lonely|nettspend

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Yasmine Hart
9:00 pm

after i drank that drink that alex gave me i felt really drunk and i had only had one drink and i wasn't even high so i think he put something in my drink. i tried to get away from alex but i kept stumbling and everything looked so blurry and i felt like i was going to pass out.

as i was trying to walk away alex grabbed my wrist and took me to a bedroom and pined me against the wall and then he whispered "your mine" and that made me sick and my knees were shaking and i could barely stand up straight "wait here" alex said before going into the bathroom that was connected and i couldn't walk or see so i quickly texted crystal and told her where i was but im pretty sure i miss spelled a lot of stuff.

once he came back he came out with a condom and he grabbed me and pushed me on the bed and my eyes started to fill up with tears and my head was pounding but just as he was about to take off my shirt crystal came through the door and pushed him off "wtf is wrong with you" she said yelling at him "she came onto me" he said back defensively "nigga shut the fuck up no she didn't" she yelled and my heart was beating so fast and i was just crying nonstop but soon after i passed out.

the next morning i woke up in an unfamiliar place so i just looked around confused and my head was still hurting from last night i went to check my phone and saw a text message on instagram from gunner.

                            nettspend_

i heard what happened
last night u good?
 
                                        how do yk about that?

my friend was there and he
told me but why u block me

                             because i saw you with those
                             girls and i just felt like you
                              were using me..

nooo never
can we talk about it in person?

                                    fine come over in an hour.
ok
seen

i then blocked alex because i didn't want to keep in touch with him after last night "good morning" crystal said "morning" i said "u doing ok" she said next to me "i guess i just have a headache" i said "stay here i'll bring you some medicine" she said before leaving

she then came back with a bottle of advil "i hate alex for what he did" she said as i swallowed the pill "me too but i don't really want to talk about it but i might leave soon" i said "ok i'll drive you" she said getting up.

as crystal was driving me home i couldn't stop thinking about how today could go cause it could either be bad or good but i was hoping good because i still had faith for gunner and even though we just kissed i just still felt a connection with him so i was hoping that he wouldn't mess with this up.

as crystal dropped me off we said our goodbyes and i headed upstairs and then i checked to see how much time i had before gunner was coming.