Fated Or Doomed

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Travis

In the lost of everything.Inflicting pain upon myself and others has been my only sense of relief. And it never seems to end. It just keeps on going and going. It begins to get harder to let go. At times I will get a small respite to just stop and take a breather. Yet the relief I crave never comes. I get the urge to just astrang to my own asylum.

After time and time I bring the crowd to excitement like never before. They scream and shout. Cheering on the gore show. I couldn't be more proud to see how far the my warriors have grown from their last matches.

But now it is my turn to show them how it goes. "Whos next?" I shouted. I walk around and one brave warrior walks up tall and lean.

"Me alpha." He was bulk and large just like me. I see a well match among him. We nod in a swear agreement.

Coming to a stand and we begin. At the lost of every step and every hit. I crave the need to hear the cracks of his nose. The gasp to increase around us. I wanted to feel his pain through me. And the split of my rough skin cracks even more.

My mind is at lost during our match. It was hard to tell rather it was me or Travis who fought. But our anger was who fought. Not us. At times I wish I let them take me out. I wanted nothing more than to lay flat on the ground and allow the dark to eat me up.

Alphas don't stop.

We get lost in the phantom until a voice scream through. The crowd semi breaks out and I hold the man there. More shouting and the people move. Letting the man go and I punch the wall behind him. I squeeze my hand and blood ooze through my grip.

The unrealtic of the voice coming in after all the footsteps faded away. The door slams and I feel I am not alone.

I smell nothing but an appalling sweat and pain my taste bud had in days. As the voice spoke its first words. Travis and I pause in the sense of us snapping the sweetness.

It comes more intense and I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't accept it is as it is after so long. The abandonment was worse then battle scars I adore through my years. This wasn't how it should be. I had fucked up everything in my life and that was fine.

When the voice step closer I couldn't, when my snout smells its intoxicant scent. I couldn't accept any of this. I want it now as I did from the first time I sniff its scent. But as the same time. All of this apart I felt I couldn't be granted its shifter's presents.

Maybe goddess was telling me I was a fuck up and I wasn't the man to have it all. And I was so fucking close to have it all until I fuck it up and lost the intoxicant scent. Now it felt like forever. I thought it be forever until I smell it again.

"Is it real Malcolm?" Travis was still lost in the battle of our faults. Strapped down in the pit we made.

Why come now. She seem better off. And even now I wanted to strangle every person to get to her. I wanted to wrap my hand around her throat to consume what she has taken away from me.

"She back."

I knew in some way she'll kill me. I knew it. Willingly. The place and how wasn't this though. I thought during my abyess of dark itself will kill me in time. Now I guess she prefers to do in person.

I love to say in a grin I will still die for her. I will be happy to have this last encounter and be kill in her undoing. I will still fight and watch her green eyes mold in my rage of love for her.

"Elizabeth." Travis grunt and I push him back.

I will handle this until we know for sure. I'm not giving a ounze up. I will take what is mine. Even if she cries for help. She's mine and she will obey for what I have instore for her.

Yet I know I will lose the battle among her grace. She is what make me stronger and weak at the same time. She is what keeps me going. I stand before anyone or creature to just crawl myself back to her doing.

Its her. Always and only her.


Liv

It was a bit odd to drive back to the pack home. Everyone gawk to my return. I try my hardest to pay no mind. I simple nod and walk my way into the home. Many bow and greeted on my return. It was nice to still feel welcome. And they saw me as their luna still.

If my mate will still have me.

I had no clue once I made it inside where he will be. I didn't sense him outside. So I just follow his scent from the entrance and down the halls. Many halls.

After awhile I was lead to the gym on the second floor. I felt so much knots in my stomach I wasn't sure if this was every missing connect we had building back up inside me. After days to weeks I almost forgotten how it feels to feel them.

I told a quick breather near the gyms door. Knowing once I step foot inside its all about to go down. And I can't be too surprise if they shut me out at the end. Its my fault. I torn us apart if not worse.

"Time to face my fear." I whisper to myself.

In my quick recounter I begin to hear loud shouting. The intensive grunts and noises echoing off the walls were ranching to hear. It frighten me right away. I push through the door and in my widen eyes I saw a forsenic sight take place.

