Dirty Little Secret/Lando Norris

63. The heartbeat

It was already two weeks since me and Lando tried to sort things out, except for messages from him asking if I am fine. I did not see him, I did remind him about the doctor's appointment and he said he will pick me up, I still did not show, you can't even see that I am pregnant. I went to classes and just went out with my friends, mostly I was tired so I slept a lot, my brother wants me to join him in Canada but I did not know if I wanted to go. I know I should travel while I can because with a baby traveling would not be possible. I was nervous for the doctor's appointment and I don't know why, my mom messaged me asking that I send pictures the moment I am done and I was happy that they seem to accept it, I would love to have my parents in my baby's life. I was just getting my purse when there was a knock, I open it to see Lando. "Hi, you ready?" he ask and I nod closing the door behind me.

The drive to the doctor was awkward, and we did not talk much, I finally decided to break the silence. "Are you ready for the race in Canada?" I ask and he look at me for a moment and then back at the road. "Yes, I feel good about it." he say and I nod. "Carlos say he is trying to convince you to go, are you?" he ask and I shake my head looking out the window. "I don't know yet." I say, it was quiet the rest of the way and when we stopped at the doctor I was relieved to get out the car, it was awkward between us. We walked in and I told the reception who I was and she told me to have a seat the doctor will be with me in a moment. I sat with Lando and I can see he was nervous. "Relax" I say putting my hand on his leg and it stopped jumping. The doctor came out and called me and we stood up, "I assume you are the father?" he ask shaking Landos hand.

We sat at his desk and ask me some questions. "So no more morning sickness?" he ask and I shake my head. "No happy that is gone." I say and I see Lando frowning, "And you are still taking your pre-natal?" "Yes, every morning" I say and he nods. "Okay then let's go see your baby." he say standing up and we follow him, I lay down Lando standing next to me with his arms cross looking at what the doctor is doing, the doctor started putting gel and then he move the stick over my abdomen, "Okay so if you look closely there is the baby" he say and I see the baby, but it still looked like a little peanut. "Now for the heartbeat." he say and he press some buttons and then I hear it, it was the most beautiful sound I ever heard, I look at Lando and I can see the amazement in his face and he was smiling. "The heartbeat is strong which is good." The doctor say, "I just need to measure the little guy or girl and then we are done.

"When will we be able to see the gender?" Lando speak for the first time. "It depends, some baby's we see at 16 weeks but normally we can see the gender at 18 to 20 weeks." the doctor say and Lando nods, not taking his eyes of the screen. "Okay all done, you can just wipe yourself and then I want to talk some more." he say walking out. I look at Lando and he did not stop smiling. "That was the most amazing thing I ever saw or heard." he say looking at me and I smile, "Pretty cool right?" I say and he nods still smiling, we went to sit at the table again and the doctor came in and gave me a form. "we just need to run some blood test, because the baby is a little small for what we normally see on 7 weeks, but it's nothing to worry about now." he say and I nod, feeling scared. "Doctor Can she travel while pregnant?" Lando ask and I look at him surprised. "By plane no, the first 3 months is a dangerous stage, for miscarriage so we recommend that they do not fly or travel far by car." Lando nod.

"What is the chances that I miscarry?" I ask biting my lips and the doctor smile. "As long as you eat healthy, and not overdo it you will be fine Bella." he say and I nod. "Okay so the nurse will take your blood and then I will see you in 5 weeks' time again." the doctor say and I nod. "Why only in 5 weeks." Lando ask and the doctor laugh seeing the concern. "Then Bella will be 12 weeks and we do the next sonar at 12 weeks." he say and Lando nods. I thanked the doctor and Lando shake his hand, I went with the nurse and did the blood tests. "Doctor will phone you with the results." she say smiling and I thanked her. I walked out seeing Lando looked so out of place in the place and I smile. "All done?" he ask and I nod. We walked to the car and when he got in he ask. "Are you hungry?" I smile and look at him, "I am always hungry" I say and he laugh driving off.

We sat in the restaurant and I send my mom an update about what the doctor said and she told me to get rest and take it easy. "So have you told your parents yet?" I ask sipping my juice. "Not yet, I will tell them when I am in Canada, they will be there." he say and I nod. "Carlos will be disappointed that you cannot come." he say and I raise my eyebrows, thinking if it will be my brother or Lando, I just nod and then the food came. "I have never in my life craved so many things, and funny things." I say eating my sandwich and Lando laugh. "Yeah what do you crave?" "The other day I woke up at 3 in the morning craving pickles and ice cream, I only had ice cream no pickles and I sat in the kitchen crying for about an hour." I say giggling at my own stupidity. Lando frown. "That is why I need to be with you, then I can go and get the things you craved." he say serious and I look at my sandwich again. I did not say anything because I don't know what to say.

When we were done we drove to my apartment, "Thanks for lunch" I say ready to get out of the car, he couldn't stay had somewhere to be. "Welcome, and please send me a picture of the baby as well I want to show my parents." he say and I nod. "Okay, good luck in Canada, I will cheer from my couch." I say and he smile. "Bella, how did it come to this?" he ask and I frown looking at my hands. "I don't know, I just know we are both too stubborn to sit and talk it out and that is not working for us, then we end up fighting." I say and he nods looking down. "Maybe we should just be friends for now, we skipped that part and then maybe who knows we will fall back in love again." I say looking at him and his head snapped to me. "I am still in love with you Bella that did not change." he say and I just nod. I got out and lean in. "Good luck and save travels, thanks for coming with me." I say and he nods.

I watched him drive off and I walked back to my apartment. Just you and me again peanut. I say to my stomach and I went to sit on my couch.

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