Pursuing from the Shore (Sun Rays Series #2)

CHAPTER 29

Chapter 29

It was incredibly messed up and too painful; I felt myself falling to my knees when Davin finally walked out of the room.

Stream of tears poured down my face uncontrollably. Each sob is getting louder, and my body shuddered with anguish as I fell to my knees, my tears continued to drip on the floor.

I felt helpless to put an end to the stream of grief that was drowning me deeply. Tanging ang paghagulgol ko lang ang naririnig sa buong espasyo kung nasaan ako.

Knowing how badly I've hurt Davin feels like thousands of daggers piercing my heart. I know I deserve what he said, but they just deepen the pain, stroking my fear that I will never see him again... and he will totally forget about me.

Ang tanging hinihiling ko lang ay maging ligtas siya at sila ng pamilya niya. Hinihiling kong maging mabuti ang kalagayan niya sa kabila ng sakit na pinadama ko sa isang tulad niya. I know it's too late for apologies, and he may despise me now, but I hope his safety is one reason he holds onto.

Kahit namamanhid na ang mga paa ko, nanatili akong nakaluhod sa sahig. I was trying to calm myself down. This is too much, it isn't good for me. My eyes were already starting to swell.

Kumalma lang yata ang paghikbi ko nang maramdaman ko ang paghaplos ng katawan ni Trese sa aking binti. The cat was purring loudly as it gazed at me, prompting me to stare at it too.

"Trese," malamya kong pagtawag sa pusa.

Somehow, I managed to calm down. I gently caressed the cat, seeking its warmth. Yet, even in that brief moment, memories of Davin flooded back. The time when we were babysitting the cat, bonding like a precious family. It shattered my heart more.

Hindi ko alam kung paano ako nakatulog matapos niyon. Nagising na lang ako na sobrang bigat ng pakiramdam ko. I woke up as I sat down on the couch. I'm still at Renzler's condo room.

"Red! Anak!"

Hindi ako agad nakagalaw nang maramdaman ang sobrang higpit na yakap ni Mama sa akin. As tears welled up in my eyes, my vision became blurred even more, overwhelmed by emotion in her embrace. Umiyak ako sa bisig niya kahit wala nang lumalabas na boses sa bibig ko dahil nag-unahan lang ang luha ko.

"Shh... Red, nandito na si Mama," bulong ni Mama sa akin habang hinahaplos ang likod ng ulo ko. "Sorry... hindi manlang kita nadadalaw. S-Sinabi na ni Renz sa akin ang nangyari... Patawarin mo si Mama. Nandito na ako, Red... huwag ka nang matakot. Hindi ka namin pababayaan..."

Bumalik ang lahat ng pangyayari kung saan dinakip ako ng Tatay ko. Kung saan tinutukan niya ako ng baril at pinagbantaan ako.

I was grateful I survived that moment of horror... I was able to get away from that nightmare that still haunts me no matter how hard I try to forget.

"M-Mama..." Nanginig ang labi ko at patuloy sa pag-iyak. "N-Nakakatakot... Takot na takot ako sa kanya, M-Mama... A-Akala ko katapusan ko na noong gabing 'yon... Pero kayo pa rin ang inaalala ko noong mga oras na 'yon. H-Hindi ko hinayaan na... na idamay pa niya kayo..."

Humagulgol din si Mama. Nanginginig na ang mga bisig niyang nakayakap sa sa akin at lalo itong hinigpitan.

"P-Patawad, Red... at salamat dahil sa kabila ng hinarap mong takot... kami pa rin ang iniisip mo. Pero nandito ako, nandito kami ni Renz... Hindi ka naman pababayaan... Kaya naman, anak, isipin mo rin ang sarili mo..."

I clung to her clothes, shutting my eyes tightly, my tears refused to stop. Despite everything I have been through that night, they are the only ones who keep me going, and I'm consumed with worry for their well-being. I would rather endure the pain alone because I wouldn't be able to handle the thought of them suffering as well.