Dirty Little Secret/Lando Norris

66. Lando's POV

I was out partying with Max after the race and I must say I was feeling guilty for not being there more for Bella, but I told myself I will be there when the baby is born, she clearly doesn't want to be in a relationship so I am done trying. Of course a lot of women tried their luck with me but I was not interested I only had Bella on my mind. It felt like I only slept for a minute when my phone rang and I picked it up without looking, I heard her sobs and I was awake sitting up. "Bella, what is wrong." I ask rubbing my eyes. Then she said the one thing I did not expect and my heart scattered. "I lost the baby Lando." I closed my eyes taking deep breaths to control myself, I need to be strong for her. "What, where are you?" I ask jumping up already throwing things in my bag. "The hospital, I am going in for a scrape soon." she say crying and I wished I could just jump and be with her. I told her I am coming and that she doesn't have to worry I will phone everyone.

I was busy putting on my shirt when I phoned Mick, "Hey man, sorry to phone so early, but please go to the hospital Bella needs someone there she is having a miscarriage." I say not giving him a chance to answer, "Okay I'm on my way." he say and I hang up phoning Lola, she started crying telling me she is going now. I grabbed all my things, hoping I did not leave anything behind and walked to Carlos room. I knocked and he opened after a while I could see I woke him up. "Sorry man, but its Bella, we need to tell your parents I am flying out now if you want to come with." I rambled and I can see he looks confused. "What happened?" he ask getting dress and waking Rebecca. "She is in the hospital having a miscarriage." I say again, just wanting to get on the plane. He phoned his parents on the way to the airport and they told us to wait they are coming.

I sat tapping my hand on my knees waiting for Bella's parents and then I finally see them and we take off, I phoned Mick to tell him and I wish I had a jet to fly faster. "What did she say?" Reyes ask and I look at her. "Just that she is in the hospital and they are taking her in for a scrape." I say and she nods taking my hand. "It will all be okay." she say trying to comfort me, but all I wanted was to be with Bella. The flight felt never ending and when we finally landed I was out of the plane first and I grabbed my bags, walking to the car waiting for us. We got in and drove to the hospital straight away. I did not wait for her family when we stopped, I just wanted to get to my girl. I walked in and saw Lola and Mick with his girlfriend. "How is she?" I ask then after greeting them and they shrug. "Don't know she is still in, they said they will call us." Mick say and I nod walking to reception to get an update. She told me the doctor will come and talk to us in a minute and I sat down next to Mick.

"Thank you for coming." I tell him and he just nod. "Yeah someone had to be here for her seeing that you did not care." he say and I nod, he was not lying I was treating her like shit and I was not here for her. The doctor came and told us we can see her, "We are going to go, keep us updated we will visit her later." Mick tell me and I nod shaking his hand. I was the first one in her room and when I saw her I could not help but have tears in my eyes, she looked broken. I sat down next to her and take her hand. "How are you feeling?" I ask and she wipe a tear, "empty" she say and my heart broke again. Her parents came in and it was the hardest thing seeing her breakdown in her mother's arms, I stood outside the room wiping my own tears, we both lost something today. Reyes came out and told me Bella wanted to see me and she hugged me. I took a deep breath wiping the tears with my t shirt and walked in, I had to be strong for her, I kept telling myself.

I sat down taking her hands again, "I am so sorry I wasn't here" I say and she nods, her eyes was empty, "it's okay." the doctor came in before I can say anything else. I did not look at the doctor I looked at Bella and when she ask why it happened, I could see she is blaming herself and I wanted to take her in my arms and just take all her pain away, I did not blame her, I blamed myself for not being with her when it happened. When the doctor said she can go home I could see she was relieved, so now she can mourn at home, we are both mourning this baby. Her more than me I know because she was more accepting of the baby than me. We drove home and she did not talk at all, her mother tried and her brother even her father but she would just nod and shake her head. The girl in front of me is so heartbroken. She walked into the house and she looked around, I wished I could know what she is thinking. She walked to the room and I stood at the kitchen counter with her parents, her mother made us coffee.

"All we can do is be here for her." her mother say and I nod. "She is going to need you more than ever now man." Carlos say and I look up. "I know" I say already feeling guilty. "It is going to be some hard days but we really need to support her." her father say and I just looked at my hands, "I need to tell my parents" I say walking out on the balcony phoning my mom. She was in tears and I was in tears. "You need to be there for her LAN, what happened is horrible for both of you." she say and I sigh. "I know, I just feel guilty I was not here." I say and my mom took a deep breath. "My boy, just be there for her now, that is all that matters." We spoke for a little bit more and I went back inside. "We are going to the hotel to freshen up, we will be back to make lunch, will you please stay here with her?" her mother ask and I nod

"I am not going anywhere." I say sitting on the sofa and they left, I stood up and walked to the room, she was lying on the bed looking at the wall and my heart broke for her. I walked to the bed and lay down next to her, pulling her closer to me, I missed holding her and being this close to her. "I am so sorry I lost your child." she whispers and I sigh, why is she blaming herself. "It was not your fault." I tell her and she just nod, I will tell her everyday if I have to until she believe it, it was not her fault and I did not blame her, I blamed myself I should have been here for her. Her breathing got even and I see she fell asleep, I stand up and pulled a blanket over her, wiping a piece of hair out of her face and then I gave her a kiss and I walked to the living room and I finally let all my emotions out, I was crying because I was hurt because I also lost a child today.

So this was emotional, please tell me what you think. We are going back to Bella's POV