*REWRITE* Woman and Machine I (Tfp & Pacific Rim)

Chapter Thirty One

Psst! Psst! Hey! You...Yeah you! HELLO! I MISSED YOU!

Been a while ain't it? Sincerest apologies, school has been a lot, alongside some personal matters. You've no idea how nice it was to simply sit down and write, it was so relaxing...despite how heavy this thing is...SO ENJOY! TARN IS AN AFT *thumbs up*  Pulled out a 9552 word chapter for ya!  😉 

BEWARE: ANGST AND FLUFF AHEAD, tread lightly

TW: Mentions of rape

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She woke in a cold sweat, her breathing uneven and ragged, eyes unfocused as she grasped the bed sheets that kept her warm. Closing her eyes tight, Koda tried to rid the memories of her past, the harsh pinching of thick needles breaking through her skin, the fiery burning that followed after, engulfing her body in invisible flames that were impossible to put out...Stacker standing over her with a devilish grin, Morocco and Silas standing just behind him...

Her knuckles began to turn white as her grip tightened on the comforter, her breath came hard and quick as she felt a phantom pressure on her neck, wrists and ankles from the tight restraints which once held her in place while the three men did as they pleased.

Then, a warm stream of air tickled the hair on her neck, she stiffened, flinching as a hand grasped her arm, no...that wasn't right. She opened her eyes slowly, looking down at her upper arm. It was as though everything was pushed away when she saw that grey servo gently grasping her arm. Optimus moved his thumb up and down slowly, he murmured softly, "It's over, you're okay...Rest."

Koda turned over, facing the red and blue mech. She shivered slightly, wrapping her arm around his back, he did the same in return, his servo moving in small circular motions along the base of her back, slowly moving up to her shoulders and back down as she tucked her head between his jaw and shoulder, "I'm sorry," She mumbled.

"Do not apologise for something you cannot control Little Bear," Optimus murmured softly, he glanced over at the clock on his Amantis nightstand, it was only after one, "It is just past one, try to rest, please."

He heard a muffled "Okay" and the Prime remained awake, soothing her till her breath evened out and became slow, her pounding heart fell back into a gentle rhythm. It was only then, did he allow himself to fall back into recharge, his gentle hold on his Amanti kept her grounded to the earth, allowing them both to rest peacefully for the remainder of the night...

When she woke, later in the morning, just a little past seven, Koda came to slowly. She listened to the gentle thrum of Optimus' Spark, even his soft, slowed vents. As she opened her eyes, blinking a few times to clear her vision, she couldn't help but admire her Amanti. He was truly out of this world, he was the light in her darkness. She lifted her hand, caressing his cheek, her thumb moved in small motions along his cheek, to which he vented, gently pushed into Koda's hand before snuggling back into the pillow. Her fingers lingerd on his audial for a moment before she retracted her hand. As she slipped out of his gentle hold, he groaned, his servo twitched a few times, though when Koda pressed a kiss to his forehelm he relaxed again, a gentle smile pulling at his derma.

It was the small moments like this that she would remember the most. She felt a twinge in her chest as she thought about the fact that one day, the two would have to split. Deep down she knew that the Autobots, Optimus, would have to return to Cybertron. When? She didn't know...She could only hope that she could enjoy the time she had left with him, be it only a few months or a few years. She'd never mentioned it to him, they both didn't like thinking about the future...

Swinging her legs over her mattress, Koda rose to her feet, stretching out her joints, grunting softly as her back and knees cracked. She ran a hand through her hair, catching on a small knot which she worked out as she quietly stepped out of the room. She turned the kettle on, stood, watching the water boil before grabbing a cup and scooped in a bit of instant coffee with a teaspoon of sugar and a little splash of milk. She took a sip, smiling as the warm drink coated her throat, ridding it of any dryness.