Dirty Little Secret/Lando Norris

58. I lost you once not happening again

I walked into the house and I went to sit on the sofa, Lando joins me and I smile at him, "Did you enjoy seeing the MTC?" he ask and I nod. "Can we talk about the article?" I ask I just want to talk it out and then enjoy the rest of our time here. He sigh and he take my hand "Yeah Charlotte told me she told you." he say and I nod. "Were you going to tell me?" I ask looking at him and he roll his eyes. "Yes eventually." he say and I look at my hand, why do I not believe him. "Do you believe what he said?" I ask and I can see in his face he does, he believe every word. "I don't know" he say and I shake my head. "You either know or you don't Lando its simple" I say and he sigh standing up. "I don't know what to believe anymore, all I know is I had to pay a lot of money to get that fucking story gone." he say angry and I frown. "I did not ask you to do that" I say and he look at me biting his lip. "Yeah, I know I did it because my name and your brother's name was in It." he say and I was shocked. "So you did it for your own name not mine?" I ask also getting angry now.

"Why are we fighting right now?" he ask frustrated and I shake my head, he is good at avoiding things. "Just answer the question, do you or do you not believe I slept with him?" I say running my hands through my hair. He sigh sitting on a chair opposite from me and he looked at me, like he was trying to figure out what to say. "The thing is, you gave me so much shit for just talking to Magui and then I had to read that a fucking bartender had a magical night with my girl." he say and I gasp. "If that is how you feel why we are still here, why are we still trying to fix something that is clearly going to shit very fast?" I say and I can see the anger flash in his eyes. "Because I lost you once I am not letting that happen again." he say through clench teeth and I looked at my hands. "You clearly don't trust me and I do not trust you so please Lando tell me how do we go from here?" I say looking at him with tears in my eyes. "I still don't get why you do not trust me, I am not the one that left that night and went to fuck a fucking bartender." he shout and I stand up.

"If that is what you want to believe I cannot stop you, but I am telling you I did not even kiss him, he made it all up. I was cheated on before I know how shitty it feels I would never do that to you I respect you too much." I say folding my arms looking at him and he nod. "I know, but it was still not nice reading about It." he say and I nod. "I am so tired, I cannot do this anymore, it's like we take one step forward and 3 steps back." I say rubbing my face. He doesn't say anything and I look at him, "We need to decide what to do, because I cannot go on like this, a relationship is not supposed to be this hard." I say and my voice break, I wipe the tears from my eyes, I walked out to the backyard with my phone. I look at how beautiful it is here and I could not even be happy. I decided to phone my mother. "Hey Mama" I say as she answer trying hard not to burst into tears. "Hi Isa Mi nova how are you?" "I'm good and you?" "Good, I hear Carlos say you are in England with Lando, how is he?" she ask and I sigh, my whole family loves him and at the moment I don't even know if it will work between us. "He's good, we went to the MTC today" "That's good, and how is things with you guys." she ask and I could not stop the tears from falling anymore.

"I don't know Mama, we are fighting a lot." I say between sobs. "No baby, don't cry why are you guys fighting?" she say and I tell her through my tears. I sat on the grass just pouring my heart out to my mom. "You need to make him understand nothing happened." she say and I sigh. "How, there is no trust I cannot trust him and he cannot trust me clearly, how do we move forward from here?" I ask and she was quiet for a bit. "I don't know, hard work if you really love him Isa you will fight for the relationship and both of you will need to start trusting each other again." she say and I frown. "Yeah, I just don't know how." I say and she sigh. "I know, you are a smart girl you will figure it out." she say and I say nothing. "Okay, I am going to go Mama, I love you and send my love to Papa." I say and we say good bye, I sat there for a few more minutes and then I stood up. I walked into the house and I hear Lando talking, I follow his voice and I hear he is streaming, I stood in the door looking at him, and how he can act like we did not just have the biggest fight ever. He looks up at me and he gave me a small smile, I turn around and went to the room I need to lay down.

I was tired but I could not fall asleep, I feel like we are stuck in this disaster relationship and it's not good for us, I took my phone and started looking for flights out of England, there is one tomorrow afternoon and I book my ticket, we need time apart. He comes in after a while and he lay down next to me, we did not talk or touch each other. "Are you hungry?" he ask turning his head to look at me and I shake my head. "No, I am fine" I say and he nods sitting up. "I am still ordering something for you, you need to eat." he say and I did not say anything. I cannot pretend to be fine, that I will not do. I listen to him order food and then he lay back down turning to look at me, I turn so that I am looking at him. "I am leaving tomorrow" I say and he frown. "No, you're not you are not running again." he say and I sigh turning to look at the ceiling again. "We need time apart" I say in a whisper and he snorts. "No, we do not, we need to talk it out." he say and I just kept quiet. "It's destroying us Lando, we fight then pretend everything is fine and then we fight again, it's not good for you or me and you need to focus on the race coming up." I say not looking at him.

I feel him stand up, "I am not letting you leave." he say and I sit up. He was pacing the room. "It's not your choice." I say and he stop and look at me with so much anger. "Why do you always run?" he ask and I look at my hands. "Because we need to be apart, we are clearly not good for each other." I say looking at him and he nods biting his lip. "If you leave its over between us, for good this time." he say and I was shocked I cannot believe he is playing this card. I stand up and nod. "I understand if that is what you want fine, but at the moment we are toxic, and I am not going to do it anymore." I say walking out.

So is it over between them? There is a huge surprise coming. Please tell me what you think.