new years day (a tayvis fanfiction)

preschool jitters

taylor swift's pov

today is the day i have been dreading. my baby starts preschool. i'm so excited for her, but at the same time i can't handle her growing up.

i woke up to the bright sun peering through the curtains into my eyes. travis was already awake, "you're eyes look so beautiful in the sun." he smiles. he then pulls me closer to him and we soak up the last moments before sending our daughter off to her first day of school.

"i'm not ready for this." i mutter and tighten my grip on his arm. "tay, she's going to be okay." he kisses my forehead before exiting the bed. i didn't want to get up. i felt like if i didn't get up then this day wouldn't happen. my girl would stay little forever.

he had to practically drag me out of bed. i stood outside of gracelyn's door and just stared. not wanting to see the reality that lay behind it. i looked into the kitchen where travis stood making breakfast. he gave me a look of you can't avoid the situation, open the door. so i took a small step forward and turned the doorknob.

i was met with a sleepy toddler. i didn't want to disturb her, but i knew i had to. "hi sweet girl." i whispered and gently picked her up. she laid her head down on my shoulder and i felt her every breath.

i slowly tiptoed out to the living room and placed her down on the couch. i turned in bluey, her favorite show. she began to rub her bright blue eyes when she heard the iconic intro. a smile formed on her tiny face and she began to sing along. "are you ready for preschool?" travis said from the kitchen.

she looked around, concerned. the words preschool had freaked her out. the only kids she's ever been around are her cousins or my close friend's kids. this is a very prestigious school, nobody will know she's going there except the people who work there. one of my security guards will also be there the whole time. this getting out to the public would be bad.

we had talked to her about preschool before, and explained what it would be like. she gets so shy around new people so i knew it wasn't going to be easy.

      after breakfast, i started to get her dressed. she picked out a super cute pink dress with little strawberries all over it. i paired it with some pink bows to top off her blonde curly pigtails.

      "who is a pretty girl?" travis popped in after cleaning up the kitchen. she giggled and smiled big. we went out to the living room as it was almost time to leave.

      i grabbed her backpack and we headed out to the porch to take photos. "smile gracie!" i said with a phone in front of my face. she giggled and her eyes crinkled up just like travis'. "i love when she does that." i laughed. travis wrapped his arms around my waist in hopes to calm me down. i stared at gracelyn and couldn't help but start to cry.

     maybe it's just the pregnancy, but this is such an emotional moment for me. my sweet little girl is going to school for the first time. all day i won't be with her. i won't be able to comfort her if she gets hurt. i won't be able to hug her if she's sad. all these thoughts filled my head.

    gracie looked up at me confused and came towards me. she wrapped her body around my legs. "mommy don't cry." she smiled. i took a deep breath. she's going to be okay.

     eventually i calmed myself down and we were on our way. gracie sang to herself in the backseat the whole way there. we soon arrived at the pastel colored building with lots of little kids and their parents walking in. travis opened my door for me. he never stopped doing that, that's why i love him so much.

    he then got gracie out of her car seat. i held her hand and took a deep breath before walking through the door. "hello! you must be gracelyn!" a kind woman said and crouched down next to gracie. she got nervous and hid behind me.

      "oh it's perfectly okay to be nervous sweetie! today is going to be so much fun. i'm ms. maggie." she smiled and offered her hand. gracie looked at me for approval before putting her small hand out.

     travis and i then gave her a hug before ms. maggie took her into another room. it hurt my heart seeing her walk away like that, but i knew it was for the best. we then went over the security procedures with the front desk woman. everyone here was so understanding.

      we got home and the house was so quiet. the usual thumps of the cats jumping around and the clock ticking was all to be heard. no loud tv show blaring on the tv, no toddler babbling to herself. "it feels so.. empty." i said as we walked through the door. "we are going to pick her up in 6 hours. think of it as 6 hours to ourselves every day..." he smiled and put his hands around my waist.

       "i do like that.." i smiled and leaned into his shoulder. taking in his strong scent of cologne. my lips made there way to his neck.

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       eventually it was time to pick up gracie. travis did a good job at distracting me while she was gone if you know what i mean.

     i got no calls throughout the day so i assume everything went well. we pulled up to the building and saw many parents going in to get their kids.

       "hi we're here for gracelyn swift-kelce." travis said to the front desk woman. soon, ms. maggie came out with gracie. "mommy!" she giggled and ran towards me. "hi sweet girl! how was your day?" i picked her up.

     we signed her out and then loaded up in the car. she talked the whole way home. she told us about all her new friends and everything she did throughout the day. i smiled knowing i had nothing to worry about. i'm so proud of my girl.

authors note:

little baby gracie is getting so big. also wtf freaky tay and trav????