new years day (a tayvis fanfiction)

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3 months later

taylor swifts pov

travis and i walk hand and hand with gracie a few feet in front of us. the chilly fall air makes me shiver. walks are one of my favorite things. it used to be hard to go without being noticed, but i've stopped caring. we live in a pretty gated community, but there are fans here and there.

autumn walks are my favorite. i love to see all the different colored leaves and the smell of cold air. "can you believe in just five months there's gonna be two of them?" i laugh and hold my belly that is just starting to show. "being a father is the best thing that's ever happened to me, and i can't wait to do it all over again." he placed a soft kiss on my cheek.

we've been pushing off knowing the gender. i love the anticipation of not knowing for some reason. i'm secretly hoping for a girl, but i'd never say that out loud. even though i know travis is too, he's destined to be a girl dad.

we made it to the park and gracie bolted for the swings. of course she's too little to swing on her own, we had to run too. "mommy swing!" she giggled. every push she laughed.

it was getting hard for me to keep up with her as im already 4 months. it's so crazy to say that, it feels like just yesterday i found out. i just hope the post partum depression doesn't come back. i was in such a terrible place.

i watched gracie play on the playground when travis sat down next to me. "she's getting so independent." i say. "that comes with the role of being a big sister." he put his arms around me and brought me closer.

"but what if she thinks we don't love her as much as the new baby? i don't want her to be so independent.." the tears prick the corners of my eyes. but i was not about to cry in public with a ton of parents staring at me. "she's growing up tay." he strokes through my hair.

      his words hurt, but i knew it was true. i sat and watched her play for a little while longer. she was running towards the bench where we were sitting and fell.

       i immediately got up to see if she was okay. the tears were pouring out of her tiny eyes. she had a scrape on her knee. "oh sweet girl, you're okay, you are so big and brave!" i scooped her up and rubbed her back.

      for now, she's my little baby. i carried her the whole way home and she fell asleep in my arms. "i wish she would stop growing up." i said as we entered our home.

       "me too." travis agreed and placed a kiss on the top of her head. i stood there and sort of rocked her for a moment. i really needed to soak up this time before im busy with a newborn.

      i set her on the couch and put a show on for when she woke up. i see in the corner of my eye, her rubbing her eyes. "hi sweet girl. let's go get a bandaid." i scoop her up again and put her on the edge of the bathtub.

       she picks out a bluey bandaid and we plastered it on her knee. "this shows just how brave you are, just like bluey!" i gesture to her band aid. she smiled and hugged me.

      "i love you mommy!" she struggles to say. she then places a kiss on my belly. "i love you gracie."

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       my mom and dad burst through the front door. "mom! hey!" i say and run up to hug her. they are staying for the weekend because we haven't seen them in so long.

       "travis are you doing better?" my dad asks and gestures to his knee. "yes, i can get around now but it still needs to heal. hopefully i'll be back in shape in time for the new baby." he wraps his arm around me.

       "you know we are happy for you guys, but i think it's so soon? you have the rest of your lives for more kids." my mom says.

       " i really don't, mom im 36, this is already a high risk pregnancy as is. but after this one we are done." i laugh and lock eyes with travis. he's always dreamt of having a huge family, but that's just not for me.

        my parents get settled in while i cook dinner. gracie shows off her brand new bandaid and her battle scar. as im stirring i feel travis' hands creep behind me. "it's not as hot when im fat." i laugh.

       "first you're not fat you're pregnant, and second you're always hot." he breathes down my neck. he begins to kiss my neck when - "mommy look!" gracie squeals. travis quickly aborts his mission and leave the kitchen. gracie holds up a drawing that she's very proud of. she drew our family with the new baby, and with baby aria in the sky.

      i almost teared up but i didn't let myself. i told myself im no longer allowed to cry over that. it's the way it was supposed to happen and im at peace with that.

       we all sat together and ate as a family. my mother made a few comments about us being quick but i shut her down immediately. i don't know why everyone is so interested about what we do in our relationship.

authors note

sorry it's kinda short but it's cute. i'm trying to update almost every day