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you guys...

ugh, you guys...

right now, I'm having 'day before' anxiety attacks and god, it feels awful but it seems so worth it too...

tomorrow is incredibly big for me --

huge, really.

tomorrow i'm getting my first kiss,

from brody,

and I seriously cannot wait.

we're both so inexperienced bc neither of us have kissed anyone

and seriously, like we're going to be alone on the Ferris wheel

and it'll be dark with music in the background

and (if it goes how i imagine it -- which it probably won't) i'll say some things,

tell him that i really love him,

and the kiss him

tbh i really want a picture so that i can just keep it forever and ever and ever.

you guys, i really, really, really like brody,

and he likes me a lot as well.

we've already talked about having our first kiss before,

but he's been doing marching band so much that we've barely had time to really hang out.

and tomorrow he can hang out with me at the festival tomorrow

and i am so happy omg

literally...october 14th will be our 7 month anniversary...

7. months.

it's unreal.

but, yeah, i just wanted to announce my plan to have my first kiss tomorrow :) xx

also, let me just address the feeling of what i felt earlier today

like, okay, so we're on a ride,

and the music's loud and the bass is perfect and deep

and it makes your heart jump and you can hear the blood rush through your ears

and you feel the wind in your face,

and the laughter from your friend,

and honestly, it's like the highest feeling ever.

you can literally think about nothing else,

it's so awesome.

you've got your hands up,

singing along to a song you don't really like that much,

but still like in this occasion.

all you feel is this sort of numb-like high well up in your stomach and it spreads throughout your chest and body and you feel happy and giggly and just want to enjoy life, man.

and so now i have an awful headache and i feel like shit and i need sleep but at least i had a really good time. 

honestly, i haven't had that much fun in years,

and god was it overdue.

i'll try and update tomorrow night, but no promises, so i may just update on sunday instead, since destiny and i are pulling an all-nighter.

i almost forgot:

HAPPY 700 FOLLOWERS CAITLIN, ILY

you guys are chill as frick

love you all xx