Y/N Riddle

Capital 143 Last days of the Holidays

It was finally the last day of the holidays.
School starts again tomorrow.
Mattheo, Draco and Theodor were already in the room.
"Which one first?"
Mattheo pulled out a sheet
"Them"
It was again a family of four with children.
"Normal and fast" Draco said.
"Okay then let's go"
We Apparated to the front of the house.
The house was nice and big.
I went to the door and burst it open.
Mattheo, Theodor and Draco followed me into the house.
A woman came around the corner.
"Honey, we have guests," she shouted.
It wasn't like this friendly guest. She knowed exactly who we are.
"Avada Kedavra" I said
Immediately she died and fell backwards.
The children screamed.
"run" screamed the one child.
I followed the children first.
They ran to the broom closet.
I saw the door close.
"Sorry Kids"
I opened the door.
They looked at me with big eyes and tears streaming down their chins.
" Please No" said one Child under tears.
"Avada Kedavra"
It hit both of them immediately.
I stood up and closed the door.
Suddendly a man stood behind me.
I turned around and pointed my wand at him.
" Y/n I would advise you not to kill me"
" Why not?" I asked
"Because otherwise you will die"
"Avada Kedavra" I whispered.
He fell backwards onto the floor.
Suddenly the noise came again.
This time stronger than ever.
I immediately fell to the ground and started covering my ears.
I screamed.
Draco, Mattheo and Theodor stood behind me.
"place your wands on the ground"
I looked up.
It was a guard from the Ministry.
He pointed his wand at me.
I looked him in the eyes.
" Backup is on their way"
I stood up and hit him in the face with my fist
It happend all so fast.
I hit him so often that he died after one Minute.
The light from his eyes disappeared.
I only now realized what I had done.
My heart rate skyrocketed.
I had killed a man out of sheer power.
"What have I done"
My hands started shaking
" Y/n " I was immediately held.
I looked at the body and breathed in and out quickly.
I almost fell to the ground.
Mattheo held me tight.
I saw Draco sprint in front of me.
He said something but I couldn't understand him.
My gaze was directed at the corpse.
I'm a fucking murderer.
A mass murderer.
Theodor suddenly grabbed my wrist.
"Y/n" I suddenly heard muffledly.
" Y/n," Draco's voice said.
I looked at Draco.
"We have to go"
He took my hand and we apparated.
I saw grass all around me and immediately fell to the ground.
"I need Peeves" I whispered.
"Peeves? He's not here," said Mattheo.
I felt Mattheo's arms around me.
Theodore and Draco knelt in front of me.
" Y/n?" Draco asked
I looked at him.
"I'm a fucking mass murderer" tears welled up in my eyes.
"No, Y/n, you're not," Theodor said.
"I killed him with no remorse. Just like my father.
I am the monster." I whispered
"No, you're not," said Theodor.
I leaned against Mattheo.
Tears streamed down my face.
I stared at the sky.
I felt hands wiping away tears.
A hand passed in front of my eyes.
It was Draco's hand.
His rings matched him.
" Y/n what are you thinking about?" Draco's voice asked.
I didn't answer and looked at the sky.
"Y/n" Mattheo whispered in my ear.
I closed my eyes.
Everything should go.
The boys deserve a better life than this.
They watched me without remorse.
I deserved to go to Azkaban and I deserved to die.
It all was not my Plan anymore.
I was just a shell of myself.
A machine that only kills.
I was no longer a good thing for the boys.
I swore to my little self that I would never kill them if I didn't have to.
I will no longer be able to protect Mattheo, Draco and Theodor.
The ministry will find out about this and then I'll sit forever.
With the most dangerous people or even in the ministry somewhere.
In the deepest corners of Azkaban.
Darkness will come, fear and terror. I will be there forever and die there.
Everything I swore will be gone.
My life destroyed.
I should have died when Snape killed me.
I could kill myself then everything would be easier.
Kill yourself. Jump off the cliff in front and sink with the waves.
I'm better dead than alive.
I opened my eyes.
Theodore and Draco both had tears running down their cheeks.
I half turned to Mattheo.
He stroked my hair and cried.
They cried.
I couldn't leave them alone in this world.
My father would kill them and I can't let that happen.
I need to know that they are safe even though I'm not there.
I was still crying.
My hands bloody.
They were full of his blood.
My life a pure hell.
Lost everyone I loved.
Everyone except Mattheo, Theodor and Draco.
I couldn't lose them.
I had to keep living for them no matter what it cost me.
Mattheo kissed the back of my head.
"No matter what you think Y/n please don't do it" Mattheo whispered while sobbing.
"Guys. You need to prepare. To do Hogwarts alone.
The Ministry will find out and lock me up forever.
You have to be able to carry on living without me. Get ready.
I know that you can do it and I will always be there for you even though I'm not there.
I don't kill myself but you have to live a happy life without me understand?"
"No, no we won't do that" said Mattheo.
"You must. I can't live if I don't know if you are safe"
"Y/n no" Draco said.
I looked at him.
"You think they know?" Theodore asked
"Just a time of inquiry," I replied.
Tears flowed endlessly.
Mattheo put his arms around my waist.
We watched the sea.
It was so peaceful.
We sat there until sunset
"Are you going to tell your father?" Draco asked
"No, otherwise I won't be allowed to go back to Hogwarts."
"Shall we go?" Asked Draco
I nodded.
We apparated to my house.
The living room was empty.
I looked around.
"I'll be right back, stay here," I said
I walked out the door and over to Penney's grave.
"Hey Penney. I miss you so much.
I've done shit, real shit, and I'll probably never come back home to you.
I want you to know how much I love you.
Watch over us in heaven.
Everything is going downhill and I won't win.
I love you"
I got up.
Beautiful flowers blossoms on her grave.
I looked at the house.
Mattheo, Draco and Theodor looked out the window.
I turned in a circle and looked around.
This could be the last time I see this garden. This house.
I went back into the house.
"Hey, see you tomorrow" Mattheo whispered.
I hugged everyone and smiled.
Then they apparated.