UNDER PRESSURE || HUENING KAI

40. Growing Closer

Y/N—

It went all according to plan.

I'd been bothered my how Kai has been acting. It was clear to me that he had feelings for me, by the way he looked at me, spoke to me so gently, and seemed to always be lingering around me. These actions seemed to be reserved only for me—to other women like my members, he was still polite yet distant and cold. The opposite of his behavior around me—cheerful and warm. He wasn't subtle about his liking towards me at all.

I'd been trying to get it out of him for a while. I wanted him to say it clearly, tell me how he felt about me. I wanted him to know that I liked him too and that I wanted to hug him more, hold his hand, and maybe kiss him sometime in the future. But he was stubborn, and I could tell his fear of rejection was what was stopping him. Each time we got to a point where it would be perfect for him to confess to me, he never did.

So I came up with a plan.

I noticed how Kai acted when I brought Beomgyu up or when the three of us were together and Beomgyu was acting flirty with me. Kai would look away, pretend that it didn't bother him when it clearly did. So, I decided tonight would be the perfect opportunity to make Kai as jealous as possible so that he'd finally tell me how he felt.

And boy was it the right thing to do.

I was an asshole, doing this to him, but slowly pushing him to edge the entire night made me feel so good. It was the reaction I had fantasized about—Kai coming up to us and pulling me closer to him after seeing me with Beomgyu. It was like he was warning me that I needed to stay by his side. It made me feel so valuable, his possessive behavior. Like I was his.

It was twisted, the fact that I was enjoying seeing him that way—but I couldn't help it. His duality—how he was so innocent and pure on the outside, but underneath it all there really was a dark side to him. I loved seeing it—him getting angry for me, getting jealous because of me, and wanting me to be his only.

It turned me on more than I'd like to admit.

As inexperienced as I was, it didn't stop me from having all sorts of thoughts when he pushed me against the wall. He looked so sexy, too. His eyes were hazy and lidded, and his cheeks and lips were pink, a result of the drinks he'd been having. His hands felt so big against my shoulders, and he towered over me.

The desire I felt was like a raging hurricane, and I needed him so bad. I wanted to touch him and do so many different things...

If I hadn't hugged him then, I probably would've kissed him. I felt desperate for his lips—but this wasn't the right time. I didn't want my first kiss to be in a dark hallway at a party where the two of us were drunk. I almost felt ashamed for thinking of doing it—I wasn't sure if it was these pent up feelings of desire spilling over or the alcohol in my system, but I seriously felt like a girl going through puberty and it was embarrassing.

I felt relieved that when I hugged him, it was only a few moments before this raging sexual desire had faded away and was replaced by fluttering feelings of happiness. He was so warm and comforting, and I found myself wondering why I didn't hug him more. I felt like I truly was healing each time we did so.

"You're crazy." Kai sighed, stroking my back up and down. "You did all of this on purpose, didn't you?" He asked me.

I froze, grimacing. I'd been caught. "What? No..." I scoffed, burying my face in his shoulder from the embarrassment. How did he smell so nice?

"You have me wrapped around your finger." He grumbled, chuckling with disbelief. "And you know it."

"Hm...I do." I replied smugly. We were rocking back and forth, the music blasting from the living area. You have me wrapped around your finger too. I wanted to tell him.