Pursuing from the Shore (Sun Rays Series #2)

CHAPTER 32

Chapter 32

Kinalimutan niya na nga ba talaga ako? O sadyang hindi niya ako maalala?

Either of it, I could not help but to feel an extreme pang of pain and guilt inside my chest. I wonder... I wonder how much he had been through?

Did something happened to him during those years when we don't have each other anymore? I could not tame my mind, I started overthinking things, making me walk away from the painting. Pakiramdam ko ay maiiyak ako, sobrang hirap lumunok kaya lumayo na ako roon.

Naabutan ko lang sina Renz at Edo sa ibang parte ng art gallery. I called them and they looked at me in chorus.

"Redler! Saan ka ba nagpunta?" Edo approached me. "Teka, bakit umiiyak ka na?!"

Shit. Ito na nga ba ang sinasabi ko, e. Despite my efforts to resist and refrain from crying over it, sadyang hindi ko kaya, hindi ko lang talaga mapigilang umiyak.

Even after all these years of trying to move on from loving him, I can't help but deeply miss him. Until now... I'm still badly missing him.

What's with Davin's gaze earlier?

I always thought of him as an exposed mystery, but now it feels like he's become even more distant. We used to be so close, and we were even so close to each other earlier, but now it seems there's a barrier keeping us apart.

"Hoy, bakit umiiyak ka na?! May nangyari ba?!" Renz hurriedly caressed my back.

I let out my silent sobs more, unable to grip a word to say. Guiltiness filled my chest, I was guilty for everything I have done to Davin when I knew I hurt him so bad.

I answered neither of them. Ni hindi ko nga namalayan na umuwi na kami sa bahay. Hindi ko alam kung lulutang-lutang ako o ano. I just cannot help but to overthink. Malakas ang kutob kong may masamang nangyari kay Davin kaya ganoon na lang ang approach niya sa akin.

I told him before that he should forget about me, pero ano 'to ngayon? Nakalimutan niya na nga ako... nakalimutan niya rin ang kanyang pagkatao.

"Red, you can tell us what happened," Edo calmly said, si Renz naman ay nakatingin lang at inoobserbahan ang nangyayari.

"I saw him. I saw Davin inside the art gallery, and there's no doubt that he's the owner of it," I started, gulping so hard. "I... I saw a portrait there, and it looks like me."

Namilog ang mata nilang dalawa.

"Oh, so siya nga." Renz nodded. "Sobrang tagal na naming walang koneksyon, tapos malalaman-laman kong sa kanya pala 'yon?" he said, obviously surprised.

I couldn't shake these worries off: does he suffer from amnesia?

If so, what caused it?

How did that happen?

I can't help but wonder, because I have this strong feeling that... something terrible must have happened to him back then.

"Renz, I have something to ask you," tawag ko sa kambal ko nang medyo kumalma na ako. He sat down on the sofa across me, while Edo's next to me who's currently caressing my back, calming me down.

"Huwag lang Math," barumbadong sagot niya kaya sinamaan siya ng tingin ni Edo.

Umirap ako at pinigalan ang sariling mainis bago itanong, "When was the last time you have exchange words to him?"

Natigilan siya at lumunok. "Uh, noong paalis ka. Hinahanap ka niya rito sa bahay, nagmamakaawa siyang sabihin ko kung nasaan ka."

That stabbed my heart with a dagger of guilt. Despite... despite being hurt by me... hinahanap-hanap niya pa rin ako?