Unexpected

C.15

I spent the rest of the day curled up in my bed, hugging a pillow and staring at the wall, thinking to myself.

Did that kiss mean anything to him? Did he like me? Was he just trying to shut me up? Did he do it cos I said I liked him? Does he have feelings for me? Do I have feelings for him? What did that kiss MEAN?

Was L even capable of love? Or liking? Or something? What was his sexuality? He seems asexual, but you can never be sure. I once knew a shy pansexual but a very outgoing asexual. A bisexual who preferred girls but she still liked guys. A straight who only surrounded themselves with their sex because they were terrified of talking to the other sex. You never know.

Me, for example. Aromantic. I just don't want to date at all because I don't want anyone getting tangled up with me being H and all. But I'm sure L could handle it. He's doing fine already.

HE'S A MOTHERFUCKING DETECTIVE YOU FUCKING IDIOT. But he promised not to get me arrested. THAT WAS ONLY UNTIL THE CASE ENDS. So? We can just make sure the case never ends. DAMN. YOU'VE GOT A POINT. Psh. I know.

I'm brilliant.

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L'S P.O.V.

"Uh, Ryuzaki. Since you've asked us to turn back on the cameras in H's room, she's just been lying in bed staring at the wall." Light informed me. "Yeah, so?" I asked. "This has been going on for five hours and she hasn't moved once. What did you do to her in there?" He asked and once again, I felt eyes on me.

"Now why would you suspect that I did something to her?" I asked. "Well, you did tell Watari to turn off the cameras and taps, then you went in. You came out a minute later and told him to turn them back on, and she was like that, and hasn't moved since." Misa said. "Kinda obvious." Light agreed.

"Okay, I did something. I'm not saying what. And at least she's not insulting you, Misa, so I don't see what the problem is." I shrugged. "The problem is is that she hasn't moved. For five hours." Light said.

"Okay?" I hummed. "Don't you think something could be wrong with her?" Light asked. I just kissed her, so what? What could be wrong with her after that? God, girls are complicated.

"I think you should go check up on her." Misa said. "Why me?" I asked. "Well, you screwed her up. And you're the only one who can get through to her. And she you. And, the rest of us are kinda terrified of her." Misa said. "Yeah." Light agreed.

"No, I don't want to. Light, you go do it." I said and he sighed. "Fine." He sighed and went to the door. He knocked gently and spoke softly. "Hey, H, mind if I come in? I just want to talk to you." He said.

"GO AWAY." H screamed and everyone who could hear flinched. She had a loud, bloodcurdling scream. Light jumped back and looked at me from down the hallway. "Dude, what did you do to her in one minute?" He gasped.

I decided if I liked her or not.

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H'S P.O.V.

"GO AWAY!" I screamed as loud and as threatening as I could, and the end came out more like a choked sob. "Dude, what did you do to her in one minute?" Light asked from outside my door.

What did L do to me in less than one minute? Good question, Light.

He made me feel something I've only felt for one person ever. And that one person is a fucking fictional character. That one person is a psychopath. The most famous psychopath there's ever been. The psychotic clown I've grown to love and would literally do anything for. The Clown Prince of Crime that I've based my whole persona on. I've based H off of him and Harley Quinn, but mostly Joker. I've accepted my fate as going nowhere but up in the criminal underworld, and I've tried my very best to become the best for him. He'll never know, but that doesn't matter.

L took my first kiss. My first ever kiss was taken by the greatest detective next to Sherlock Holmes. L doesn't even seem to feel, and yet, in a few seconds, he might've felt something for me. Might it be love, attraction, or annoyance.

And in those seconds I felt more than I ever have my entire life. I felt things bubble up inside my chest. I felt my head getting ready to explode. I felt my eyes widen. I felt my breath get caught in my throat. I felt a pair of lips against mine. I think I felt the tip of a tongue reach out and gently poke my bottom lip, but that might be my imagination. I felt his hands burning cold under my freezing skin. I felt his breath fan across my face when he pulled back. I felt the pressure of his eyes on me and I definitely felt myself ready to crumble right then and there.

And crumble I did.

And the most important feeling I've developed in the hours I've lied here?

I developed feelings for L.