Kelly and Stella : Coming Back Together Again

Fearful

"That would be incorrect. I'm pregnant" Stella says shocking Kelly. "Are you pranking me" Kelly asks. "No" Stella says. "Are you sure because you've been panicked about this scenario for two days straight but now that it's back you seem to be at peace" Kelly says. "Hey I had to throw you off. I'm still really scared but I'm just going to have faith it'll all be okay" Stella tells him. "Of course it will be. You definitely got me good with the acting very calm. We shouldn't be shocked though because we've only used protection one time and we knew you weren't on birth control" Kelly says. "Would you like to talk about your fears" Kelly asks. "Do you want me to and yeah definitely shouldn't be shocked yet here we are shocked" Stella says. "Yes. If anything is bothering you I obviously want you to come to me so we can talk through it and I can do my best to help you. When you don't and you shut me out is when we start having problems just like it does when I shut you out" Kelly tells her. "Honestly it's the fear of a lot of things starting with our relationship and what that will be like and goes all the way to fears of having PPD again" Stella tells him. "Well let's start with your fears of having PPD again " Kelly tells her. "I'm just scared if it comes back like it did with Brandon how will I get through it this time because it already about took me out when I had it with Brandon. I'm also scared because I remember all of the thoughts even outside of not wanting to be here anymore and those were pretty scary too the way it makes your mind run" Stella says to Kelly. "Maybe we need to put a plan in place so to say of stuff I can do to help you this time rather that be help around the house or making you go to a couple extra therapy sessions whatever it might be but just have a plan in place just in case it slips back in this time" Kelly tells her. "Are you talking about like write it down or just talk about it" Stella asks. "That's up to you. If you wanted we could even put out there things you tried last time in hopes it would get better but in the long run did nothing" Kelly tells her. "I think I would rather write it out and keep it somewhere me and you will both remember just so we don't forget anything" Stella tells Kelly. "That is totally fine to me" Kelly says. "Onto our relationship fears with it that I have. I fear a lot for if I do start having something like PPD for example but really anything that causes it to not be smooth sailing that maybe it will cause you to pull back and possibly leave me. I also fear that you might fail to support me in the way that I need you too which will cause me to pull back from you. Either one is scary but to sum it up I'm scared of us splitting again" Stella tells Kelly. "Stella nothing will happen between us if I can help it and I can help both of those things. I understand that I was a piece of shit to you the first go around and I've apologized for that over and over again and proven to you time and time again that I've changed and yes in some ways this will be the big test I guess you could say but I'm not going to fail. I've changed a lot since then and you yourself has said that. I do wish you'd stop saying you forgive me yet every time we have a conversation about stuff like this it gets popped back up again" Kelly tells Stella. "I'm not trying to pop it back up over and over there's just a lot of issues that it did cause and especially with pregnancy we can't ignore them. I have forgiven you so if you think I haven't I'm sorry" Stella tells him. "I just don't understand how you can be over something yet still popping it up that's all but maybe I'm not supposed to" Kelly says to Stella. "I'm not fighting with you about it I know the work I've done to forgive you and how move passed it I truly am and that's the most important thing. You don't have to understand it to respect the fact that I could have moved past it 4 years ago yet sometimes it still hurts and sometimes in situations like this it does bring up fears because I am scared of you switching up on me after we leave this glamour stage that doesn't have the newborn and 2 other young kids already stress along with work" Stella tells him. "I understand that about the kids and the stress of it all but I've also told you that I'm not going anywhere and I mean that. I don't care how much we do or don't struggle as long as we've got one another " Kelly says. "I think it's just one those things that as we live it out I'll become more comfortable and at ease with it all about our relationship and I know I will if you show up like you keep saying you will" Stella tells him. "I will and I promise you that" Kelly says. "I know I've mentioned my fears and having fears but I've not really heard you say anything about having any but I want to ask just to make sure you're good with everything too" Stella says. "I don't have many really. I do fear how Brandon and Ella might react though. I could see it really regressing Brandon and bringing up some jealousy in Ella" Kelly tells her. "I understand that one and agree with Ella especially. I think it will either regress Brandon or he'll shock us and really love it but there for sure isn't going to be any in between. I think we might have to start spending some one on one time with them some more because I think if they see that nothing really changes as far as they go especially our love for them" Stella says. "Yes I wouldn't be surprised and maybe even a few conversations with Brandon because I could see him just being straight up pissed when it really comes down to the reality of having another sibling " Kelly says. "Yeah and Brandon sometimes can be his own handful " Stella tells him. "Agreed" Kelly says to her