Breathe ≫Rants/Life/Advice/Etc.

if you knew

I'm sorry...this doesn't really seem like the appropriate time to be having a lot of thoughts and stuff, but...I don't know, I've thinking a lot lately...

like, I don't know anymore

I don't know who I want to be,

or where I want to go in life,

or what I want to do with my writing.

It's literally all such a mystery to me and no one ever seems to help clear a path to help me find out the me I'm supposed to be.

suppose I'm in high school now,

I'm a straight A student,

I'm doing well in band,

my life is going just great.

But none of those things ever truly made me happier than writing;

not playing the flute,

not learning new things,

not anything else but writing.

From a very young age, I've had this vigorous desire to write -- anything, everything, somewhere to spill the thoughts that crowded my mind.

And now it's like nothing, though...literally nothing.

I haven't been able to write very efficiently and it's destroying me, honestly.

Perhaps I'm just really lost...I don't know...

But I just hope that I will one day get enough courage to ask for help,

because I think I've fallen,

and I cannot pick myself up...

I just want to find myself,

the real me,

the only person in which I have been searching for...

I think I'm going to take a semi-long break from writing, but I'll still be on Wattpad to interact with you guys

i love you all,

and I do hope you understand where I'm coming from xx