I looked around and see everyone jist cheering on as if this was normal. And I guess in a way it was. But not like this. I knew they still did this deadly matches and I didn't like it so much. I understood but still. But now as I see my mate hold up one of his warrior in his large grips. Plummeting his fist nonstop to the wolf face. Blood spread everywhere. The wolf didn't give up, he stood and took every hit.

Fucking macho shit!!

It took no more than a minute for me to stop it all. I push myself through the middle of the crowd.Just a few notices me in their whispers. The other only notice once I shouted.

"Everyone get the hell out now!" The crowd stop and Travis continue to struck toward his opponent.The opponent goes to strike him. Only for Travis to flip him on his back and bang the wolf's head hard on the ground. "I said get out now! Everyone!!!"

Right away every scartter off like roaches.Travis even let go of his opponent who took some time to carry himself out. I looked him up and see the broken cheek bone.

I lift my chin to the wolf. "Go to the hospital to realign the bones. Take some rest."

"Yea luna. Welcome back." His voice skittle out as he struggle to breath. I knew then Travis had deflated the wolf lung during their match.Only made me think how truly terrbile his state of mind been.

I knew what I may be walking in. Mason has told me.And even so I knew I couldn't just walk back expecting him to run to my arms and welcome me as if I was on vacation.

Travis got off his knees and kept his back turn on me. He made only animal noises and walks his way to a bag. I watch as he takes a few hits.Even the blood that drips down his hand doesn't alert him to stop. He just continues to assault the bag.

I gave him a few hits until building up the coward of myself to speak. "Babe?" My words echo through. They stop right away.

Their back strighten and I spoke once more. "Travis? Malcolm?"

"You should leave. Go." His words were rag down.

"No."

I step closer to them and their arms drop to their side. "Leave. You can't be here. Not now." He said a bit louder.

"I'm not leaving after I just saw you nearly killing your own man." I try to use my own anger.
It will bring them to me.

Right away he drops his head to the side holding the bag as he tries to advoid looking at me. I still couldn't feel the connect. But I sense a drift.

"Look at me boys. Turn around and look at me."

"Leave! I am not decent for this. Leave. Now!" He say with an alpha tone.

I step closer and I am so close to them. I go to touch their shoulder blade and in second they had me against the bag they once punch.

I softly gasp to it all. Their touch, their breath, their air, their scent, their emotions, and their beautiful glowing eyes that flickers back at me. I search in them before they can respond to my collection.

"Boys?" Say lowly.

I go to grace their face but they snarl at me and turn away. "You don't like it. Leave."

It hurt to hear them say those words as if they mean it to the core. I wanted to believe they didn't. Their just in pain.

I swallow the breath I lost and walk away. I start to feel a pinch and I head to the doors. My heart race and I knew what had to be done.

I lay out both hands on the door. Holding the knob I whisper a small spell. Locking the doors from the inside. As I do so I hear my mate mutter words to themself. As if their having a loud conversation.

I bite it all down and pull out the women I know I am. The one I became when I met them. The one they fell for. I brought her back to get him back.

I turn back and with no hesitation or regret I make my way to them. Hearing my footsteps he groans. Telling me to just leave. But I don't respond. I was not giving up on my sweet wolf.

"Why do you chose now to not fucking listen, damn it."

Again I ignore him and make my last few steps to them. But as I get close they made the move and finish it off. I stop and stare them up as they stare me down.
"I told you to leave. Just leave!" He say this as if i'm an enemy. And I am.

"And who the hell says I answer to you alpha." I match his bitter back at him. I knew who I was facing.

He growls feral at me. His beast like sound gave me deadly butterflies I have miss. I lift my hand and caress their chest. They flinch. Allowing me with no rejection I steady my hand over their heart. Feeling their heart beat irregular as mine.

"Malcolm."
"Its Travis."
"No its not." Narrowing his eyes. I see he may not know whos in charge at this very moment.
They look up to the mirror wall at the front of the gym. He look at lost of his figure. He close his eyes trying to flip but it didn't work.

Travis was too deep to come back. I had only myself to blame for that.

