Aiah's POV
As soon as i woke up, i heard a familiar sound. It's the sound of the rain, it was raining hard, i had to get up and close the curtains.
Lumabas ako ng kwarto, there she was Mikha.. just like the old time she was making coffee and prepared a breakfast for me the only difference is that... nakikita ko na 'to.
"Kain na tayo" she said, i slowly went to the dining table and complimented her love for cooking. By the look of it, Mikha doesn't know how to cook heavy meals just hotdogs and spam but that's something to appreciate. Tahimik kaming kumakain when she suddenly say.
"I need to go home in a bit, i was with you the whole night and nothing bad happened. But, ipapasuyo kita sa guard and please, if anything bad happened tawagan mo'ko. I need to report this to Gwen." I just simply nodded. She was drinking her coffee, unlike mine her was pure black, she needed that after what happened. "I don't know what to do, kapag umuwi si Maloi sa bahay.... Do i even hug her? Console her or what? " I noticed that it's been eating her up so i gathered all the right words before answering her.
"If she ever comes home, talk to her.. but, i doubt na uuwi siya Mikha. " she silently shifted her position sa pagkakaupo. I'm sensing na she's uncomfortable in talking about her ex girlfriend being with her brother's potential killer.
"I know Maloi since she was a teenager, Jake loves her sister so much. They are partners in crime, they complement each other. They were raised in a God centered family and i just know na mabait na bata siya when she decided to believe in me when her parents were pointing all the blame to me. It is surprisingly to know na kasama niya si Colet pero, on my contrary as what you said she was asking Colet to release me. Hindi ko alam yung reason nila as to why they wanted to do this, siguro nga kasi bumabawi si Colet saiyo but one thing i know is that Maloi is a good person." After hearing my words, Mikha smiled and answered "sana nga, tama ka."
After our breakfast, nagpaalam na siya sakin. I just know na mas malaki ang challenges na nagiintay sakanya sakin bahay niya. Knowing that Maloi's stuff are still there, higher chance na balikan niya yun at magusap sila. To be honest, i am not mad at Colet and Maloi... what surprises me is magkakilala pala sila? Sabagay, wala naman pinapakilalang friends si Maloi noon kina tita even kay Jake. I am traumatized sa nangyari, i locked the door and had to check it twice para lang ma ensure ko na walang makakapasok na kung sino. Mas okay nadin na wag ako maglalalabas muna, lalo na pwede akong balikan anytime ni Colet. Although, i know na i have Mikha ayoko pa din na mang distorbo ng tao. I have to learn how to protect myself.
Hindi ko na alam sino unang iisipin, ako ba or si Mikha. I just know na mahirap para sakanya to, while the news of their break up made me at ease i know na somewhere down there nasasaktan si Mikha. I just know na i like this girl... after everything na pinagdaanan namin kagabi her presence was more than enough for me to sleep knowing na she's around. Am i gay? I don't even know pero, i like her. I like Mikha, I don't like other girls but i guess Mikha is an exemption. I looked at Jake's picture and i grabbed it, it's been years nadin naman na... i forgive myself for losing him siguro it's just the right time na pabayaan ko ang sarili ko na magkagusto ulit?
I can remember that one conversation that I had with Jake nung buhay pa siya.
Jake: Love, di ka pa tapos?
There he was, smiling at me and grabbing the chair infront of me para maka-upo siya.
"Malapit na ako matapos" i replied and he seemed tired.
Jake: Love, curious question... if we broke up, in which i know hindi mangyayari but incase we did. Sa tingin mo, gaano ka katagal mag momove on?
Napatigil ako at nagisip.
"Siguro, it might take a while. First relationship ko 'to eh. Love, I don't know! Kasi wala naman sa isip ko yun na maghihiwalay tayo. But incase we did, i guess i need to focus on myself."
Knowing jake, bigla bigla nalang to nagtatanong sakin ng kung ano ano.
