new years day (a tayvis fanfiction)

things happen

taylor swift's pov

in just four short months i'm bringing a new life into this world. i've been an emotional wreck lately and everyone is suffering because of it. i just start crying over the smallest things. travis is trying to be supportive but i can tell it bugs him slightly.

      i was making some mac and cheese for gracie and i when i completely messed up and it turned out the wrong consistency. i don't really know how you mess up kraft mac and cheese but somehow i did.

       travis was sitting at the kitchen island and glanced at me. "baby what's wrong?" he asked. i threw the spoon down. "i messed it up and now i have to start over!" i yelled. i didn't mean to yell at him.

      "hey, hey. it's okay we can fix it." he came over and looked at the pot. "okay maybe not.." he made a disgusted face. i tried not cry but a tear rolled down my cheek.

     "i ruined it travis! how do you ruin mac and cheese!" i wrapped my arms around him and buried my face in his shirt.

      "taylor, calm down. we can order more right now." he rubbed circles on my back.

     "please do not tell a pregnant woman to calm down." i locked my eyes with his. he chuckled. "mommy im hungry!" gracie shouted from the living room.

travis sighed and went to his phone to order some mac and cheese. this pregnancy has been a lot, im getting so big and it's really hard to handle.

    the liquid gold -also known as mac and cheese arrived. i think i was more excited than gracie.

      "mommy? when will baby be here?" gracie gestured to my growing stomach. "very soon sweet girl. are you hoping for a baby brother or sister?" i ask the bouncy toddler. "sister!" she giggles. i was too but i couldn't say that out loud.

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     later in the night when gracie was already in bed, travis and i snuggled up on the couch. he rested his hand on my swollen belly.

     "i can't believe soon we're going to be raising two kids." he chuckled. i looked up at him and smiled. "it's going to be hard, but we got this. right?" i say, with a little worry in my voice.

     part of me thinks it's all gonna fall apart. travis and i are always on the go, it's going to be impossible to raise a newborn and a toddler. but the other part of me has always dreamed of this. i never wanted a big family, just two kids. specifically two little girls.

     travis wants a big family, an equal amount of girls and boys. he is a girl dad at heart, but he wants a boy so he can play football. maybe that's still a chance.

   "taylor, i know we got this. you are the strongest, most beautiful woman i know." he placed a kiss on my lips.

     "what did i do to deserve you." i smiled and leaned in for another kiss. he granted my wish. i embraced in the warmth of his touch before we heard wails come
from gracelyn's bedroom.

the mother instinct in me caused me to immediately panic. she usually sleeps through the night with no problems so something had to be wrong. i quickly got up and ran as fast as a pregnant woman could down the hallway.

i made it to her room with travis trailing behind me. i walked in and saw gracelyn on the floor with a red face. she was holding her arm.

i flicked on the lights and crouched down next to her. "what's wrong baby? shh it's okay." i scooped her up and examined her body. i went to touch her arm and she immediately flinched.

"we have to go to the hospital." i said and got my shoes on. travis scrambled to get in the car.

we were quickly in the car and on the way to the hospital. usually i could wait for security to take us but i didn't want to take any chances. i alerted tree and the rest of my team what was going on.

i accompanied my crying toddler in the back seat. "gracie it's okay, we're almost there." travis said trying to calm her down. this was more than a scraped knee, and i was too busy to be there for her. i should've been watching the monitor.

all of these terrible thoughts filled my head. i heard gracie's tiny hand as a tear rolled down my cheek. this was my fault.

we pulled into the emergency room parking lot and quickly went inside. travis explained everything to the receptionist and we sat in the waiting room for around five minutes.

i can't even get privacy while im trying to comfort my hurt child. i heard cameras snapping from every direction.

"gracelyn swift-kelce?" the nurse called and i stood up immediately. we were escorted to a colorful room in the children's wing.

"butterfly." gracie pointed to a purple butterfly painted on the wall. "mhm, good job sweet girl!" i smiled.

"so miss gracelyn, you seem to have hurt your arm?" a nice doctor says and reaches a hand out for her small arm. she flinches and buries her head in my chest.

"now if i can just see your arm, i can give you some special medicine to make it feel all better!" he smiles and crouches down to her level. she looks at me for approval then reaches out her arm.

he lightly touches it making sure not to hurt her. "we can give her some tylenol and then once that's kicked in we will do an x ray." he smiled then left.

"an x ray is just a picture that can see inside your arm, how cool is that?" travis says. gracie giggles.

soon when the medicine had kicked in, the doctor came back to get her for the x ray. we followed the doctor to a room painted with more fun creatures.

gracie pointed to the ones she recognized. he then brought her into the room. travis and i looked through the window so she knew we were right there with her.

she was scared of the machines at first but eventually she was okay. i played with the ring on my finger as i watched.

"are you okay?" travis wrapped his arm around my waist and brought me closer to him. "i just feel like it's all my fault. if i was just watching the monitor this never would've happened." a tear rolls down my cheek.

"baby, some things happen that we just can't control. and look at her, she's okay. kids get hurt." he wipes a stray tear off my cheek. i force a smile, still feeling like this is my fault.

if this happened with just one child, imagine what will happen with two. gracie came out of the room and ran to us.

"you did so well gracie!" i scooped her up and we followed the doctor back to our room.

"so no surgery is necessary as it's just a minor break in the wrist, but she will need a cast. and when that's ready to come off we'll replace it with a brace. i'll be back with the casting materials." he explained.

"cast?" gracie questioned and looked at me with worry. "it's just a thing that goes on your arm to help it heal. you even get to pick a color!" she still looked nervous but a bit less when i mentioned to the color part.

the doctor returned and gracie picked pink of course. i held her good hand the whole time. she winced when he had to move her wrist but for the most part she did amazing.

soon we were discharged and we loaded the sleepy toddler back in the car. "good job sweet girl." i placed a kiss on her forehead as she fell asleep in her car seat.

i decided to sit in the passenger seat as i was in less of a panic now. "she's gonna be okay, tay." he squeezed my hand before backing out of the parking spot.

authors note:

me updating?? sorry it's been so long i have just been so busy with cheer. i hope you enjoyed this chapter and ill try and update soon!