Talks
Abot kaba akong pumanhik sa loob at umupo sa harapan ng kanyang inuupuan. My eyes darted on him. I stare at him and circle my eyes around his face, Hmmmmn, he looks a fine man though medyo mabait tingnan ngayon. Ibang- iba noong una ko siyang makita.
" Let's get down to the business General Huang, I am called here for?" Ayon ko. My voice sounds angry which I am, really. I couldn't think how the hell he send his men by sneaking my room? Why can't he ask my number or does he come at me directly without bothering his men. Isn't that hard.
He seem not bother at me. He looks so cool drinking his tea.
Nanginginig ang budhi ko sa inis.
And the worst is that he looks entertained. I raise my brows at him, sending are you kidding me sir?!
Are you challenging me how far I can plead you?
Why would I do that! Be calm self! Breath...breath.
He was seriously silent. Itinungga ang hawak niyang tsaa at uminum.
"I'm starving can we eat before we talk. " Ayon niya.
Muntik na akong matawa potik!, Tinitigan ko siya ng patalim. What is he thinking na okay lang aayon ako sa gusto niya at parang tutang susunod sa kanya at ano pa yayakapin ko siya sa aking mga bisig wowww! E di ikaw na!!
Umigting ang kanyang panga sa nakikita. My displeasure hit him.
Good! I smirk.
"So, General is this some kind of a wifey and a hubby doin thingy now? Wowww so sweet of us huh! The famous General eating dinner with his secret wife in a private place, should I consider this as a date? Or maybe you are here to be a responsible husband or maybe because you need me now as your wife which of those sir, I'm all ears." I smirk, he received the message. Surely he does.
Sarcastic isn't it.
He looked at me with humor in his eyes, do I look like a clown now!?
Arrrrrrggghhh!
Silent.
He stayed silent!
"Why now? you left after the wedding years ago
I live in peace those years, why don't you let me continue to live a peaceful life or you want divorce---," I stop then continue, pumintig ang puso ko sa aking nasabi, "I can sign it now if you want..give me the paper that would be good for us after all this will be our ending." My lips form a line after my rant.
I meant it.
No man would go away after his wedding day that is clear as crystal, he doesn't want me. The most insult I received my whole life treating unwanted. The least I can do is to protect myself than living a lie.
This must be what he wanted too. I want to be myself again and lived without fear. Sa ilang taon hindi ko pinapakita na nalulungkot ako o ng hihina. Wala akong masandalan kundi sarili ko lamang. Sa mundong aking ginagalawan ngayon kailangan kong maging malakas dahil kung mahina ako iisa lang aking hahantungan, kamatayan. I don't want that! My tears form in my eyes and my heart bleed. Natutu akong maging matapang para hindi ako magmumukhang kawawa kaya paninidigan ko ito. No one can understand my pain so I better play my rule accordingly until I get my winning piece, my freedom.
He drops his teacup and stares at me this time hindi ko maintindihan kung tama ba ang nakikita ko, nasasaktan siya.
Ano, tititigan mo lang ako?
I keep my head up and fight back his stares at me.
What then huh! I not naive as you think and am not stupid.
