Nerves and stress

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Alex's pov
It was the night before my first day of school, well my first day of school at my new school me and my mom just moved here to New York from Florida a week ago and so I have to go to a new school. It's already awkward being the new kid but also the new kid that came to the school in November. I go to my closet and look through my clothes thinking I would go ahead and pick out what I would wear for tomorrow knowing damn well that it really just depends on how I felt in the morning and what headspace I am in. After a while of looking through my clothes and making sure I had almost everything I needed in my backpack minus a stuffie for in case measures. I started to get nervous about tomorrow and if people found out I'm a little nobody knows not even my mom, all my little stuff is hidden so no one can see it the only things I know I don't have to hide is my stuffies and my coloring books and stuff I color with my clothes might be the only thing that goes to give me away sometimes but I have always liked bright colors so it might not really give me away but still. Being as nervous as I was I ended up slipping into my little space I go under my bed and pull out a box with a lock on it and open it and grab another box out of it which has my pacis in it I open the box and pick which one I want out of the two that I have and put it into my mouth and start to suck on it and then I close the box and put it back into the other box and lock it again.

 Being as nervous as I was I ended up slipping into my little space I go under my bed and pull out a box with a lock on it and open it and grab another box out of it which has my pacis in it I open the box and pick which one I want out of the two ...

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His paci.

I go over to my desk and get a coloring book out and my crayons. I take them over to my bed and start coloring a picture, letting myself relax and not worry about what's going to happen tomorrow. My only worry at that moment was coloring outside the lines and messing up my picture. After about thirty minutes I had already finished my picture and was getting sleepy I put my coloring book and crayons on the floor at the end of my bed not wanting to get up and actually put them away and then I lay down with my stuffie buddy and fall asleep sucking on my paci and cuddling with buddy wishing I had a caregiver to cuddle with as well.

This is Buddy

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This is Buddy.

Blake's pov
I was in the gym training some of our new members in the gang when I saw my boyfriend Dylan walk past the gym and look inside for a couple seconds before walking to our shared office. I could tell something was up and that something was bothering him because normally he will come in here and see how things are going and give me a smile but that isn't what happened, I look back over at the new members I'm training and see that they all have stopped what they were doing and are looking at me. "All of you keep training, Colton watch them and make sure they are doing things right" I ordered before leaving the gym to go to our office to check on my boyfriend. Once I got up to our office I opened the door and went over to Dylan who had his head down on his desk and it wasn't hard to tell he was stressed and upset about something. I go over to him and lightly rub his shoulders and whisper "what's the matter love" letting my caring side come out. He moved his head a little and mumbled "what if we don't find one". And I knew exactly what he was talking about, he was talking about if we didn't find a little which had been bothering him for a while especially since we already have a bunch of things for a little. We both love each other but we both feel something is missing and that would be a little someone who would depend on us. I kiss his head lightly "we will find one love plus there is supposed to be a new boy at school tomorrow he might be a little" I told him trying to make him feel better, now normally I'm not like this I'm much more serious and face the facts instead of pretending but when it comes to my lover it's different because I don't want him to be upset.

He lifts his head and looks at me and says "your right, it's just been a stressful day and earlier Colton was telling me about his little which I normally enjoy but today just wasn't the day for it" I was a bit pissed that Colton was part of the reason my lover was upset but I decided to push it off for now, after a while of talking we look at the clock and see it's 12 am and we have school in the morning "come on love let's get home we have school later" and with that he got up and grabbed his things and I did the same then we went to our car and drove home where we see that Colton is already there because the three of us share a house. I park the car and we grab our stuff and go inside, after a shower I go into me and Dylan's room to see he is reading a book on the bed. He looks up at me and gives me his signature smile that only me and our closest friends get to see, I sit down on my side of the bed and hear him put his book down on the night stand he comes closer to me and kisses me to which I kiss him back and after he says "goodnight babe I love you" and I smile at him and say "goodnight love I love you to" and with that he turns the lamp off and within minutes we were both asleep.

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