Ninjago one shots (Jaya)

Smoke🖤

TW! This one shot may be triggering and discusses addiction, depression, and self harm. on't read if you are sensitive to these topics. If not, keep reading. Thanks for everyone who has been reading and sorry for the late upload. This takes place around crystalized.

Jay's POV

I have a secret. To be honest I'm surprised no one has found out yet; especially Nya. They say smoke is like a scar it never truly goes away. The smell yet leaves each time. Pathetic I can't decide whether I wish it was there or not.

A cry for help possibly or maybe just coming off the high from substitute substances. I swiftly make my exit from the group who are now all riled up watching Kia and Cole's final battle. "I'll be back" I say stretching and removing myself from the coach. No one seems to notice; thankfully, makes this easier.

My chest burns. It begs to be accommodated with the sweet sensation of nicotine dancing, flowing through my lungs. Beads of sweat appear on my forehead. A wave of uncontrollable lust for a stick of death washes over me.

I reach my room and pull up a picture of the ninja. My hiding spot. A whole lies behind the picture of friends who don't suspect a thing. Smiles that hide my secret. I reach for my lighter and my pack of cigarettes.

I with a sense of urgent desperation, cover the whole back up with the photo of everyone I love. Paranoia is a common feeling with a secret such as this. Smoking seemed a better alternative than self harm. Though cuts could be better explained considering I have a risky job as a ninja. This somehow feels better.

I know smoking can lead to cancer and even death. I do think about those things, but as soon as a cigarette reaches my lips; I forget. There's a sense of romance when a cigarette is lit. It's alluring scent I hated so once when I was a child but now yearn for it ashy taste.

I nonchalantly head out. I hear the ninja still engaged in the ninja vs ninja battle happening in the den. Laughs and groans of frustration echo and some yells at controllers is when I can silently close the door without anyone the wiser.

I'll have plenty of time that game is gonna go on for a while I thought. I run into the court yard. The fresh air I breathe into my lungs will soon be spoiled with smoke. I take out my lighter. Kia gave it to me. It has blue flames on it. I can't remember why he gave it to me but I haven't gone a day without it since.

I light up the cigarette. I breathe in the smoke. It's intoxicating. All problems seem to melt away or burn along with the tip of the cigarette. I breathe in and out. I smile the feeling familiar. I know it's one that can only hurt me yet gives me confirmation. Confirmation that it will never leave until the day I die. I'll smoke a few like usual.

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Nya's POV

I laugh as Kia is struggling to beat Cole. He for sure is going to lose. I look around and see everyone's smiling face well, not everyones. "Where's Jay?" I ask looking at Lloyd who pays not attention and answers "Yes." I roll my eyes. He clearly is invested in this game Kia has doomed himself to play.

"NOOO" Kia yells as Cole lands a devastating blow against his character. I laugh and decide to leave as I know Kia is about to have a tantrum. Good luck guys with that.

I looked for Jay in his room but he wasn't there. For some reason I thought to check the courtyard over other places. I see Jay just sitting on the steps. I start to walk up to him. "Hey Jay what are you-?"

No One's POV

Jay turns around startled and sloppily hides the cigarette behind his back. "Jay what is that?" Nya chokes on her words hoping her eyes failed her. "Nothing" Jay impressed with himself for not stuttering. "Don't lie to me Walker. What the hell is that?" Nya asked her boyfriend angrily but mainly concerned.

Jay didn't really resist. In someway he wanted to be caught. He held up the cigarette and stupidly proceeded to put it back in his mouth. "JAY" Nya screamed slapping the cigarette from his mouth. "Hey I wasn't done with that" Jay frowned.

The Ninja must have heard Nya's distressed voice when she called out Jay's name because the quickly rushed out to where she and Jay stood and faced one another. They were about to ask what was wrong but the vibe radiating from Jay let alone Nya advised them not to do so.

"What the hell?! How Long?" she felt tears. Jay just avoided her gaze. She lost it and tears flowed and screamed with pain that could be recognized in every syllable. "How long?" she begged firmly grasping onto his shirt.

A silence that was short lived. "Two" Jay stated plainly. "Two what?" she felt weak. How could she not know? I'm the worst girlfriend in the world Nya thought to herself. "Years" Jay finished.

"Why?" she breathed feeling guilt weigh her body down so she held on to Jay preventing her from falling apart from sorrow. Jay fell to his knees with Nya holding her tightly. The rest of the ninja oblivious to what was going on.

Jay pulled out a cigarette. Nya was quick to try and take it but Jay stopped her and asked her to listen. The ninjas jaws dropped. "Jay you've been smoking?" Kia asked both Jay and himself. "Yup" Jay chuckled sorrowfully. "It's not funny" Cole yelled extremely angry.

"What do you mean?" Jay joked but got glares and his awkward smirk disappeared into a sad smile. "They make me feel better" Jay admitted. Nya looked up at him. "I know it's addiction talking but I didn't have a choice I had to" Jay shuttered at a thought of his past. "You always have a choice" Cole shouted. "Ha in some case you're right Cole" Jay cocked his head to face his friend.

"What's that supposed to mean" Cole demanded. Nya glared at him and then softened her gaze to Jay. "Why'd you start?" she lovingly asked scared for her future husband. "Back on Misfortune's Keep" Jay began. He stopped gulping terrified thinking back to the memories.

"Let's just say they thought maybe I'd brake with some smoke in my lungs. Heh now I can't get off of em" he felt sick at the idea. Jay sniffed. "I guess they succeeded in some way" he sighed shoving the cigarette back into his pocket.

The silence last longer this time. "I am so sorry Jay" Cole cried. Jay looked up and smiled sadly he felt like crying but he just couldn't. What now? Jay's secret was out how would they handle it?