Dirty Little Secret/Lando Norris

59. No I cant be

I flew back to Monaco asking my father if he will pay for my apartment again, he was sad to hear me and Lando broke up but he was supportive. Lando did not even say goodbye to me and that is fine, it was Saturday and I was busy unpacking my apartment, Lola and Madelyn helping me. "So you guys are really over?" Lola ask and I nod. "Yeah it just didn't work without the trust." I say and she nods. We did not talk about Lando the rest of the time and we were just having a good time, of course I missed Lando, a lot and I could not figure out why it all went to shit so fast. He did not make it public that we are over and I will not do it until he did. That night I scrolled through Instagram and I can see on all the photos that he looks tired, he doesn't smile on one of the photos. I cried myself to sleep like I have been doing the past week.

On Sunday I watched the race of course I was still going to watch it, I still loved Lando. He did great and I was happy for him. He got P2 and in the interviews I can see he pretended to be happy. I took my phone and texted my brother.

Me: You did well, can you tell Lando I say congratulations?

Carlos: Thanks, I could have done better, and no tell him yourself you do have his number.

I rolled my eyes at my phone and I could not decide if I must message Lando or not, I decided to do just that.

Me: Congratulations on your podium

He did not message me back he was probably still in interviews or he did not want to talk to me. I did not hear from Lando at all and I went to classes on Monday, I was so happy that I am almost done with my studies. It was 2 weeks since I last saw or talked to Lando, I was also not feeling very good and I could not understand what is happening, I was sitting with Madelyn and Lola when I had to run to the bathroom, I vomited and I really did not feel well, that is when it hit me, I did not have my period yet, and I am about 2 weeks late, fuck, fuck, fuck I thought standing up and washing my face, I walk back to the girls. "What's wrong you are white as a sheet?" Lola say and I shake my head. "I am late." I say and I see them frown. "For what?" Madelyn ask and I could not help but smile at her. "My period is 2 weeks late" I say and they looked at each other in shock. "Are you sure Bella?" Lola ask and I nod looking at my hands, they were shaking. "That explain why I am so sick, the vomiting, the smell of some foods." I say and they nod not knowing what to say. "Well there is only one way to know." Madelyn say standing up, "Where are you going?" I ask her and she smile. "To get a pregnancy test." she say walking out the door before I could say anything

Lola looked at me and I started crying, that is why I am so emotional about everything as well. "It's okay Bella, it will be okay." she say wrapping her arms around my shoulders to comfort me. "What if I am pregnant, how do I tell Lando?" I ask looking at her and she shake her head. "It will all be fine you will see." she say and I nod wiping my tears. "We are not even talking." I say and she nods, just then Madelyn come in with a paper bag and gave it to me. "Now go, let's see if I am going to be an auntie." she say and I gave her a small smile. "Too soon?" she ask and I laugh. I walked to the bathroom, reading the instructions and I was stressing my ass off. I waited 2 minutes pacing in front of the test that I put face down on the counter. Lola and Madelyn standing in the door. The timer went off on Lola's phone and my hands shake, I looked at them and then at the test still on the counter. "I can't look" I say and they nod, Madelyn walking closer.

She pick up the test and then she smiles. "Bella, you are going to be a mommy." she say and I grab the test to see 2 lines on the test, I could not believe this, I was not ready I don't think Lando was ready. "Are you okay?" Lola ask standing next to me and I shake my head and I started crying again. "I am not ready, I don't think Lando is ready, we are not even together this is not how it was supposed to happen." I say and they both hug me. "It's okay Bella, you have us." Madelyn say as we sat on the sofa both of them sitting next to me and I nod. "I have to tell him don't I?" I say looking at them and they nod. "Yes, he needs to know, it is his right?" Lola ask and I frown. "Of course it is his" I say and she nods. "Just making sure" she say and I look at my hands. "He is in Monaco, and its race week here so text him and ask to meet him somewhere?" Madelyn say and I shake my head. "No I first need to see a doctor to confirm it, maybe the test is a false positive." I say and she frown.

I phoned the doctor and he told me to come in today, Lola and Madelyn came with me and I was so nervous. I was praying that the test was wrong, I am still young and I did not want to become a mommy, not now I still wanted to travel the world and I wanted to have fun, a baby is going to change so many things. Lando is still young as well and we are not on good terms, I cannot even think about how he will react and I was scared that he will tell me to fuck off. My dad will be mad that is for sure, he will tell me how irresponsible I am and my mom will be disappointed but I think she will have more sympathy for me. I was thinking about all these things not being able to wrap my head around it all, I was still not believing that I was pregnant. "You need to relax." Lola say taking my shaking hand and I just nod, biting my nails. The doctor came and he accepted that both of them is coming in with me. "Okay, please lay down on the table and lift up your shirt." he say and I do just that, still praying that he doesn't find anything.

"This is going to be cold." he say putting the gel on my abdomen and I just nod, I cannot even look at the screen I was looking at the ceiling, my heart was beating so fast and it felt like I was going to have a panic attack. He starts looking for something, "A there it is." he say and I finally look at the screen, it was a small blip, not even bigger than a peanut. "You are about 4 weeks pregnant, so I am not sure we will be able to hear a heartbeat yet, because normally we only hear it from 6 weeks." the doctor explain and I just stared at the screen. This little peanut is growing in me, and I could not believe it. "You can sit up again." he say after cleaning my stomach. "So I am prescribing pre-natal pills that you have to take every day, and just eat healthy and everything will be fine. I will see you in 3 weeks' time again." he say and I just nod. He gave me the sonar picture of my little peanut and I just stared at it.

We walked to the car, and I just stared at the picture. "Are you okay Bella?" Lola ask and I nod looking up at her and smile. "Can you believe this little peanut is growing in me?" I ask and she smile. I realize then that I will do anything to protect this baby, and if Lando does not want to help I will do it myself.

Soo, big surprise, how will Lando react? And will the baby save their relationship?

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