Antwoord - Joost Klein

32.

"Ellie, how could you do that to yourself!" Aggu yelled after me while I tried unlocking my own door to my hotel room.

The other guys were right behind them as worried thoughts had taken over for no reason. I was doing so great for once with my diet, I was sticking to it so why couldn't they just be happy for me?

"What do you mean? Make myself pretty enough for anyone to love me?" I scoffed and finally unlocked the door.

I tried closing it right after me but Aggu's foot in the door was holding it open. I tried pushing him out but there was no fight up to debate when it was against Aggu. He was no joke, a beast with how strong he was.

"I love you no matter how you look Ellie" Aggu's voice pierced through the door.

"Yeah, but I can't expect you to stick around when you have a new girl on your arm every weekend. I have no one. The one person I loved left me as soon as I opened up about these things. How can I expect you to be any different?!" I yelled at him.

"Ellie let me in so we can properly talk about this" His face was being squeezed in the door frame as I desperately tried shutting the door.

"Let's talk tomorrow?" I suggested.

"No, let's talk right now" he told me before giving the door a harsh push causing it to burst open and me landing right down on my boney butt. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" Aggu quickly apologised.

"Get the fuck away from me" I scooted further back as his hands reached out for me.

Joost walked into the room while Dylan and Teun carefully stood in the doorframe. I was being looked down upon from every angle with pity.

"Just leave me alone" I pleaded a thousand times, but they never listened.

"Ellie, we just want to make sure that you're okay" Joost's voice, which was normally a comfort to me, rang in my ears with pain now. He was simply doing it out of pity as he saw me as some weak bitch who couldn't take care of herself, so she needed a strong man to look after her.

"I'm so fucking fine. Can't you see?" I said as I referred to my whole body. "None of you noticed how fucking fine I was doing, my father had to be the one who screamed it in your faces to be able to open your own eyes. You don't give a single shit about me and I'm not blaming you for it, I'm just stating the obvious so don't begin with pitiful eyes. I don't need it"

"You wear baggy clothes every single day so how we would ever notice?" Aggu questioned me.

"The puking after being hungover is what I assume is not quite the reason why you were always throwing up, isn't it?" Teun piped in.

"Or should I say innit since we are still in London?" Teun added and chuckled to himself but after receiving death eyes from both Joost and Aggu, he held it back.

"No, it was from being hungover but the decision of drinking so much that I knew I would throw up the next day was however maybe a bit of a choice" I shrugged. They already knew too much so why not just spill everything while I was at it.

"Now, if you'll excuse me. I do in fact have a date right now" I got up from the ground on my own as I started walking towards the bathroom.

Joost stepped in front of the door before I could enter and took up the whole space. "Please don't" He was now the one who looked at me with disappointment for my decisions.

"Joost fuck off. Go fuck some random girl with huge tits or jump on a cock, I don't care as long as you just get the fuck away from me" I tried pushing his chest, but he kept his ground