Ninjago one shots (Jaya)

Not Enough 💔🖤

A/N: MAJOR SPOILER ALERT FOR DRAGONS RISING SEASON 2 PART 2! DON'T READ IF YOU DON'T WANT ANY SPOILERS! This will be a bit of trauma dump thing for me written through the eyes of Jay. TW: violence, spoilers, depression... Thanks for reading!

Jay's POV:
"Not enough."

Not enough

Not enough

Not enough

Not enough

Not enough

Not enough

Not enough

"Jay wait!"

I turn to see the water ninja. Her very appearance makes my blood boil. "Please?"
"I hate you!"
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Not enough

Not enough

Not enough

Not enough

Not enough

I failed. I was too weak in the administration and I'm too weak now.
Ras saved me and I couldn't even repay the favor.
I made a fool of myself! Why can't I be good enough? If I was as good of a warrior as Ras told me I was why can't I be one again?
I know I can prove myself I just need to work harder.
I'll be better.
The ninja think they know me? Then I'll make sure I'll be the last thing they ever know!
Ras's army is the only place I know that's even remotely close to a home.
I'm not risking losing it.
The ninja think they know me?
I'll show them the monster they've forced me to be.
My emotions and impulsiveness always leads to my downfall.
I'm so tired of losing!
I'm tired of being a loser!
I will get that blade back and when I do the first thing it will be used for is to slit the water ninja's throat as her friends watch.
I'm not going to be manipulated anymore.
I may have forgotten who I was but I sure as hell know who I'm going to become.

Narrator POV:
"I won't fail you again Lord Ras," Jay bowed before his master.
"So disappointing," Ras shook his head condescendingly.
Jay could hear the master smoke snicker which turned his stomach in nots.
"She knew Dragon Spin!" Jay reasoned.
"And you know shatter spin and I had given you the power of the mask! Should I have left you to the administration? I wonder if I have made a grave error in my judgment!"
Jay felt his heart drop as he felt sick to his stomach.
He remained quiet as Ras continued.
"Perhaps there is still good in you? Your heart is far too pure to be in this army?"
Jordana stood behind Ras flashing Jay a worried look but it went unnoticed.
Jay finally looked up. When he did his eyes were blood red with a glint of hatred.
"The next time I see the ninja I'll be ready, by the time I'm done I'll have them begging for their lives. I'll take them down one by one until only one is left rendering them alone filled with as much rage as I have. I won't be the weak man you found in the woods, I will be the power, the blood, the fear that flows through every body and soul."
Jay finished his declaration with venom in his voice.
Even the master of smoke was a bit frightened by the former ninja's words.
Ras smiled.
"I will make sure of it! Until then, you will train endlessly, I'll have you be my strongest warrior. You will not fail again. Until then... you are still not enough!"

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When Jay was dismissed Ras was left with Jordana and his other top fighters.
"Why did you put him in? He has no training?"
"He's had years of training," Ras reminded his second in command.
Jordana sighed.
"Not that he can remember! If we bring back a few memories the maybe he will be-"
"NO!"
Jordana swallowed her words.
"If any memory slips out it will be over. So he has forgotten what is to be a great fighter? As I told Jay, he will be trained to be merciless, I will root out any remaining weakness. Failure is not an option. I think he has gotten my point. Do I have to remind you?"
Jordana gulped.
"No."
Nya's POV:

I collapse to the floor. "Nya!?" I heard the muted sounds of my friends call my name.
"H-he s-said that he hated m-me."
I try to understand the situation.
Jay has never said anything so cruel or let alone ever get angry at me.
That can't have been Jay. Jay would never hurt me. He could never forget me...could he?
No!
I refuse to believe the man I love is gone.
Whatever person occupying the love of my life's body is a manipulation of Jay. A trick!
"Nya? Are you okay?!" Cole helped me to my feet.
"No, no I'm not," I answered honestly.
"How could Jay do this?" Lloyd hugged his arms to his body trying to fully comprehend what just happened.
"You heard him that's not really him! He doesn't know who is! The administration must've done something! Ugh agent Walker? How could I have been so stupid?" I yell angrily fighting back tears.
"You couldn't have known none of us could!"
I feel my body start to slump down.
"He shattered his goodness," Cole said breathlessly.
"No!"
Everyone looks at me taken aback.
"What?"
"Jay has the purest heart out of any of us! He's still in there!"
No one says anything which makes me feel the need to press on.
"Besides," I sniff, "Did you see how you he fought?"
I get confused glances.
"That's not how Jay fights! He's faster than me and I made it to the dagger before him! He has no recollection of anything. He has no clue who he is!"
I can tell that everyone was taking in what I said.
"Ras has lied to Jay and taken advantage of him. But I'm going to get him back. Jay might hate me right now but I love him.
And I'm going to make him remember even if it's the last thing I ever do. Ras has no idea what he's done."
I turn to the sunset.
"I'm coming  for you sparky."

Jay's POV:

Not enough

Not enough

Not enough

Not enough

Not enough

Not enough

I'll push myself to my limit then more. I don't care if I destroy myself in the process if I have to.
I have to prove my worth.
I was given this power for a reason and I intend to use it.
Not to mention I have an advantage here. Whether the water ninja is trying to manipulate me or if she truly believes she loves me I'll use it for my personal gain. Either way, before I kill her and her friends, I'll crush her heart and obliterate whatever remains.
She will see what happens when you humiliate me. Everyone will.
I'm going to be untouchable.
Watch out water lily..."I'm coming for you."