A MAN TO HEAL

chapter thirty nine

POV Suki

Last night when I came here spontaneously, I didn't get the chance to visit the house, that's why I accepted excitingly when he proposed me a tour

He told me that the penthouse was his grandfather's property that he received as inheritance among a few other things

I'm sure the few other things are like the museum, art collections and even more wealth and valuable pieces, but I don't mention it

" I literally grew up here, behind these walls, every holiday, I would spend it here with Hal-abeoji and Halmeoni, I hated when on vacation my father would force me to learn math and business stuff, holidays were made to rest and enjoy life " he explains

I chuckle softly

" you weren't an easy kid " I say

" Oh Lord! I was stubborn and a mule head, when I grew up, it got even worse...but in a very different way "

" Spare me please " I say playfully

But my heart aches cause I know already what does that mean

I've heard enough to know about his debaucherous life back then

Still haven't digested the fact that he used to sleep with married women too, it's crazy

I don't want to overthink, now he is...I hope...a better man than he was years ago

I mean, it was still long time ago when he was still in college, but the bad reputation never left him

He looks at me, I don't know if he could sense it or read my mind but he squeezes my palm softly

" I wasn't the best kid nor the flawless teenager nor the purest young adult, but I'm willing to be the best boyfriend to you, I vow to be the irreproachable man that you deserve, I'll try my best to be it "

I give him a shy smile as I nod slowly

" I know words have no value nowadays, but I make this a promise to you and I'll show it with my actions every single day "

" I trust you Jimin, your past doesn't matter to me, I didn't know you yesterday, I know you today, I know the man you are now... I'm no one to judge what you were in the past, I wasn't perfect either you know, I'm still not
I would lie saying that, sometimes, thinking about the things that I heard didn't pain me, but I want to live in the present, I'll be mad at you for the things you do now, not when you were in college or anything "

He smiles at me, relief in his eyes

" The only thing I'm going to do in the present is to love you, I'm not sure you will be mad at that " he replies

I blush hard

" Stop this " I say , my heart pounding

He chuckles softly as we continue to walk in the hallway

" Are you planning to live here forever? " I ask cautiously

He shrugs

" I don't know, I haven't thought too much about it, I just needed a place to stay after things finished with Emily "

" Humm I see "

" Would you like to live here? " He asks me

I cough, the question caught me off guard

" Me? Well...I don't know, I like my apartment "

He throws a look at me as he raises an eyebrow

He probably wanted to say something else, but he didn't say it