A MAN TO HEAL

chapter thirty six

POV Suki

He takes a step behind and pushes the door close without breaking the embrace

I close my eyes, feeling him, I wish I could stay in his embrace forever and never let go

Staying in his warmth forever

But tonight, I feel like he is the one who needed that hug the most

" You were crying on the phone, I...I wouldn't allow myself not to show up " I whisper

He doesn't reply yet, just holding me tight as if he was scared I would vanish

" Thank you " he finally responds

I raise my head to look at him, my hands still around his waist

" Do...you wanna talk? " I ask

He looks at me, his eyes sad

Oh I wish I could take all his pain away

" Yeah, I want to " he responds, his voice low

His hands let go of my waist and he takes my hand in his, leading me in the grand hallway of the penthouse

All the rooms were drowning in darkness, only where he picked me had the light on among the rooms in the hallway

" How did you know my address? " He asks as we get in what is probably is bedroom

I feel my cheeks flush as I remember my strategy earlier

" I screamed as loud as I could and five men broke into my house ready to attack, they're very effective your bodyguards,
They're so discreet that I used to believe that they were invisible
Well yeah, that's how I convinced them to drive me to their boss place "

I hear him chuckle as he turns on a lamp instead of the big light, keeping the room in a dim lit ambiance

" That's smart, I wouldn't have thought of it myself " he replies softly

I give him a shy smile

" How are you... feeling? " I ask him

He remains at the other hand of the room, and I remain at the entrance door

He shrugs

" Empty " he says

" I'm sorry... " I start

He walks slowly and sits on the neat bed

" I'm the one who should be saying that Suki "

" You said that already...on the phone
But I...I think I should apologize as well " I say as I sit next to him on the bed

" The way I reacted yesterday and all the things I said to you, I'm sorry...I was angry and also terrified, I've never experienced such level of fear and stress at the same time
I should not have talked to you like that cause, you were simply trying to... protect me "

He looks at me

" How are you feeling? " He asks me back, not saying anything about everything I just said

I take a deep breath as I cross my arms

" I don't know...I honestly don't know how I feel, it's like... it's still unbelievable "

" I know " he says

Our voices are still so low and his is deeper due to our low tones

" I'm trying to understand, but I don't, I can't...like, what's the reason? Yes we kissed, but nothing else happened to trigger her like that, it's not like we slept together or...I don't know, she doesn't have a reason to hate me like that " I say as my voice cracks and my tears threatening to spill