Antwoord - Joost Klein

40.

I was shaking ass, jumping my feet off, screaming my voice until hoarse, headbanging to the point where I got a headache, but it was all worth it for Joost Klein as soon as he sang Antwoord.

"En nu de drop!" I screamed into Zachi's face.

We were on the balcony watching the Joost show as usual. This was the best way to celebrate my birthday in my opinion. I was surrounded by lovely people and the man who I cared so much about was singing my favourite song like the rockstar he was.

Zachi didn't really know many of Joost's songs, but still enjoyed the concert. He was mostly jumping and dancing with me, but other than that he had a smile during the concert.

Aggu had gone down backstage to get ready to perform Frisenjunge with Joost, so it was just Zachi and I dancing up there. I made eye contact with Joost multiple times during the performance and always made sure to give him the widest smile that he deserved and all my attention.

Antwoord ended as my heart was still beating so fast from having so much fun. "You good?" Zachi put a hand on my shoulder as he asked me.

I looked at his hand touching me, trying to slightly brush him off. He didn't get that hint, and I didn't want to be rude, so I just let it rest there.

"Yeah, I just love the way he performs that song. It's my favourite one of his, but then again, it's hard to not love his music" I told him.

"I can see that. You look so good in the shirt I gave you as you dance to his songs" he complimented me.

"Thank you, I just can't help myself to enjoy every bit of it as he performs" I said.

"Does he support any of your hobbies just as much as you support him?" Zachi questioned with the hand still touching me.

The more it went on to stay on my shoulder, the more it felt natural. Zachi wasn't a guy who was trying to hurt me or use me in any way. He was simply just there as a nice friend when there weren't others around.

"I support his work; this is not just a hobby for him. He loves it as if it were a hobby, but he does know that this is work for him, so he has to work hard to be proud of it" I shrugged.

"I didn't ask about him, I asked about you. How do you feel about all the attention going to him, there is not really much attention focusing on you during this tour..or is there?" Zachi was looking straight at me with intense eyes that was looking for a problem.

"In my mind, there is way too much attention on me" I chuckled. Not because anything was funny but simply because I thought that the guys focused a little too hard on me every time I was surrounded by food. They focused on my eating disorder, not me.

"How so?" He asked.

"Not something we need to get into" I told him before moving away from the hand on my shoulder to rest my arm on the railing while continuing to watch the performance.

"This is not only a special day because I'm in Rotterdam. It's special for many reasons. We are all here together, as a family tonight" Joost started off a little speech before he would continue singing his other songs.

"As a family I think we are delegated to celebrate one another. So now will you sing happy birthday to Ellie with me? She is right there!" Joost said and pointed towards the balcony.

As soon as the light went towards me, I fell to the ground. If there was one thing, I hated then it was to be in the spotlight, I would avoid it at all costs. Joost even knew that from how much I had talked about my parents' exposure to the media but somehow, he felt the need to do it tonight.