Mikha's POV
Aiah is currently sleeping i immediately covered her body with a blanket. Umuulan ngayon mukhang may bagyo. I left a note beside her table i told her i need to go na, 2am na din kailangan ko na umuwi muna saglit nagpaalam naman ako sakanya kanina. Aware siya na uuwi ako once she's settled.
She cried a lot, after i finally revealed na kapatid ko ang donor ng mata niya. A part of me feels happy na alam niya na dahil mas papahalagahan niya yung buhay na meron siya ngayon. I looked at her and she's sleeping like a baby, i smiled before turning off her lights and i grabbed my jacket. I ensured na naka lock yung pinto niya.
Nang makarating ako sa parking, i saw a familiar girl beside my car... Maloi.
I immediately went to her, hindi ko alam.. pero unang response ng katawan ko ay yakapin siya. Pero, i was suprised nang alisin niya ang yakap ko.
"Maloi, what happened?" I asked her pero she just looked at me with a blank expression.
"Hindi ba dapat ako magtanong sayo niyan? What happened Mikha? Anong nangyari satin?" She asked.
"I already told you..." she rolled her eyes at me and I saw a tear coming down from her face.
"I love you, i loved you. Ilang taon ng buhay ko yung binigay ko para intayin ka, para mahalin ka at para buoin yung mga bagay na hindi naman ako ang naging dahilan para mawala sayo. I was too occupied in making sure that you are okay, hindi ko manlang naramdaman na kakagaslight ko sa sarili ko... para ko nadin binabalewala yung feelings ko. Yung pansarili kong nararamdaman. You were to angry sa mundo Mikha, i stayed because I wanted you to know that even after heartbreaks there's a brighter tomorrow that's waiting for us. I was too busy fixing you that I didn't noticed na ako na pala yung nasisira. I loved you even at the most ungodly hours ng buhay ko, mas iniisip ko padin yung pagmamahal ko para sayo kasi i want you to come back stronger lahat tiniis ko, so that you won't feel alone pero yung sasabihin mo lang sakin hindi ka pa ready? Pucha Mikhs! Sinayang mo oras nating dalawa!" Maloi was crying and i can see the pain in her eyes. I tried to explain my side as soon as i saw an opportunity to talk.
"Maloi, i'm thankful for you. Sa lahat ng ginawa mo, and mahal kita minahal kita at hanggang ngayon mahal kita. Pero, alam mo na wala pa talaga sa plano ko yung mga gusto mong mangyari, i was brutally honest to you when we decided to be with each other" i answered to her. I saw her fixing her hair, she's shaking... alam ko na galit talaga siya and she was hurt.
"I know that, you keep on saying that. Pero, i thought magbabago yun. I thought we can change that, akala ko soon you will realize na okay ka na, na baka this time around pwede naman na ikaw naman ang isipin mo. Mikha, there are things na hindi mo controlled... there are things na hindi na natin maibabalik pero etong hinihiling ko, gaano ba kahirap na mag settle sakin? Para gawin mong rason yung paghahanap ng killer ng kapatid mo? I understand it's important pero, tangina naman! Mahal na mahal kita, i really wanted to share my life with you. Tapos one day, gigising nalang ako na wala na? Wala na lahat, pati ikaw!" She was furious, i couldn't help myself but to cry as well. Minahal ko si Maloi and at some point tama naman siya.
"I'm sorry" yun lang ang naisagot ko, wala naman tamang pwede sabihin to lighten up the situation.. i hurt her and totoo naman na wala siyang ginawa but to love and support me and yes, i took it for granted pero hindi ba mas magiging unfair ako if i will still stay with her despite of everything? Pano kapag isang araw gumising nalang ako na wala na talaga akong nararamdaman for her.
"Sorry? Sana ganon kadali Mikha, sana maisasalba ng sorry mo yang lahat ng pinagdaanan ko dahil lang i choose to save you from your own demons. I am not mad at you for breaking up with me, galit ako sa sarili ko kasi why did i even stay in this relationship? All i ever wanted was to be with you. You made it so easy at the same time for me to love you, now it's just a complete fucked up situation. And now, i know that you like Ate Aiah, cause whenever you're with her..... you were a different version of yourself. And For Godsake Mikha, pinagdarasal ko na sana... ako din, ma experience ko yung version mo na masayahin na Mikha sa tuwing kasama mo si Ate Aiah. Alam ko naman eh, kita ko naman... pero triny ko pa kasi baka kaya pa isalba kaso, ako nalang pala ang umuusad.. tuluyan ka na palang tumigil."
We were both crying now, i couldn't find the right words to tell to her how much she meant to me. Pero, kasi.. after all, tama siya eh. Aiah hits differently to the point na alam ko na kahit na may Jake na palaging nasa eksena eh para bang confident ako na ako ang pipiliin niya. Ang hirap kasi para akong sumusugal sa isang laro na hindi ko alam kung sino ang tunay ko na kalaban, lalo na kung yung kalaban ko eh wala na.
"I hope you're happy Mikha, i wish you all the best. If you're looking after Colet, hindi ko alam kung nasan siya. Nag hiwalay kame the night after she abducted Ate Aiah, if there are leads pertaining to her whereabouts i will let you know." She was about to go to her car when i held her hand.
"Loi, please.. let me drive for you.. kahit ito nalang, kahit last nalang" i begged.
"No, kaya ko. Kailangan ko kayanin mag-isa kasi wala ka na. After all, nasanay ako na you were always there for me. So, no. Kailangan ko matuto. You promised me that you will forever drive for me Mikha, pero here we are breaking each other's heart because you fell out of love just because i got tired of waiting for you. You gave up on us, you gave up on me when i never gave up on you nung mga araw na halos isuka ka ng mundo sa kung paapano mo trinatrato ang sarili mo, I can drive Mikha.. i need to drive on my own from now on because you couldn't keep a promise. "
There she was in her own car. Took her a minute to start the car until she got out of the parking area, naiwanan ako don na umiiyak... wala na akong pake sino maka kita basta ang alam ko lang masakit.
Not until i felt a pair of hands on my shoulder... it was Aiah. Mukhang kakagising lang niya, she opened her hands and willingly took me in for a hug. For the first time after Mikel's death ngayon lang ako umiyak ng ganito, it's painful but i feel free to be honest, i know it may sound so wrong but im no longer with Maloi, i won't feel any pressure around her. Alam ko na she was waiting for me and alam ko na may mali ako, pero... she will never understand how i felt all these years.
"Shhh, cry lang.. it's gonna be okay" Aiah assured me that there will be no judgement... i like her, maybe yes.. i like Aiah.
