Fated Or Doomed

Cosmic Answer

Liv

      I can't count the days anymore. I can't sleep without the pain hitting. Flashes of  memories that would be stolen from me. I stay and never move. Constant arguments with Connie. Most times I ignore her and close my eyes. I couldn't bear to leave this place. There was no where for me to go. 

      After dragging my feet I take a hot shower until the water over me turns to icy drips. I brush my hair and avoid looking myself in the mirror. I don't recognize myself.

        I dress quickly and sit by the counter. I try to make a simple toast to eat. But my energy died out. My one goal for today was to make calls, reply to emails, and continue my study.

      I need answers. Sooner the better.

      Staring at the wall with my head laid down, I hear Connie return home. And I flash a quick smile to her. She say words and I don't listen. I see her getting frustrated and I turn my head away.

      A few hours goes by and now I'm laying on the couch. Still in the battle of never getting a chance to fulfill a dream I never thought I wanted. One that I have crave more each day with my mate.

      "Aunt Mable is calling." Connie says.

      "I'm busy."

      I didn't want to be bother as I drown myself in sorrow I created. I was birth in sorrow, raise in sorrow, died in sorrow, and birth again in sorrow. Only to continue my sorrow in a grave of pain I cause. For what? Because I love an Alpha more than dying.   

      "Elizabeth catch!" She yelled.   

      "Connie I'm not.."

      "Just catch bitch!!" She shouted at me.

      I turn to catch a large Labradorite crystal. And right away I knew what she had done.

      "Fuck sakes."

       Fading away I knew. When Connie smile begin to fade away I was drifted off to Goddess know where.

      In quick sight i'm in an olde single home kitchen. I've never been here before. It had a tradition style look to it. I stood there looking around and turn when I hear laughter and a door open.

      "Ah you are very skill and.." Her eyes light up to see me. As if she didn't knew I was coming.

      Mable smile and whisper to her male friend that stood at the doorway behind her. He wore a long robe to cover his nude body. "Dinner later?" He ask her. She nods and he kisses her cheek. The man grabs his stuff and leaves the tiny home.

      Mable is fully dress and walks aside me to make some tea. I glare at her. "Does Danny know about your male.."

      "No, no, no. Don't start with the Danny thing with me. This call is about you and what you are putting poor Tra.." Waving her finger at me.

      "Oh and Danny isn't back home.."

      She pouted hard at me. I bite my tongue. I'm aware of their relationship as not an relationship. At least not when she wants it to be.

      "I've been calling Elizabeth."

      "Yeah, you and everyone." I sigh.

      Mable finish making the teas and gestures for me to sit. I do so and push my cup away.

      "We need to talk dear. And not no nonsense I'd been hearing from your friends. I need you to tell me what's going on?"

      "It's my problem. So you can say the word and let me out this magical bubble so I can keep fixing my shit."