UNDER PRESSURE || HUENING KAI

38. Something Brewing

Y/N—

We were now back at the boys' place, so that Kai could ice his face and all of us could rest before what we had next on our schedules. I had practice soon, and I believed TXT was going to be filming a variety show.

This entire day has just been a blur. After everything that went down, I felt like ten years were stripped off of my life and I was just so damn tired. I just couldn't believe it—we messed up big time, and I knew Finn was going to try to destroy us. I was scared, but I knew what was done had been done and there was nothing I could do about it. However, my anxiety was through the roof, and I couldn't stop worrying about everything. I was fine being brought down, but if Kai and Beomgyu were brought down with me and something terrible happened to their careers I'd never be able to forgive myself.

Hell, looking at Kai right now, with an ice pack to his face, I literally felt so guilty that I wanted to cry. The punch looked so incredibly painful.

"Does it hurt badly?" I asked worriedly.

"Mm." Kai pouted dramatically, looking at me with an exaggerated sad expression.

I rolled my eyes, shaking my head. "Hopefully it won't bruise too much."

"It's okay. Makeup can cover it." He shrugged nonchalantly. "You know, I've always been curious of what it's like to be punched—and now I know. It's not too bad."

I frowned. "No, it looked like it hurt. I'm sorry again, Kai."

"Stop apologizing when it's not your fault. I was the one that kept arguing with the guy." Kai said, sighing heavily. "That fucking bastard." He grumbled under his breath.

I chuckled. I wasn't used to him cursing. "Thank you, Kai. For sticking up for me—I'm serious. I'm really grateful."

He smiled and met my gaze, nodding. "I'd do it over and over again, Y/N. I'll always have your back, you know that right?" He said softly.

My heart swelled in my chest, and I nodded. I tilted my head and rested it on his broad shoulder, feeling happy that I could be this close to him. He made me feel so safe, everything about his presence eased my anxiety.

"Me too, Kai." I muttered quietly, taking in the moment. I wished I could always be this close to him, against his shoulder and thighs touching. I wish I could always feel the warmth from his body like this, and smell his relaxing natural scent. I wish I could feel like this all the time, the way he made me feel.

After today's events, I was able to see him in a different light. He was jealous and protective, which really really made me feel ten times more attracted to him. I kept wondering if he treated me this way, how would he treat his girlfriend? Whoever she would be, she'd probably be able to feel so safe and secure with him.

I found myself fantasizing about that person being me.

As much as I liked to be independent, it was nice to be able to rely on Kai. It was nice to feel protected and valued like that, and treated as his girl that no one else could touch except for him. I always tried to put on a facade and pretended like I didn't care for romance and such, but I did when I was with Kai. I wanted him to take care of me, dote on me, touch me...

I snapped out of my thoughts when I felt Kai's hand tap my thigh gently. Heat rushed to my cheeks and I lifted my head and peered at him.

God, how was he so handsome, even with that big angry patch of red on his jaw?

"Are you feeling better?" Kai asked me softly, his eyes worried.