I mean, I know that I don't respond to everyone's comment, especially on older work, such as Adam's Song, but I just feel like I don't give any of you enough gratitude, or, you know, the 'thank you's' that you deserve.

I was thirteen at the time I wrote Adam's Song, as you can tell in the comment.

And I re-read that last chapter of Adam's Song, and I found myself compelled by my own words. All I could think was "why did I write this?" "how did I write this?"

Never once in my life have I been breathless by what I've written, mostly because I think so lowly of my writing, and I don't think that what I write is actually compliment-worthy. But this time -- this time I was, and I just cannot believe it.

Adam's Song. Really?

Don't get me wrong, it's the most successful book that I have on my Wattpad, but I also know that I wrote this book when I was very, very unhappy with my life, and most importantly, myself. I was very depressed at the time, and I was always busy writing sad journal entries and very dark poetry. It was a very embarrassing time in my life and my writing career, and so, I feel like it's not very positive of my to dwell on my past.

But what I was really trying to say, (because I obviously keep getting off topic) was that I'm sorry for not giving you all the gratitude that I know you deserve. For everyone who's stuck with me since Escape, thank you, from the bottom of my heart. Sometimes I still cannot believe that I've made it this far with my Wattpad, and it's all thanks to the people who decided to follow me, decided to read, vote, and comment on my books, and give me never-ending support when I needed it most.

And I know, I know, I don't give my enough credit for some of the entries or chapters that I've written, but I also think that me not accepting a talent that I have is part of my age. I mean, let's face it -- I'm not happy with where I'm at in life, I'm not happy with my appearance, my academics, my extracurricular skills -- nothing, really. I guess it's kind of all part of becoming a teenager and getting into high school, and I feel that I just might need time to accept the person I am and the talents that I have.

Fortunately, I have people who accept me for what I look like and my sexuality and the many things in life that I actually devote myself to and have a passion for, and thankfully, you are all part of those people that care for me.

No matter what you believe in or how you perceive me, I want you to know that I care about you, and you are my second family. There is nothing, past or present, that I would put in front of you guys, and I love you with all of my heart's content.

Thank you --

for everything.