A MAN TO HEAL

chapter thirty seven

POV Suki

I smile as I pick my pink mug from a cabinet and I pour the matcha I just made in it

I can't stop smiling and giggling by myself, I feel like I'm starting to lose my mind at this point

So this is how it feels to be with someone you truly love ?

Even when I'm walking I feel like I'm simply floating in the clouds

Ahh, I need to calm down

But first, I need to let my friends know about that

Even though, I actually have an idea of what their reaction will be since they told me to stay away from him

I glance through the curtains of the living room, now I can see the bodyguards

Since I know they exist, and they know that too, Jimin gave them new orders yesterday night, and now I can clearly see them watching my apartment, looking like Will Smith and his colleague in the men in black movies

Maybe I should try to befriend them so I can feel less tense about them watching me

They're really stressing me out with their serious and unreadable faces

I grab my PC to call my friends on facetime, I won't be able to survive an other second without telling them

Today I decided to stay at home, cause...first of all, I'm not confident yet to go out even though I have bodyguards
Second of all, I'm not ready yet to see Alessio

I kinda feel a little guilty for how fast I replace him

In the afternoon, we broke up, and at night, I already had a new boyfriend

It's unfair, for him

But I keep praying in my heart so he can find someone perfect for him, and I know he will

I wait for a few seconds for my friends to accept my call , nervously

And after what seems to be an eternity, their faces appear on my computer's screen

Bellatia is feeding baby Kyu with a feeding bottle of milk and Kailah probably just woke up, only her messy hair and an eye are showing in the camera

" I just woke up " Kailah complaints

" Obviously " Bella says while rocking her baby slowly and humming a lullaby to him

Even without makeup on and simply a robe, Bellatia still looks dressed up

I smile slightly, it's crazy how we all have different lifestyle even though we're almost the same age

" I have something to tell you guys, I'm sorry if I wake you up or disturb you " I interject

" Go ahead " they reply

Suddenly I feel nervous and I can't find my words

Where do I begin?

I decide to make it short

" I... I'm dating Jimin " I say quickly as if the words were burning my tongue

Bellatia who was focussing on her son is now looking at me, Kailah who only showed an eye in the camera earlier is also staring at me

" I know...insult me and tell me that I'm stupid, but I...I...love him...and I simply can't stop nor fight this feeling " I add

" Did he break up with his..." Bella starts

" Yes " I quickly reply

" And did you breakup with your..." Kailah begins