My celebrity :) {Haobin}

Chapter 29

With everything that happened that night, it had become quite late, so late that Hanbin "sadly" had no choice but to stay over, not that he planned on leaving the celebrity so soon anyway. That decision had created some awkwardness again because Hanbin was afraid that moving too fast would scare the celebrity away.

They had only spoken about their feelings which left the status of their newly evolved relationship still very much undefined. Hanbin knows that feeling uneasy now is kind of stupid, because they had spent a night together before, but they were only friends then and it just had happened naturally in the spur of the moment.So instead of addressing the elephant in the room they just keep on talking to each other about random topics.

"I've been wanting to ask you this for quite a while now. I can see that you're way happier doing music than working part-time. And you're so incredibly talented at both singing and dancing, how come you don't officially pursue music. "

Hanbin thinks for a while, he hasn't talked about his dreams to anyone in quite some time, because he usually tries very hard to convince himself that pursuing music as a side hustle would be enough, but Hao had opened up about parts of his biggest demons to him, showing vulnerability. Hanbin feels scared about opening the wounds but he also feels like if there is one person he can entrust with it , it would be the boy in from of him. He gathers all the courage he has and begins: "You remember how I told you about starting to work so I could repay my aunt for taking care of me when my mother passed? Actually before my mother fell sick I almost started training to become an idol. It was my biggest dream but I had to abandon it. I don't regret doing it to take care of my mother. I know it was the right decision at the time. I thought about trying again after it was over but I couldn't just selfishly leave my aunt and Yujin. Our family is not that well of, she always managed to pull through for Yujin but then she started having to worry about one more person ion the household while also trying to cover the hospital bills. At some point she started to work even longer hours to help us through, she never asked for anything in return but I felt like I was a burden. The least I could do was talking care of Yujin, helping him with his schoolwork and cooking for him. How could I just leave them with my mothers bills , moving in in some dorm, and devoting all my time to work towards a selfish dream."

The celebrity had quietly listened to him with sad eyes, at some point taking his hand to squeeze it reassuringly.

"We're doing better now, I finished school so now I can work part time more. Yujin is getting older so he will be able to take care of himself soon. My aunt still works a lot but that's mostly because of her occupation , I hope she will realise she can slow down a bit.I don't really have a reason to not do it now, but I just feel like I lost my chance.I don't have the courage to start again. I know my family would support me but I'm just too scared. Taerae has actually been trying to convince me, which is also why he calls himself my manager. But I somehow just can't do it because I see people I started to train with already becoming famous, while I didn't even start." The words he held back for so long cannot be stopped anymore. He opened a door to a part of himself he tried to suppress for a very long time.

"Honestly I understand you, everything about this career is scary, the constant pressure to do well is always there. But for some people it works out pretty well. And with your talent I'm pretty sure you would be one of them.", Hao replies with a crushing amount of certainty in his voice.

"You're gonna make me cry again, it seems like you really believe in me, do you really think it would be worth to start again, I'm not that young anymore and I would probably... ?"

"Yah! Sung Hanbin!", the celebrity interrupts him, "why would you say that? Of course I believe in you, and you're definitely not too old. If you were to decide to try to start again. I'm sure you would become a successful idol in no time."

The absolute assurance in Zhang Hao's voice stirs something in Hanbin, but he still isn't completely convinced yet. "I'll think about it", he says earnestly.

"Is Taerae a good manager?" ,the question catches him off guard, he can't help letting out a laugh.

"Sure. If you like the type of manager that annoys you everyday about his very big obsession with certain music artists, then yeah he is great."

Now Hao is the one laughing. A smirk appears on his face followed by a cheeky eye brow raise. "Is one of those artists, a very amazing , handsome looking, successful soloist by any chance?"

"No , no ... I don't think so , that description doesn't really ring a bell." Hanbin answers just as playful.A pout grows on the celebrity's face and Hanbin just can't stop himself from quickly leaning in and kissing it off his lips.

He can feel a bright smile growing on his face , matching the one of the boy in front of him."Jokes aside, I think he will become a great producer, manager one day after finishing his studies. Why did you ask though? Are you unhappy with yours? He seemed nice when we met in the hospital?"

Shaking his head, Hao is quick to reply. "Oh no my manager is great, he went through tough times with me, I couldn't imagine ever replacing him. When I talked to Taerae, he just seemed very passionate about music so I'm excited to see him succeed."Seeing the person he likes, rooting for his best friend makes Hanbin so happy that he starts internally thanking all the gods and greater beings that have let to him, meeting the celebrity.