Watching him I see he was losing all control. His claw came half out and his arm bulk a little unhuman like. "Just breath boys. Breath for me."

They shook their head unable to. I do what I can. I press my body more to them. They made another feral sound and holds me ever so tight. His claws pierce my skin. It lit a hot mess inside. Again I breath with them. We match a rhythm. Feeling a small sense of pain between us both. It was a wash over pain rather than an aching.

"Good. Good."

In the last breath my skin react to their breath crossing it. They lean forward. And our bodies relax along with his head holding up in a mold. Laying right over my mark. His grip loosen and I wanted pain. My arm tense and his claws release and his grip holds just the right hold to me.

"No. No. No." They whisper to me. Or maybe to themself.

I lifts his head by pulling his beard up by my thumb and pointer finger. "Look at me." They shook their head. Shutting their eyes tight. "Look at me now alpha!" I shouted and their eyes pop open. A swirl of mix of brown and black met.

I smile joyfully at them. Finally being able to see their eyes. It was like they both saw me at once. Them both surfacing. But one won over the other.

I restraint from touching them right now. "Malcolm I need you to calm down. Hold the wall behind me. Think of the wind, the grass, the moon." His eyes lit darker as he sniff my scent. "Think of me on your back holding onto your fur. Run with me. Focus on me. And let Travis come back." I say in little breath. Still matching his heavy ones.

"We can't. I want to stay." He rasps through his snarl.

"I know you do. I know these days haven't been easy. I'm sorry." Looking at me with a sour look. "This isn't forever. I need Travis. I need you both." My hand fidget as I want to caress them again. But I let them control through me. Their grip changes patterens.

"Need?" He asked.

"Want." I reply
"You broke. You left. Its all was dark. Full of awful cascade of..dark." He struggle to say. His pain was read on. My heart felt ripped out from their words.

"I know baby I know. I'm so sorry. I'm still not used to your love. I still think you'll regret it all. I'm scared. I was so scared."

"Of us? Fear you never come. Fear you will and we fail again. And again. And again..and."

I shook my head and my hands flies up to his throat. "I was saving myself from another heart break. Something worse. I was saving you. But I broke both of us in doing so. I won't do it again. I'll do better now. I didn't want my down fall to be yours. I was terrified i'll be your biggest regret. That you'll throw me out some day."

"No more? You stay?" In a deep husky voice he ask.I felt the rumble over my hands.

I nod, running my hands towards his ears. Just a light massage by his earlobe. "Yes. I love you boys. I need to accept that it means more. That you're the answer to it all. Your love is the answer."

My eyes fall to his lips. I watch his eyes watch my figure and I couldn't help but feel so bubbly against them. The arsoual was pulling more than ever.

He take one inch closer and I closed the rest. Crashing my lips on to theirs. I crave their lips like I haven't had water all this time. And the second they taste my need they deepen theirs to a starving feast.

I pull away once I felt a all too good feeling, it hurt and I felt like I was dying. He felt it too when he bite down on my lips. Making his grip on me completely go.

When I look into his eyes now. I saw only the brown hazel I thought I'll never see again.
"Travis? My sweet wolf." I smile guiltily.
"This isn't real." He search my face. "I'm still lost." He said.

I grab his hand. He look at me like I was a ghost. "You're not her. She gone. I'm still there."

I place his hand over my heart to feel my true self but he fought me. The look in his face told me he was in an abyss of pain I gave him.
"No no. I killed you. I felt this before. Why do this? Your heart was the last thing I held until it stop. Until I lost you again. All of you."

"No my sweet wolf i'm here. I'm never leaving again. I know the truth. Its you. I was wrong. I should of done better than ran away from what I never knew I need. Its you Malcolm you and Travis."

Again I place their hand and they grace over my mark. Staring down my low cut dress. I see his shoulder drop as he took the moment.

"Do not forgive me because I don't deserve it. Nor do I deserve you. But I know now my down fall is never having you the way we should. I don't care about it all anymore. I just want.." I swallow hard. "I need you more than life. I'll fight through hell to get to you boys. I seen that and I'll do it all over again to just be with you."

He stares at me and his hand touches my heart. I gasp to the piercing pain of him
Inside my chest cavity. Yet he feels so good. "How do I know this is real?"

