True Form (Avengers x Reader)

-26-

A knock on my door.

"Y/n?"

"No"

"Can I come in?"

"No, now go away"

"I got a donut tho.."

I sighed and opened the door, surprisingly staring at Bucky, who smiled awkwardly. Before I could slam the door shut in his face, he stepped inside my room.

"Now gimme the donut" I demanded and extended my hand.

"I only said I got one, not that you could get it" he smirked as I narrowed my eyes. "Just kidding, eat. It's been two days and JARVIS confirmed that you never once got out of your room, you must be starving"

I shrugged. "I'm used to it"

He slumped down on the edge of my bed. Normally I would've tried to get as much distance between us as possible, since I didn't trust my animal-self not to hurt anyone again, but I knew he could easily take me down within five seconds, so I hesitantly joined him.

"You know you don't have to blame yourself for what happened" he said after a while of silence and I scoffed.

"Did they tell you to say that?"

"Yep" he answered bluntly, popping the 'p'. "But I do agree with them on this point"

I groaned frustrated and let myself fall backwards, so I was laying on the bed in a starfish position.

"Go on" I sighed. "Just tell me your hero speech. Bet they forced you to memorize a whole presentation"

He chuckled and shook his head slightly. "Actually they told me to improvise"

"Okay, shoot"

"I'm probably the only person who can truly understand what you're feeling. I was in the same position when HYDRA controlled the Winter Soldier. The most cruel thing was that I saw what I did. I had to watch it without being able to stop myself. And now I can remember all the murders and horrible crimes I committed. I killed Stark's parents"

"You what?" My eyes widened at his last sentence.

"It still haunts me in my dreams, but life goes on, y'know"

"Yours at least, not theirs..." I mumbled, but Bucky chose to ignore the comment.

"I mean Tony was pretty pissed when he found out, guess the timing also wasn't the best, since there was already tension between us because of those stupid accords. But inside he knew it wasn't my fault, I had zero control and neither did you at the base"

That actually made me feel a bit better. But I still had to process the information Bucky just killed Tony's parents.

"Also, every one of us killed someone before, apart from Peter and Kate" he added. "It was inevitable and would've happened some day anyways it's just part of our job"

"I know it's just.. I didn't want it to happen like that" I told him sadly, remembering all the blood I was literally soaked with.

"They provoked you, it wasn't your fault and you know that"

I just stared at the ceiling, knowing he was somewhere right.

"Fury adjusted your training plan a bit, so we can work on your control over yourself in those situations. But personally I think it's not really necessary, since this never happened before and normally you have everything in control, but maybe it makes you feel better"

"Yeah that would be good" I agreed.

"Fury wants you back on your feet, so I suggest you get up before he gets you himself" Bucky chuckled.

"Oh no, it was bad enough to listen to your presentation, I think I wouldn't survive one from Fury" I laughed.

"Look at that! She didn't forget how to laugh" he exclaimed sarcastically as I playfully scowled.

"You know what, I think I'll use the information that you killed Tony's parents against you somewhen" I threatened.

He grinned and before I could even react, I was on my back on the ground with my arms pinned down above my head.

"Gettin' flashbacks?" He smiled innocently.

I struggled for a moment whilst Bucky just smirked amused.

"You can't win against me" he yawned deliberately, obviously finding a liking in teasing me.

"Maybe not, but I can still fight you" I shot back and kneed him in the stomach, pushing him off me.

"Now who's gettin' flashbacks?" I teased triumphantly.

Unfortunately the satisfaction didn't last long, since Bucky suddenly decided to pick me up as if I was weighing nothing and walked towards the door.

"Hey, no! What are you doing?" I exclaimed and squirmed in his arms. "Let go of me!"

"Ah- ah, they told me to get you to the common room to eat something, so that's what you're gonna do"

"No, I don't wanna see them! Bucky please, no" I mentally cursed myself for falling for his little trick.

"Stop struggling" he said unfazed and entered the elevator.

"Lemme down, lemme down you bucket!"

He scoffed. "Bucket, really? With that nickname, never"

"No, no, please let me down! This is so embarrassing!" I pleaded, but he had no mercy.

The elevator doors opened and I shut up instantly, pouting now. As if this wasn't humiliating enough, we were also faced with every one of the team, who were preparing dinner and started laughing at our sight. Bucky plopped me down on a chair and I gave him a disapproving glare.

"Wow Barnes, didn't think you would manage to get her out of her room" Clint said and Bucky shrugged.

"Gave her a donut"

"The one with red, white and blue sprinkles? That was mine, we had only one left!" Sam complained.

"Too bad, go cry me an ocean" Bucky sassed back, rolling his eyes playfully.

"Enough, let's eat dinner" Steve demanded, slightly pissed off by their childish behavior.

After we finished eating dinner, we decided to relax and watch a movie. Well, Nat and Yelena wanted a horror movie, so it wasn't exactly relaxing. I wasn't overly afraid of this genre, I liked the tension, but sometimes I got scared anyways.

Peter didn't like the movie at all, he was constantly hiding under the blanket, curled up into Tony's side, who had his arm protectively around the teenager. The rest of us liked it though, with me and Kate hiding from time to time.

At some point during the movie I just remained curled up next to Yelena and enjoyed the nice feeling of everyone's presence and comfort. Somewhen I closed my eyes and before I even noticed, I drifted off into sleep, surrounded by the fluffy blankets and the warmth of Yelena.