A Fist Full of Feathers

Chapter 7

(A/N: It is time. I've given you guys two fluffy adorable chapters but I'm afraid it has come time for Raven to complete her task. Just a warning. Also, kudos to you if you know who she's killing. Also, for best affect, listen to a really sad song. What ever make you cry.)

After ten minutes of talking and laughing, in which Michael has finally joined us, I get a phone call. I pick it up immediately after seeing the caller. "Raven? Raven get over here now." She says the hangs up. I stand up and speed walk towards the door. "Raven? Where are you going?" Alex asks and I turn around, tears falling from my eyes. "I'm afraid it's time." ------Time skip cause I'm just that lazy------ We pull up and her house. My knife in one hand and my gun in the other. "Are you sure you're ready?" Cas asks from the front seat. "If I don't do it know I never will." I say wiping some tears from my eyes. I get out of baby and signal for everyone to stay put. I walk up to her front door step and knock. She opens the door, tears falling for her eyes. "I'm ready." She says and takes my hand in hers. "Don't worry Raven. I want this. They've come for me again. The voices in my head, and this time some meds aren't gonna work." She says and I put my hand on her face. "Anele, I'm so sorry. I wish I didn't have to." I say and she hugs me tightly. "Raven, I'm going insane again. If you don't do this, I will." She says and I wipe my nose. Anele has schizophrenia, had it as long as I can remember. Last time the doctor gave her some medication that seemed to cure her. But I guess it was too good to be true. "Raven, if neither of us can do this, I'm going to an asylum. Please, let me help you. Please, let yourself help me." She says and holds one of my hands in both of hers. "Your are and always will be my best friend Anele, life will be a little bit more grey without you." I say as the tears start to blur my vision. "I will always be here with you Raven. Right here." She says and holds her hand to my heart. "I love you Anele. You will never be forgotten. I'll make sure of that." I say and hug her tightly. She sits in her couch and I stand in front of her. "I'm going to shoot you. Right here." I say and touch her right temple with the gun. "Then I'm going to put the gun in your hand. I'm sorry Anele. But they need to think it was a suicide. After they find your body, we're going to cremate you so we don't creat an angry spirt. Don't fear death Anele because a crazy as it sounds, I'm death." I say and hug her one last time. "I'm ready Raven. Thank you. Please, please don't forget that this is not your fault and I forgive you." Anele says taking my hand. "Do you to hold my hand?" I ask and she nods. "Don't fear death, Anele." I say and cock the gun. "I'm coming Daddy. I'm coming Mommy. I'll see you soon. Thank you and I forgive you, Raven." She says. I kiss her check, wipe her tears away, and grab her hand. More tears fall from both of us as I pull the trigger. A loud bang sounds and Anele leans limply against the couch. I'm covers in her blood and I can't stand. I fall to my knees and cry into her shirt. Cas runs in a minute later and pulls me away from her. He takes the gun from my hand and puts it in hers. I start to ball my eyes out and I grab onto Cas' shirt as he pulls me up and carries me out of the house, closing and locking the door as we leave. I cry into his shirt and I look up to see Aneles sprit waving to me as its pulled up to heaven. This makes me cry even more. I ball for the loss of my best friend and sister. "I'm so Anele!" I wail as Dean pulls the car out of the street and toward the bunker. I just keep say how sorry I am, even though I know that her spirit is gone. "It's okay, Raven. Shhhhh, it's okay." Cas says as he stroke my hair. I just keep crying as I look at my hands and see her blood and brains all over me. I start to hyperventilate at the thought that she might not be aloud into heaven. "Dad! Please let her in! Don't let her go daddy! Please!" I wail to the sky in attempt to call out to our father. "Shhhh. She'll be let in. Father won't turn her away." Cas assures but that doesn't stop the sobs that fill the car. Ca just rocks me and holds me close to his chest. Alex is in the back seat, with tears sliding down his face. "Alex! Please, please forgive me! I'm so sorry! I'm a monster!" I screech and hide my face. "Raven, no, no, Raven. Your not a monster. She needed it. She told me that of you refused to do it she would have committed suicide. Raven, you made this easier for her." Alex says and take my hands in his. "That doesn't make it any easier to let her go." I says and he nods. "I know. It hurts me too. She going to the better place you talk about though." Alex says and I nod. Even though I know that this is what she wanted, I can't stop crying. We pull up to the bunker and Cas carries me inside where Michael takes me. "I killed her Michael. I killed a person." I sob out and he quiets me. "Raven!" Lucifer yells as he runs to my side. "I'm a monster