"Tell me what I can do to show you?" I ask.

"If I do let you my little witch." His words were heaven to my ears. "How do I know you won't slip away again? How do I know I won't wake up there alone in the dark. I keep fighting and fighting but you leave everytime."
His eyes were so dark. I had no words. I'm afraid I lost him forever.

Before I can spoke. His lips parted. "Prove it. Prove to me you are my Elizabeth and you won't disappear. Prove that I can keep the taste of your forever. That you're mines. Prove it. I need that now."

I watch his lips spoke those words just as much as his eyes meant it. At his last words he licks his lips. His eyes follows down my body. And releases to cup my breast. A small breath hitches from my lips. At that moment I take my thin straps and slowly bring them down.
He stops me.
"No. Its.." He replaces my strapes and walks away.

"Don't you hide from me!" I say in a sob.

From those words he pause. Knowing he say those words to me all too many times.
"Fuck it." He turns around to face me. I try holding my tear that falls down. "I'm taking it because I need to. And if this isn't real. I'm going to her and making sure I have it no matter what. I'm done with this dark mopey shit. I want my Elizabeth. I'm gonna have her regardless of what anyone says. Even her."
He makes heavy steps towards me. The air so consuming, its blinds us.
"My swe.." Before I said another word he took my lips to him.

It was such a burning spark we pause just a second to stare at each other. I grab his face and pull him in. Once I had him I couldn't let them go. I need them.

He kiss me so deeply, I lose all brain function. He took full control and run his head down my neck. Kissing down my collar bone and over my breast. My breath was heavy now.

"Oh god." I moan.

He brings down my straps and I let it all follow. He growls in a pleasure to my full breast.

In a hunger he throws himself again at me to taste my lips. And my body molds to the wall. He grabs hold of my ass. And moves us closer. I feel his dick pressing over his fabric. Smacking my ass, a loud moan escapes my lips. Doing so he cups them and carries me to another wall. I felt the coldness touch my back. And I think its the mirror.

"Take it off." I say.
He puts me down and holds my chest. "Don't move. This is for me not you." He says.

I nod and he hands goes down my body. He kisses my belly and the charm I had above my thong. He tugs on it with his teeth.

My core burns for him the closer he gets. Travis takes each edge and tease his ways to removing them. Before taking them fully off he kisses the fabric.

"You soak through your panties baby." I heat a smirk in his tone.

Its been forever. I could cum by his hot breath on me.

He pulls them down and I slowly help with each leg coming undone. I couldn't get a hold when he pushes his face on my pussy. His tonge dart in to feast the juice pouring out.

"Oh heavenly god." I gasp.

"Yes. I am your god baby. You praise to me and only me." He say as he suckle on my clit.

I driven crazy. I couldn't hold. His tounge was rough and he held me down from riding. He wanted his pleasure more than mine.

My orgasm rise right in the last flick but he removes his tomgue and pop up to my face. Licking his lips.

"You don't get it that easy." I pout. But I deserve that tease.

"You will cum on my dick while I push my seed into your warmth. Understood." He say. I nod.

"Words baby."

"Yes alpha. Yes." I obey him.

He removes his pants and I growl to his large sight. I wanted to taste his thickness but he close our space. Kissing me hard he pulls my leg up. I wrapping it over him to hold my place.

"I will tell you when."

He bucks down and I feel his tip right on my entrance. I could feel another tease but I push down and hop on his dick. Needing to feel all of him right away.
"Aahh fuck." I scream.

He grabs my throat and I stare into his eyes."Tsk tsk."
"Go on. Punish me. I sin alpha. I have sin so very bad."

In deep pleasure he takes in my words. As I feel him push in more. My legs shakes to his thick. It like my hole close and he rips me open again.

"Yes you have been luna. You sin very bad. But I shall save you from the hell."

"Take me alpha. Take me." I yelp from his hard thrusts.

" You just cum when you feel me fill you. Then and only then you will be welcome to my heave." He tells me so carefully.

I moan to my god and he thrusts in me again and agin. I claw in his back in the thrill of it all.

Grabbing me over he sat down on a bench chair. Throwing me ontop of him. "Prove it now. Ride your sweet wolf luna."

