Refined Ingracia

Kabanata 19

Alone

Nixon escorted me to the car, and drove me back to the safe house as William instructed him, I didn't ask or object to what william wanted to happen, if possible, I wouldn't have the courage to do it.

Walking on the corridor, it was the top floor building. I've seen some men in uniform as we are passing by, walking like a zombie, I still couldn't believe the shooting incident, how the hell it happens when it is supposed to be me going to meet Ana and looks like his family is there too and Sarah Lee. It was supposed to be a happy meet up but ended with the bloody shooting.

What did I do from my last life that I suffer this much. All I want is to be happy but it seems it's hard.

There are questions in my head that I wanted to ask but remain unanswered.

Nixon didn't say anything, he bowed his head as he dismissed himself as I entered the door only then I felt alone, I exhaled my breath, taking a walk and scanned around the house, I could say the house is beautiful, the owner must be rich, the house screams of luxury, the design, the decors, the famous Chinese golden tree in the corner and the big Buddha, the miniature of old ancient Longwang, should I say the owner must be religious, I stopped as the paintings catches my attention, this must be the young Darius Huang II and maybe his dad next to him, i smile a little, they have in common, the stern faces they have, like him too.

everywhere, i could see him!

In the corner, the cctv camera is moving and stares straight to where I am. Your checking on me huh, looking at the camera and frowning, I'm so pissed with you right now, how could you treat me like this huh! I may look fragile to you but I am not stupid! Okay let's say, if lieutenant Lee is dead, Karen Lee must do her revenge, is this your way of protecting me? You're imprisoning me, I can't even decide for myself. You did not even ask me? Why? Why don't you trust me a little huh! If you make me understand, I will understand! You selfish asshole!

Check all you want!

Ignoring the camera, I continued my steps and checked more,the wall paints, if I have my own house I would love to have the same floral design pattern with a purple colored paint on my living room would be lovely.

Home. What is a home?

I ended up sitting on the couch, the playback on my head kept playing, lieutenant Lee dead, William dad shot, Nixon shot and yet he drove me safe, where is Ana now? are they in the hospital? which hospital? My Head aches from my thinking, I cut my vision on the TV and decide to turn it on suddenly the news flashes on the screen, William interviewed of what's happening. He looks very calm and like it's a normal thing to do. The dead body of lieutenant Lee flash and his dad rushed to the hospital, broken glass everywhere.

He wears the same shirt and the blood stain on it, I checked my wrist it's been 3 hours and yet he didn't change.

My phone vibrated, I picked it and answered.

Mom

"Grace, are you alright?" Her worried voice was on the line.

Mom must be furious now.

Turn on the Loud speaker.. My dad suggested.

Hearing them my suppressed tears fell, I cried, my moms soft voice, I miss you mom I wish you were here with me and hugged me tight. I cover my mouth for her not to hear me from crying, she will be worried if she hears me. I quickly calm myself down before speaking.

"Mom...mom I was there.. And... " I blow a little so that my voice won't shake.

"And I saw everything....im lucky I didn't get shot mom..." My tears fell down, silently.