new years day (a tayvis fanfiction)

hey december

taylor swift's pov

     i woke up to singing and travis holding gracie. "happy birthday to you..." he sang and placed gracie on the bed. a smile appeared on my face when i realized what was happening.

      he then placed a tray in front of me filled with my favorite breakfast items and a card obviously colored by the toddler. gracie crawled up to me and snuggled into my blankets. "thank you honey." i smiled and travis placed a kiss on my lips.

      thirty-seven years old. usually i dread my birthday. it used to be a day that i would spend alone because all my friends were too busy. joe was usually on some trip or filming a movie. this time of year is tricky, so close to christmas. but every year travis makes my birthday so special.

     the birthday before i met him was the worst one yet. joe and i had recently broken up and i felt so alone. i had nobody. but then, travis came along, and everything felt right again.

     this year i was too pregnant to party. birthdays are no fun when you can't drink. i honestly can't wait till this baby is out of me.

"how many days until baby?" gracie asked me and placed her hands on my belly. "just one more week." i smile. gracie brought up her hands and began counting on her fingers.

she is doing amazing in school, usually she's so shy but she is making so many friends. i feel like with her, everything was so easy. we had a few bumps in the road with my depression and travis' accident, but overall she was an easy baby.

the depression is something i have been worrying about. it was so sudden and i felt like i was stuck in a dark tunnel with no way out. the doctors have already spoken to me about putting me on antidepressants as soon as the baby is born so that we don't risk anything. i'm sort of scared because i've heard bad things but i think it will be for the best.

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the doorbell rang and i was confused because we weren't expecting anyone. i stumbled my way over to the door and i opened it to see my best friend blake. she was accompanied by ryan, and her four kids.

"happy birthday!" she said as she brought me into a hug. a fake smile appeared on my face. "thank you, but what are you doing here?" i asked as i let them inside. i was ashamed of the mess our house was.

travis came into the living room and smiled. "surprise!" he said. i gave him a strange look. the house was so messy, i was in sweatpants, life couldn't be worse. of course blake has seen all sides me, good, bad, and heartbroken. but i was just so embarrassed. i told travis i didn't want people over. i was too pregnant to clean and honestly i had no energy for anything.

gracie happily played with the other kids while i curled up on the couch trying to escape this reality. "so tay, are you excited for the baby?" blake asked and plopped down next to me. "i'm excited for her to be out of me, yes. but excited to raise a newborn and a toddler? not really." i said with truth. i didn't have the energy to pretend like everything was fine.

i sat there for another agonizing hour of questions about my pregnancy and watching everyone drink. eventually they had to get going and i couldn't be happier. once i knew they were gone i was about ready to kill travis.

"travis, what the hell?" i yelled. "what? i thought it would be a nice surprise." he said.

i began pacing around the kitchen. "i told you i didn't want people over! do you see how disgusting our house is? it's so embarrassing! i have had the same sweatpants on for three days. three days travis!" i yelled at him. i didn't even want to hear his response so i went into the bedroom and slammed the door behind me.

i collapsed onto the bed and my heart started beating at a rapid speed. i was breathing heavy and fast. shit, panic attack.

     i gasped for air as i felt like my throat was closing. my tears soaked the blanket underneath of me. i felt like everything was so far away. i stared up at the ceiling as everything went black.

travis kelce's pov

     i wanted to go check on taylor so i knocked on the bedroom door. she didn't answer so i assumed she was asleep. i slowly opened the door and saw her laying on the bed.

     "tay?" i asked and placed a hand on her heart. it was beating really fast. she blinked open her eyes and looked around in confusion. "what happened?" she continued to look around.

     "i don't know baby. are you okay?" i asked and helped her sit up. she brought a hand up to her forehead. "i think i fainted.." she said and began to breathe heavily.

     "shh, you're okay." i climbed into bed and held her close to my chest. i don't know if she remembered that she was mad at me, but im not complaining. i stroked her head and calmed her down.

    "im sorry travis." she hid her face in my chest. "i love you tay." i kissed the back of her head and held her until she fell asleep.

authors note:

low key i don't know where i was going with this but i can't make them fight anymore i just don't have it in me

also i was cheering at my first football game and i fainted on the field so that's fun!