I do as he says. I move my hips in a circular motion. The friction sparks through my spine.

"Oh fuck." He holds me up just right by my back. He keeps me steady while ride him.

"Fuck your dripping over the chair baby. You're so fucking wet." His voice brings me closer.

"Yours alpha. Only your." My eyes rolls to the back of my head.

I fall over to his chest and he suckles my hard nipples. I bounce on his cock harder. Biting down on my nipple I feel my edge.

"Faster luna. The gates are opening."

I grind my pussy over his pelvic. He licks my mark while his canines grace a taste. On the edge he bites down and I fill the pleasure him cum filling me. And like clock work I meet my own undoing.

I don't stop but keep rinding. His ball bounces just under.He pulls my hair aside as he licks my wound.He lifts my chin and tells me to go once again.

"Aahh god yes." I lose comtrol and undone again.

"You look so angle like cumming for your alpha."

I slow my pace to catch my breath. He moves just an inch and I hold on to his chest. "Hold on it beens. Awhile." I chuckle.

He removes the hair out my face. Holding me close to his. "Do you need to cum again luna?"

I narrow my eyes and wonder if this was a trick question. "Only if alpha does." I say sweetly.

He growls and takes my lips.

A lound breaking busted in when we hear the doors opening. "Ohh shit!!"

I hop off and run to sheld myself. A small room to the side. I hide. Travis had no speed or calculates registers. He stood blankly at the person entering. Coving his penis with just his hands.

"Who the fuck.."

The voice drifted and my stomach drops when I recognize the voice.

"Alpha? Are you.. umm." Mason was lose of his words.

"What? My clothes got too tight. I had to.." Travis fix his stands and places his hands to his hips.

I cover my mouth as he just expose himself to Mason.

"I don't have to explain shit. Its my private workout time." He replies firmly.

I fear Mason not buying it. As he hums that stupid nah huh crap he does. "Where is she? I heard someone say luna was back."

I pop my head from the concer. Waving hello. "Hi big brother."

Mason covers his face in disappointment. "Really guys. Of all places."

"Ohh whatever. You didn't see shit. Compare to what.."

"Nnnaah. No more. I can't." He shouted.

"Babe." I gesture to Travis. He grabs the clothes and covers the doorway so Mason can't see.

Mason steps back and points to the ground. Damn it! My thong was still on the floor.
"Fuck you guys. The gym is already gross. Seaman belong.."

"Shut the fuck up Mason. My cum is well put durning.." Mason covers his ears before Travis finish.
I laugh as I still hold my dress to my body. And Travsi pushes more in more.

"Glad you're back. Bye." Quickly Maosn runs out.

"Mason show too much." I hear a jealous tone but pay no momd.

"You are the only wolf to see me like this." I assure my mate.
He turns and catch my chin hard. I felt his large cock right on my fresh skin. "And it better stay that way."

We quickly change and head out the gym. We wonder down the hall before anyones sees us.I take their hand and drag them to the spell room. The tension still lays thick.

I look around timidly and see some differences. It was not how I left it."It wasn't..I fix it the best I could."

I nod. Understanding what he meant. I go to ask what else change. Aware I cause a problem to his already hot temper.

Travis stays lean on the doorframe as he tells me all the things he broke and rearrange.How his office has new furniture. He explains every outburst he encountered. I get a sick feeling.Hating how I make them hate themself.

"Maybe we so.."
"No don't go! I'm not letting you leave damn it! Not again. It was just.. fuck. I'll work on it.Better I swear."He walks to me. Grabbing my shoulders and holding me close to them.

I see the fright in their eyes.And I can feel the bond is still yet come.It works so little now.
I miss it.
"Boys no,"I shake my head. "I was just gonna say we head to our room.Get away from everything. Maybe engulf the sheets in our scent again.Fix what I broke."I bite my lips.

He smirk to me."Ohh really.Well then." He scoops me up. Bridal style."Time has stop til now."

In such an aw he carries me up. But the mood changes when the bond over fills our lost and I stand awkwardly next to them.
They slowly goes to touch my hand and I allow just a grace.

I still don't feel worthy.