UNDER PRESSURE || HUENING KAI

50. Where I Belong

Y/N—
Warning: descriptions of death
*this is all pure fiction and not an accurate representation of reality

This dark and empty space was strange—it was eerily peaceful and so quiet, something I haven't felt in a while. It was as if I was floating around, drifting in a void. And for a bit, I wished to stay right here, simply existing, not exactly happy but not sad either. Just...comfortable.

As time passed by, loneliness started to consume me. Reaching out to nothingness in this void, not remembering who or what I was...yet some part of me ached at how empty I felt inside. I was missing something, maybe a piece of me? And I missed something—or someone—I just didn't know what or who. Eventually, this loneliness engulfed me whole and I wished to come back, wherever that was, because I knew one thing—that this wasn't where I belonged. I needed to return. I wasn't sure where that even was—but I needed to be taken back.

I fought my way out, and found it.

My heavy eyelids and body made it feel like I was still stuck there. And when I opened my eyes, I felt like I'd just fallen asleep for a second and was just now waking up from a dream that I had. Part of my mind was still drifting for a bit, as if it was adjusting to reality again and remembering itself.

I was struck by confusion as the bright hospital lights made my eyes burn and still. I found myself laying in a bed, inside of a hospital room—of course I was confused. I looked around dazedly, regaining my senses and feeling the cold air hit my body, reaching up to snuggle in the warm blanket further—

Abrupt pain exploded in my body, fire searing through my torso, and I nearly screamed. It all ached and throbbed brutally, including my right knee, which I had just remembered I had been having issues with for a while. Panic settled through me—the pain was so bad I could die. And hell, why was I even in the hospital in the first place?!

"Oh my god, Y/N!"

My head snapped up at that familiar voice and I groaned in more pain, my vision blurring and focusing. For a moment, I was baffled. Standing there at the edge of my bed were two adults that looked just like me.

When I finally realized who they were, I felt shocked. It'd been so long I nearly forgot what there faces looked like. And seeing them standing there now made tears immediately cloud my vision as I thought about the dream I'd just woken up from.

My brother and sister, whom I somehow forgot were so dear to me. The only ones in this entire world who knew everything about me, the good and the bad, and still stuck by my side. My number one supporters, and the people I probably wouldn't be alive without.

I couldn't believe I almost forgotten what they even looked like. I stared at them in awe, calling out their names. My heart ached when I saw my sister cover her mouth and sob into it and my brother looking away to hide his teary eyes.

"I-I'll go get the doctor." He rushed out of the room quickly. His voice sounded so familiar, the way he always used to hide his true feelings in front of us was so familiar, it made me laugh a bit.

"You're awake. Oh my god. You're awake!" My sister screamed, rushing over and grabbing my face. I was giggling nonstop as she kissed me on the cheek and forehead, engulfing me in a tight hug and sobbing into my shoulder. Ignoring the searing pain going through my body, I couldn't stop smiling and took in this warm feeling of her arms around me, holding me tightly. I forgot that she used to give the best hugs, and how tightly she held me.

My brother came in moments later followed by a doctor. Him and my sister were all over me, doting on me endlessly despite me being the oldest. I was so happy, so at peace, that the pain in my body didn't even matter to me anymore. I wished that this feeling could last forever and that I could hug my siblings like this all the time, as childish as it sounded. I just felt like I was a kid again.