Antwoord - Joost Klein

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Eyes glued to my phone as I waited for that one notification that I had been excited for during this whole tour. As much as I loved the guys that I was touring with, they would never compete with this man. Even though he was distant most times, during those small encounters it made up for it all.

I had been texting my father since we arrived to remind him that the show was tonight if he wanted to spend just a little time with his daughter. And of course, see Aggu perform since he hadn't seen that in years.

"What are you staring at?" Joost asked me as we sat in the dressing room together.

We arrived in London around dinner time last night where we mainly spent our time in separate hotel rooms. After the night in Dublin, I was very pleased to get my own hotel room where I could be alone with my thoughts where an albino boy didn't have to interrupt me.

Aggu and Dylan had gone out to get dinner for us all while I stayed back with Joost and Teun in the dressing room. However, Teun had disappeared early on to talk to Brenda. He truly did everything in his power to make sure that his relationship with her would last during these moments away from each other.

I was pacing back and forth staring at the screen while Joost was spread out on the couch eating grapes. He even tried posing with them to try to get me laughing but I was not in the mood for it.

"Nothing. Here catch" I said as I threw a handful of grapes towards his face. He only caught a few of them.

"Hey! Do it properly!" Joost frustratedly threw his arms up for fun.

"Nah, I'm good" I told him but never even looked his way.

"Comeeee on Ellieeeeee, I'm bored, come play with me!" Joost whined as he mimicked a childs voice as a joke.

I let my eyes up from the phone and looked at Joost with an annoyed glance. His legs were thrown over the arm cushion while his arms were widely spread out for me to jump right into them. He was doing a pout as his eyes were soft begging for attention.

"I don't care, play with yourself" I scoffed and went back to the phone as my pacing increased.

"Yeah? I bet you would love that sight" Joost smirked.

I felt my eyes roll instantly as a disgusted look made its appearance. "In your dreams"

"Actually, that sight is in your dreams after how horny you got at the thought of me fucking you" Joost leaned himself up on his elbows as a devilish smug played on his lip.

"No, no god no. I thought about how good Zachi would fuck me as I touched myself until I came so fucking hard at the thought of him" I told him which was enough to break that ego of his he had gotten after the night in Dublin.

"What? Are you talking with Zachi?" Joost smug turned into a more serious, almost hurt expression.

"Yeah, I have ever since we left München" I smiled at him.

It was true but not in the way that I made it seem. I had been texting Zachi a lot since we left Germany but nothing sexual, well from my part. He was definitely interested, and I was maybe not exactly shutting him down. He was a fine man and I clearly had no one else being interested in me these days, so I had a bit of fun with it.

"Oh.." Joost went quiet after that as his eyes fell to focus on something else.

"Finally, a bit of peace" I mumbled.

"No, wait. Why have you been texting him? Do you want to fuck him, or do you actually like him?" Joost spoke up again.

"Why the sudden interest in my love life?" I questioned.