Luci. Look at me. I'm covered in her!" I sob out as Michael takes me to my room and lays me on my bed. Lucifer climbs next to me and soothes me as best he can. "I'm a monster Luci. I killed her. I held her hand and shoot her." I say and Lucifer just holds me. "Alex! Where is he? I need him!" I say and try to stand but I just fall over. Alex rushes to my side and brings me into his lap. "Im right here Raven. I'm right here baby girl." He says an I cling onto him. "Lucifer, I know this is your twin sister I'm holding right now, but I think she just needs some time. I'm sorry." Alex says as tears roll down my checks. "No, please don't be sorry. Alex, she needs some one who knows... knew Anele. It's okay. I'll be right here if you need me, okay Raven?" Lucifer says and I nod. Lucifer leaves us and Alex lays with me on the bed. "I'm sorry Alex. I just shoot your best friend in the side of the head." I says and hold him close to me. "It's okay Raven. Like I said, you did this for her." He says but I just cry myself to sleep. When I wake up, Alex is still holding me. I almost smile but then everything just comes back to me and the dried tears on my face are replaced with new ones. I stand wobbly on uncertain legs as I waddle my way to the bathroom. I close and look the door and turn on the water. I have to get her blood off me. I stand numbly in the shower as I scrap away layer after layer of skin with my sponge, trying to wipe myself away. After I finish cleaning my self off I stumble back to my room and dress in a new pair of sweats and a sports bra. I sigh and let my wings out. I'm a little confused when the start to glow, but soon I realize what's happening as they elongate to their full extent. One is about as long as I am tall and I finally have full control of both. I sigh at the feeling, then feel guilty for feeling happy. I scold myself and walk out of my room when I hear the phone ring. I grab it and press talk. "Is Raven Novak in?" The male voice says from the other line. "Speaking." I respond and wait. "Miss.Novak, I'm very sorry, but we've found your friend Anele Wentsworth dead in her home yesterday evening. The doors and windows were locked from the inside, and we're almost certain she committed suicide." The police officer says and I start to cry again. "I'm very sorry Miss.Novak. If it's okay I would like to ask you some questions?" He says and I nod, then I remember he can't see me. "O-Okay officer." I stutter out as tears stream down my face. "Is there any reason she would have wanted to committee suicide?" He ask and I fail to repress a sob. "Anele has schizophrenia. She told me a couple days ago that her medication was failing and the voices were coming back stronger then ever," I sob an sniffle but continue. "Sorry. She's such a happy girl that bad things just seem to happen to. I'm sorry." I say and start to cry harder. "No, no please. We can do this later if it's too hard now." The officer says. "Its okay. If I don't say it now I never will right?" I ask sadly. "So, that's probably the reason she... its the voices. She hates them. She always yells and screams at them to go away. I just can't believe she's gone. While the meds were working she was so happy and full of life. Like... just so full of life. And she's so young you know? I just... it's hurts so much." I say and sniffle as I wipe some tears away. "Thank you for your time Miss.Novak. She's being sent to the St.Graces hospital for clean up. Then since your the closet thing she has to family, well let you decide what to do. I can recommend a grief therapist if you would like. I'm deeply sorry for your loss." The officer say and I wipe my nose. "Thank you officer. Pleas tell the hospital to be careful. She's like my sister." I say and the officer thanks me again before hanging up. I cover my mouth with my hands as fresh tears well up in my eyes. "Was that the police?" Alex asks and I nod. "Come here." He says and I walk over into his warm embrace. I sniffle and wipe my eyes. "I have something to show you." I say and back up. I smile sadly and let my wings fan out to full length. "They're beautiful Raven. Anele will be so proud of you." Alex says and he hugs me. He stroke my hair as we just hold each other and rock slightly. "Raven... they're so beautiful." Cas says as he walks into the kitchen mesmerized by my matured wings. "Thanks Cas." I say and wipe some tears from my face. "The police called. She's at St.Graces. They're gonna clean her up, then let us decide what to do. I think we should cremate and burry the ashes." I suggest and sniffle. "That's a good idea. I know she's your friend, but before everything else, we have to prevent an angry spirit." Dean says and I nod. "I want a funeral. She doesn't have any family left but I want her to have one." Alex says and I nod. "Okay. We'll make it work." Cas says and smile sadly. "It's what she would want." I say and am hit with another huge wave of emotion. I almost fall to the floor but Alex catches me. I cling onto his neck a tears stream down my face.