Dirty Little Secret/Lando Norris

73. I am so sorry

I way lying in Lando's arms, he was still asleep we have to go to the Paddock soon, I did not go with him yesterday for Media duties, I wanted to prepare myself he understood of course, but today I promise to go with him. I feel him stir and I smile, turning to look at him. "Morning" I say and he smiles pulling me closer. "Morning baby." I smile and then I kiss him. "Ready for today?" I ask and he nods sitting up. "I am and I am so excited that you will be there, my parents can't wait to meet you." he say and I frown biting my lip. "Yeah, I can't wait either." I say and he smiles walking to the bathroom. I walk in with him ready to take a shower. I brush my teeth and then got undress. He joins me in the shower and I loved there moments, he was so gentle with me and I loved it.

I put on some clothes and I did some light makeup, I was busy straightening my hair when Lola came in. "Morning" she say sitting on the bed and I smile. "Morning, you look nice" I compliment her and she smile. "Thanks so do you." "So are you nervous for today?" she ask and I sigh. "I am, I am also stressing for meeting Lando's parents." she nods looking at her hands. "I am sure they will love you." she say and I smile. "I don't know, I did lose their grandchild." I say and she frown. "Don't ever say that, it was not your fault." she say and I just nod, finishing my hair that is what I was more nervous about, seeing the pity in their eyes and them knowing I lost their grandchild. "You ready?" Lando ask coming in and I smile. "Yeah let's go." I say gathering my things and then left with him and the others

We scanned into the paddock and my stomach was in knots. There was a lot of fans outside and I just walked passed them with the others while Lando went to sign things. He caught up to us and take my hand as we walked to the McLaren garage. We walk in and I look around, it has been a while since I have been in any of the garages. I see Charlotte and Zak and they look up as we entered. "Bella, it's so good to see you." Charlotte say hugging me. "I am so sorry for what happened." she say and I just nod, I never know what to say when people say they are sorry. Zak came and greeted all of us and then he told Lando they have a meeting. "Will you be okay?" he ask turning to me and I nod. "I will be fine, now go and stop stressing about me." I say smiling, he nods and gave me a small peck and then left for the meeting.

The rest of us walked to hospitality to get something to eat, and we sat around the table just having a good time. "Does it feel weird being back?" Drew ask me and I nod. "It does, but I am happy to be here and not take photos." I say and he smile. "Are you ever going to take photos again?" Madelyn ask knowing I have not touched my camera in a long time. I frown. "I don't know I suppose so." I say and she nods. "Well you should, your photos are incredible." Mick say and I smile. We chatted a bit more and then Lando walked in with two older people I assumed was his parents, he smiled when he see me and I stood up walking to them. "Bella, meet my parents, my dad Adam and my mom Cisca." he introduce us and I smile shaking Adam's hand and Cisca pull me into a hug. "So nice to finally meet you." she say and I felt at ease immediately. She was such a soft hearted women I can tell.

Lando introduced the others to his parents as well and they join us at the table, we chatted a bit and then Cisca ask. "Can we talk real quick" she ask me and I nod, standing up and walked out with her, we stood at the back where there was not a lot of eyes on us. "First I want to say, I am so sorry for what happened." she say and I look down at my hands, don't cry Bella. I kept telling myself. "I am sorry too." I say and she looked at me confuse. "For what dear?" she ask and I looked down again. "For losing your grandchild", She shake her head and pulled me into a hug and I could not stop the tears anymore, "No, you are not apologizing for that, it was not your fault and I will not let you blame yourself." she say holding my shoulders looking at me. "I also want to thank you, I can see you make my son very happy and I know it was not an easy road for both of you, but I can see the love you have for each other and I thank you for loving my son." she say and I smile looking at her. "He is easy to love." I say and she nods. "You guys handled it well, most couples don't stay together after such a horrible loss." she say and I look down again.

"I love him, and he was so good to me after everything." I say and she smile pulling me into another hug. "I am glad to hear I raised him well." We walked back to the hospitality and I see Lando looking at us. "You okay?" he ask as I sat down next to him and I nod smiling. "I am great." he smile and gave me a kiss. We all went to the garage again, I walked with Lando to his driver's room for him to get ready for the practise race, and I sat on the chair while he gets dress. "I like your mom." I say and he look up smiling. "Yeah, I can tell she likes you as well." I nod looking him up and down. "What have you guys talked about?" he ask putting on his fireproof and I smile. "She just wanted to say sorry for the miscarriage and she thanked me for loving you." I say and he smile nodding his head. "That is so my mom." he say and I giggle. He walk to me and pulled me up. "I also want to thank you for loving me, without you, life is not so great." he say and I smile wrapping my arms around his neck.

"Thank you for always being there for me, and like I told your mom you are easy to love." I say kissing him. We walked to the garage and Lando gave me one more kiss before he got in the car, I really hope he does well because this is his home race and I know he would love to win this. We watch the practise race and Lando was doing well. "He's doing well after last weekend." Adam say and I just nod not sure if he is talking to me. After the practise I stood outside with the others, Lando was doing media, Cisca ask if I and Lando will join them to have dinner at their house and I accepted, I hope Lando does not mind. They left and so did the others, I waited for Lando not wanting to go without him, finally he walk out of the garage with his bag and I smile. "All done?" I ask and he nod taking my hand.

"So we are having dinner with your parents tonight." I say and he nods looking at me and then back at the road. "My mom told me, and then you will meet my brother Oliver and my sister Flo." he say and I nod looking out the window. I was happy this is how it should be, us happy and talking about plans, not always fighting and mourning.

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