Jake: I know that naman silly, ang akin lang sana.. I don't want you to deprived yourself in meeting other people. Breakups are messy and scary but next thing we know we are okay na! Gusto ko lang malaman mo na you are indeed deserving of the love na ibibigay saiyo ng tao.
I smiled, i just know na may meaning na yung sinasabi niya na yon sakin. Because, weeks after that the accident happened, i was too scared to be alone when he left. When he passed away the memories of what we had is something that i always keep with me so that i can keep on going. After i had my vision back, wala padin akong chance to pay my respect to him even sa urn niya. I just want to see him one last time, but knowing how much his parents hated me and with the current situation with Maloi, alam ko na malabo talaga. They crucified me for the death that im not even responsible, i was a victim too. Pero, ayoko na mag blame dahil magulang sila at girlfriend lang ako the pain that they've felt.. i know triple yun ng naramdaman ko. I guess they just wanted to let it out by blaming me and sa totoo lang, nasanay nalang din ako.
My thoughts were disturbed when i heard a knock sa pinto ko, it was a soft knock.. dahan dahan akong pumunta sa pinto... i was hesitant to open it, pero nagsalita ako para lang makasigurado " Sino yan?" The knocking stopped and walang sumagot sakin, i ensured na my doors are locked i was about to dial Mikha's number when i heard a knock again. This time, medyo aggressive na.
Kumuha ako ng pamalo.. hindi ko alam, basta i need to protect myself so kahit anong pamalo nalang. I slowly opened the door and i was surpised to see who was on the other side... Maloi.
Her eyes were puffy, para bang kakaiyak lang niya. Binaba ko yung pamalo ko and before i can react she hugged me. A tight hug, and my body reacted by hugging her back.
"I'm sorry ate, im so sorry for dragging you in this.. im so sorry." She said and before i could even say a word. Tumakbo siya sa fire exit, sinundan ko agad siya.. i was shouting her name pero di niya ako nililingon. Kailangan ko ng sagot, kailangan ko malaman what's pushing her to do this. Nang makalabas kami, she hurriedly went to a car and mabilis itong umalis pero i found the courage na tumakbo para sundan to, but i had to stopped kasi there was a car that hit me.. napa-higa ako sa sahig dahil sa impact and i saw Mikha... she saw everything and she was frozen and nagulat siya sa nangyari, she shouted my name and agad akong pinuntahan,
Tinulungan niya ako maka-tayo, sinugod niya yung muntik makabangga sakin pero i had to calm her. I assured her na im okay, wala akong galos at walang masakit.
"Bakit ka ba tumatakbo?!" Tanong niya sakin and i replied " Si Maloi, pinuntahan niya ako sa Condo ko!" She was shocked. Eventually pinaalis nadin namin yung nakabangga sakin, wala naman akong galos at hindi naman ganon kasakit tagiliran ko pero i know, magkakapasa ako sa impact. Habang asa elevator kami pataas tahimik si Mikha at nang makarating kami sa Condo ko, inalok ko siya ng juice.
I saw her crying, nabother ako.. "Mikha, what's wrong?" She wiped her tears na akala niya siguro matatago niya sakin. Tumingin siya sakin and she smiled.
"Naalala ko nung nabangga si Mikel, nakita ko yung vision na yon nung napatumba ka kanina sa sahig. I was frozen and i couldn't even move. Naramdaman ko yung takot when you were hit by a car, hindi ko kayang may mawala na naman sa tao na malapit sakin at wala na naman akong nagawa... Aiah, i couldn't let it happen again."
Her trauma was visible. Naalala niya nung nabangga kapatid niya i sat down beside her and hold her hand. "But im here, there's nothing to be worried about." Ngumiti lang siya sakin and she looked me directly in the eye.
"Your eyes" She took a deep breath before speaking again.
"is the same Eyes that my brother once had. Yan and dinonate ng tito ko na mata kay Mikel. When he died, i suggested na ibigay sayo.. Aiah, your eyes... yung nag donate saiyo... it was my brother."
Napatahimik ako bigla, then a tears just automatically came out of my eyes...
Mikel... was my donnor, Mikha's brother.
