new years day (a tayvis fanfiction)

it is over now?

6 months later

taylor swift's pov

travis surprised me with a trip to italy, my favorite country in europe. we stayed there for a few nights some years ago before i had gracie. my mom is taking gracie while we're gone.

we boarded my private jet and it felt so weird without a toddler trailing behind us. but travis and i need some alone time, my mom is such a saint.

"so, what is this trip about?" i asked. "nothing much, i just want to take my beautiful girlfriend out without a toddler for once." he smiled and kissed my cheek.

      the answer felt like a lie. like he was hiding something, but i didn't know what.

      we were on our way to a bar when my mom facetimed me. a familiar smiling face appeared on my screen. "hey sweet girl! are you going to bed?" i laughed. she giggled back and nodded. "say hi to daddy!" i pointed the phone at travis. she waved and giggled. "well goodnight, i love you to the moon and to saturn." i blew her a kiss and hung up.

      "tay, why are you making that face?" travis glanced at me from the drivers seat. "i just miss her." i admit. i'm so happy to be on this trip but i miss my sweet girl. i know she's having fun though. "gorgeous, we will see her in three days. this trip is about us, she's okay." he smiles.

      it's true, my whole life revolves around gracie. she's my entire world and i can't do anything by myself without thinking about her. this entire trip i've been worried that she may get hurt and want her mommy, and i won't be there to help her. it breaks my heart. part of me just wants to pack up my stuff and go home. i'm making myself miserable instead of enjoying this trip.

      when we arrived at the bar i immediately ordered my signature drink. travis also made sure i had a water on standby just incase. im hoping to not have a terrible hangover tomorrow so im keeping it light.

       after a couple drinks i dragged travis out to the dance floor. i brought out my classic dance moves and travis just laughed. "you are a terrible dancer." he laughs. "hey, i've seen videos of you at the concert, don't think you're much better." i playfully hit him.

      i went to use the bathroom and when i came back, travis dragged me back to dance. "we have a request for taylor swift herself!" the dj says over the speaker. the familiar sound of my iconic song love story starts to play. everyone in the bar cheers me on. "travis come on." i say sternly.

      he wraps his arms around my waist, a move he's made many times before. this time i got chills. everyone clears the floor and travis and i are left standing there. i feel cameras all around me but i feel safe in his arms.

      he sways me back and forth and places a soft kiss on my neck. "i love you so much." he whispered in my ear, sending chills down my spine. we continue to dance and he twirls me around.

       he turns me around and covers my eyes. the tingling of his touch fades away. i stand there awkwardly for a moment until i feel a tap on my shoulder. i slowly turned around. there was travis, getting down on one knee.

       he knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring, blasted loudly. a choked sob escaped my mouth and i brought up a hand to cover my face. i couldn't believe what was happening. the little girl in me wanted to spin around and scream. but the adult in me, wondered if i should say yes. would this be letting go of my career? everything i've worked for for the past 20 years? my heart began to pound in my chest.

      "taylor alison swift, will you make me the happiest man on earth and marry me?" he said, loud enough to hear over the blaring music. i didn't know what to say. in this moment i just wanted my mom. to cry into her chest and ask her for advice.

     i stood there like a deer in headlights. everyone around me was recording and staring. i was so overwhelmed. i ran to the bathroom and locked the door behind me. i heard the disappointed reactions from everyone.

      i just collapsed on the floor. a faint knock soon followed. "tay?" it was travis. i didn't want to talk to him. oh how embarrassed he must feel. i completely humiliated him. "i can't do this right now. i'm sorry." i said in combination with tears. "are you breaking up with me?" he mumbled. i heard him sniffle through the door.

      "i just need time to think. just go back to the hotel i will get an uber." i sniffled. i felt terrible. i love him, i truly do. but im not ready to commit to marriage. that video is going to be everywhere and im going to look like a horrible person..

        still collapsed on the cold tile bathroom floor, i attempted to call my mom. she didn't answer. i felt so defeated. why did i do that. why did i throw my perfect relationship out the window.

authors note:

i'm sorry im terrible. but they've been happy for too long