Back from the Universe

Chapter 21

Heyy look who's here with a new chapter. This one was in my drafts for a week lol. Hope you guys enjoy it, and see you guys in the next one.  Have a good morning, or day, or night depending on when you read this:)

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- Can i get you something to drink?

- No thanks.

- How was your day?

- Busy, but we got a different book. It just looks more like a spell book or something. We wasn't able to read it yet.

- Is there someone who can read it?

- Yes a girl who we got the first book from - i said as i sat down on the couch.

- The one who is a fan of you?

- Yes we went to her first, but she wasn't at home.

- Were you able to talk with Lars? - she asked and she sat down next to me on the couch.

- Yeah looks like he has the same kind of visions.

- If one book can cause something like this i don't wanna think about what he is capable of in his full form.

- We won't let him escape, we will have the rest of the books so no one can let him out.

- Aren't you scared or worried?

- I am, but i have to be able to think clearly so i just push it back.

- That's not exactly a good solution Pheebs.

- I'll be fine - i said

- Pheebs you've been in your head lately. I noticed it, you don't need to always show up or be strong.

- The world could end if im not! - i said said on a almost yelling tone. - Its the worlds future on me again, so i can't be weak! - i stood up suddenly. - I already let one mistake almost end it all! I can't let it happen again! - i said without thinking.

- You saved the world twice Phoebe, why don't you give yourself a bit of credit for that? Also Garraka was on me not on you.

- I should have seen your games - i said but i didn't even know what's gotten into me. I just felt this sudden rage in me out of nowhere.

- I wasn't playing. Okay maybe at first, but then i actually started to have feelings

- Then you wouldn't do that!

- Im sorry i truly am. I wasn't thinking, and Garraka said i can be with my family again.

- Yeah i know the story, but you still betrayed me.

- I know - she said and i heard her standing up. Why am i doing this, im not mad at her. Or..maybe i am? I never been able to go through my emotions from that time. I just supressed them, maybe supressing really isn't the best idea. Why is everything so confusing, and complicated. Suddenly i felt Melodys hands hugging me from behind.
- I know what i did was horrible..and you haven't had the time to process it. Im sorry for what i've put you through. But it won't happen again, and you aren't weak just cause you're scared or worried. You don't have to appear strong all the time.. - she whispered and i lost it. I started crying and then i fell on my knees. I felt like everything since Garraka find it way up from the hole i burried it into my mind. Melody sat down behind me and hugged me. I turned around and burried my face into her neck and shoulder. I was crying uncontorably, my body was shaking and i was just barely been able to breathe. Everything just hit me at once. I couldn't tell how long i was crying, i just felt im getting tired and i just slowly stopped. I was still clinging into Melody. She was there the whole time. Once she noticed i calmed down she picked me up gently and carried me upstairs. She layed me down on her bed and, then she layed next to me. I layed down on her chest and just listened to her heartbeat. She started playing with my hair and i felt like everything starting to calm down in me. I was pretending to be numb after everything, and now it hit me all at once.. Im not gonna do it again, Melody was right, i was trying to avoid thinking about how terrified i am. Which i am, one mistake and everything could end. But i won't let it happen, im gonna fight like i did with Garraka and with Gozer.
- Are you okay? - Melody asked and that ripped me out of my thoughts.

- Yeah.. - i said with on a weak tone. - Im sorry for what i've said earlier.

- You were right with it.

- It still wasn't fair, i was blaming you for something that happened years ago.

- Well you wasn't exactly able to yell at me since i was in the fabric of the universe. It had to came out eventually.

- Not after all this time, and after what happened between us.

- Phoebe im not mad at you, only at myself, but you said what you had to say.

- Not everything - i said and i leaned on my arms so i can look at ther.

- Well go on then - she said but i just leaned closer and kissed her. I climbed on top of her and placed my hand on her chest.

- I love you.. - i said.

- I love you too - she said it with a smile.
- You sure there is nothing else you would like to take off your chest?

- I think there is something that needs to come off my chest.

- What is it?

- My shirt - i said it with a wink

- Im impressed Spengler - she said it and smilled. She grabbed my shirt and pulled me in a heated kiss, and then she started moving her hands up and down on my tighs. I sighed into the kiss and grabbed Melodys shirt a bit tighter. She moved her hand up to my waist then she grabbed my shirt and started pulling it upwards. I pulled away so she can take it off of me. She pulled it off and threw it away. - Your wish is my command - she said.

- Good cause i have a few more - i said and took of my glasses and placed it on her nightstand.