lonely|nettspend

020

Gunner Shepardson
10:30pm

I was at some party Amari invited me to cause he said i needed to get out the house but i wasn't really feelin it so i just sat on the couch and smoked and my mind kept drifting to yasmine , i was worried about her since it was her first night back at her house.

as i was listening to the music that was playing and smoking some girl sat next to me " hey" she said looking at me "hey" i said back "lemme hit" she said so i passed the blunt to her and then she gave it back "your fine as fuck" she said bitting her bottom lip "thanks" i said clearly uninterested then she got up and sat on my lap.

"i can feel it" she said referring to me getting hard " u want me to help you" she whispered in my ear and then she held out her hand and i took it. to be honest i was so high i wasn't even in control of my actions anymore so i just let my emotions be in control.

she took me to this bedroom and then locked the door and pushed me on the bed and started kissing my neck so i let her and then before i knew it she unzipped my pants and got on top of me.

once we were done we both went our separate ways and i went to find amari so i could tell him i was ready to go.

but the whole time the girl was giving me head i just kept thinking about yasmine.

as i was in the car with osama i kept thinking about yasmine and what i just did and i honestly didn't want to hurt her even more so i decided to just distance myself for a little while.

as i got out the shower i got a text from yasmine saying goodnight so i texted her back and she doesn't know that i went to a party because i told her i was gonna stay home. i felt bad for what im about to do and for lying to her.

maybe i was the problem and the reason why i can never keep a good girl but just as i thought things couldn't get any worse morgan texted me so i just rolled my eyes and opened the message "im outside" the message read.

"wtf is she doing here" i thought to myself so i looked out my bedroom window and saw her white suv parked in the front and then shortly after i saw a short white girl with a tube top and short grey shorts on come out of the car.

then she knocked on the door and i let her in "so why did you ghost me" she asked stupidly "ive been busy and you broke someone's car window" i said stating the obvious "yea and that someone was some dirty hoe u was fuckin" she said "morgan if came here to be on bullshit then get the fuck out" i said walking to the door "nooo im sorry" she whined which lowkey gave me the ick.

"i didn't mean to it's just i get possessive over you" she said walking towards me "but why were not even together" i said confused "i know but" she said cutting herself off then she started to get on her knees "let me make you feel good" she looked up at me "no i already had someone take care of that" i said "you know what fine then im leaving" she said before pushing me out of the way and opened the door.

at this point i just need a break from everyone and everything..