Thrown Into Trouble

Funeral

Alex's pov
For the past few days I have been in my headspace mostly in baby space since the oldest I have been is 1 ½ and the youngest I have been was probably around 4 months. That's exactly why I am still letting Blake and Dylan sleep since I have been in such a small headspace for a few days and because of the fact I was in that 4 month old headspace last night. I had told Colton in advance before I slipped that if I was to slip to make sure to get me out of my headspace in the morning on the day of the funeral which is today and I can't be going to my moms funeral while in my headspace. I was in a 1 ½ year old headspace when he woke me up and took me down stairs it took him 30 minutes at most to get me out of my headspace, but I desperately want to go back into it maybe not that small but still around 2 years old is probably the headspace I would like to slip into but I can't not right now after the funeral when we get home I can.

I kept that thought in mind when I was getting dressed in a black suit which I hate because it isn't very comfy at all and the part of me that wants to slip which is most of me wants to pull the suit off. "I know it's not the most comfortable thing to wear but you have to wear it" Colton says as he fixes the suit to make sure I look "perfect" as he said earlier. "Ugh" I say but I know he is right so I let him continue what he is doing "do you want a tie or no?" he asks and I shake my head "alrighty then I would say you are all ready" he says "ok thank you" I say "it's no problem, but before I go to get ready have you eaten anything?" he asks and I shake my head. He had to take a shower this morning so while he did that after getting me out of my headspace I was left to do what I wanted for a while before getting dressed which I spent the whole time trying to stay big. "Well what would you like little cuz?" he asked "i'm not hungry" I tell him "you need to eat a little something, you're not going to want to eat after it happens so you need to eat at least a little beforehand" he tells me "no thank you, i'll be ok" I say "Alex please just trust me on this and eat a little bit" he says .

Before I get the chance to refuse again there is a knock on the door and I look over at it before looking back at Colton and he goes over to the door and opens it and it's Clayton, Mason, and Drew. They were all coming to the funeral along with Kat, Maria, and Drew's wife Stacy, even though most of them don't or well didn't know my mom they want to be there for me which I appreciate plus they are also my caregivers parents and I have been staying here since she was in the hospital so it kinda makes sense why they would come. Winter and Lily are going to stop by the house later to see how I am but I can be little while they are here, and Toby is going to be at the funeral since he is Colton's boyfriend and Colton is my cousins and moms nephew so it also makes sense why he would be there. What didn't make sense was why they were all here at 9:30 when the funeral isn't until 12. "What are y'all doing here?" Colton asks which if he wasn't going to I was "we thought y'all might need some help" Drew said "well actually I do somebody in this room is refusing to eat" Colton says and looks at me before turning back to them and I glare at him "why don't you want to eat Alex?" Mason asks "not hungry" I simply say.

Clayton comes over to me and crouches down to my height "your going to want to eat bud, trust me after and during the funeral is the worst part so you need to eat before it just something small at least" he says "I didn't want to eat before my brothers funeral but Mason and Maria forced me to and in the end I was glad they did" he whispers since Colton doesn't know about that. I think about it before sighing "fine i'll have a little bit but nothing big just something light" I say "how about some fruit then?" Drew asks and I nod I can agree to that. "Well while y'all do that i'm going to go put my suit on and then i'll probably go and get Toby and then bring him here" Colton says "alright" Drew says and with that Colton goes upstairs which I now just realized this will be my first time meeting Colton's mom and sister since they both are going to be at the funeral well I already said Stacy is going to be there but still. "Come on bud let's get your fruit" Clayton says which gets me out of my thoughts and I nod and follow them into the kitchen "what fruits would you like?" Mason asks "bananas, strawberries, and grapes please" I say "alrighty then" Mason says "actually on second thought could I have apple slices with peanut butter?" I ask "of course, as long as you aren't allergic to peanut butter but I would assume you're not since you are asking for it" Drew says and I nod.